The subject of the mayus

The day had become long or so I would like to say, meditating with the mayus at all I could stand was horrible. I listened to everything and it was annoying, the birds singing, the little sounds the mice made in the forest, some insect sounds, it was even annoying to hear Vel talking to Hero playing in the water, and I had to control myself because Hero's excitement levels assaulted me from time to time.

Still having to endure all this was the least complicated part, the mayus exerted so much pressure on me that I thought it was going to crush my bones, it wasn't just bewilderment and discomfort that I felt.

Also sometimes I felt that rage wanted to win me, as if I kept a huge hatred inside me, maybe it was "the" corrupt mayus, although I really don't know, I will have to ask Vel, after that horrible feeling.