She met him as a child, he raised her like his daughter...until she fall in love with him. She was the princess of a kingdom, betrothed to another strong king. He was a young priest, swore to only love god and never touch or even think about any woman. 
 Will he be able to resist that love and temptation, and stop himself from doing the greatest sin? Did she ever get the love she wanted? Or will she be trapped in a loveless marriage? 
And will society ever let them two together or the pure love will be treated as a sin?
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I chuckled hearing his answer, he was talking like a possessed man, without any emotion. I already knew I was going to get rejected by him, but still, I tried...
He is a priest after all and had years of experience in resisting seduction. What was I even thinking when I decided to tell him my feelings? 
“ Sure Father, I won't get late”, I replied and turned around as I get the worst idea of my life. I can't be more shameless, can I? It's all worth it though...for him, I have no shame. 
My heart was pounding, and my whole body was shivering because of fear. Was I really going to do this? Hell, yes. 
The soft silk gown fell from my body when I removed it. My long golden-brown hair was hiding my back but still, it was outrageous to stand naked in front of another man, and it was even more sinful if that man is your father!
I saw his lascivious gaze when I turned around after sitting in the bathtub. The rose petals were hiding my body, but my bare shoulder was still visible. 
It wasn't even allowed for me to reveal my full face to anyone, but here I am, naked in front of a priest.


Worship and Desire

On the dark cloudy night, I again limped through the back gate, my steps were slow and quiet as I climbed the stairs, didn't want to awaken Alexander and others in the rectory. The tapered cilice belt that I wore around my thigh slashed into my flesh as I walked and yet my soul descanted with the pleasure of service to the Christ. 


I repeated the same words I had been chanting like a mantra for the past three days, since I'd finally accepted that I love her, and for me; that was the biggest sin I could ever commit. A priest loving a woman, and not any woman, his own daughter! Heinous. 


Jesus had provided me shelter and purpose in my life, I'd sworn my self to him, even loving my own flesh and bones is unpardonable, how could I love someone else, that is absurd and my love is a sin, for which I needed penance, I needed absolution. Alexander always said, god is gracious, and forgiveness is assured. 


Chapter 37: Nicholas