She met him as a child, he raised her like his daughter...until she fall in love with him. She was the princess of a kingdom, betrothed to another strong king. He was a young priest, swore to only love god and never touch or even think about any woman. 
 Will he be able to resist that love and temptation, and stop himself from doing the greatest sin? Did she ever get the love she wanted? Or will she be trapped in a loveless marriage? 
And will society ever let them two together or the pure love will be treated as a sin?
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I chuckled hearing his answer, he was talking like a possessed man, without any emotion. I already knew I was going to get rejected by him, but still, I tried...
He is a priest after all and had years of experience in resisting seduction. What was I even thinking when I decided to tell him my feelings? 
“ Sure Father, I won't get late”, I replied and turned around as I get the worst idea of my life. I can't be more shameless, can I? It's all worth it though...for him, I have no shame. 
My heart was pounding, and my whole body was shivering because of fear. Was I really going to do this? Hell, yes. 
The soft silk gown fell from my body when I removed it. My long golden-brown hair was hiding my back but still, it was outrageous to stand naked in front of another man, and it was even more sinful if that man is your father!
I saw his lascivious gaze when I turned around after sitting in the bathtub. The rose petals were hiding my body, but my bare shoulder was still visible. 
It wasn't even allowed for me to reveal my full face to anyone, but here I am, naked in front of a priest.


Worship and Desire

After a long half-hour of discussion about my skills, we finally started discussing the important things, like; the future of our realm, tax, winter food storage and border disputes. If I thought, after my little dagger show they all couldn't be more fascinated by me then, I was wrong. Whenever I talked about politics or accounts so casually they seemed taken aback but after some time when they realised I wasn't a blind stupid queen as Lady Katerina rumoured, everyone seemed to be less stunned and more focused on work. 


And this was all thanks to Father Nicholas, all those sleepless nights he had forced and scolded me to learn, stay awake and taught me this...all those times I almost hated him to make me read so many books or made me calculate taxes, now, that all paid off. How much I wanted him to be here, to make him feel proud of me, to show him his hard work didn't go in vain, but I couldn't always get everything I wanted, could I? 


Chapter 33: Xenia