Loathsome

I grit my teeth as he gets up to walk out of my room.

My face is down and my hair covers the entire diameter around me. He opened the door and before going through it, I spoke making him stop.

"I understand that you will take me Emperor, but not because I gave in but because you took me by force... I will never give myself to you... Each time you desire me, know that it is through strength you will have me."

He turned completely towards me, his gaze enraged before crossing the distance between us with long strides.

I felt his hand grip my neck forcefully and then the next moment his lips attacked mine. My eyes roll back as I try to push him away as best I can, but to no avail. He is much stronger and bigger than me. This mad emperor is kissing me like he's going to suffocate me and all I can do is punch his chest.

He finally let go of me as I struggled to catch my breath, then I looked up at him glaring at him. I put all the anger and hatred I have in me and that I feel for him into it but he didn't Care.

"I hate you, know this today, I hate you. You are the person I despise the most on this earth."

"What does it matter to me what you may feel for me I am not asking you for your feelings.. when I want your body I will dispose of it as I see fit and whether you like it or not if the gods are with us , you will carry my children as much as I decide."

He got up and walked out leaving me screaming in rage and frustration. I threw my pillow at the door he had just walked through as tears of anger, hatred and helplessness streamed down my face.

Why me ? Why did I have to transmigrate to this place with this hateful man? Why should he be my husband? Why am I a woman who cannot claim her rights? For what ? Why do I have to go through all this?

I put my hand on my lips, wiping them vigorously, I don't care if I have to hurt myself for this, I don't care yes because I want to remove all traces of this man's touch on me. I don't want to feel the taste of his lips or the smell of his skin anymore. I refuse to belong to him but he will come back again for sure and he will want to claim me. To make me his by force and that is out of the question.

I want to cry harder but I won't give him the chance to make me miserable. He's obsessed with my body, he's just like all men, he just wants to take advantage of me and move on. Repulsive like his peers.

After me he will take still others so he will leave me in peace.

I stared at the door he came through and gave my fiercest gaze as if that object were him.

"I won't let you have me no you don't deserve it."