Emotional damage

Part 1 - Facing the situation

While the rest of the group was enjoying the visit to the temple, I and Emi and Aki didn't go out and we were standing in the snow looking up at the mountains.

-Hey little brother, are you alright?

-What do you think, sis?

She gave me a little tap with her shoulder on mine.

-It's all gone to shit, again because of that bitch.

-Yes, unfortunately, but at least something good came out of it, Emi.

-Something good?

I took her hand and squeezed it tightly to keep from breaking down and she did the same.

-You gave him a good slap, I'll never forget that, I wish it had been me who had done it.

-You're right, I enjoyed that part, I won't lie to you.

Aki was holding my other hand, he didn't say anything to give us our space, he knew well that at this moment in our minds we were contemplating the idea of throwing ourselves down the mountain, how bad we were.

-Do you want us to go back to Emi?

When I asked Emi that question, Aki squeezed my other hand very hard as a sign that she didn't want to leave yet, what she didn't realise was that she almost broke my hand with the strength she was squeezing.

-No, let's try not to ruin the party, I know it's difficult, but, tomorrow night we'll see the northern lights, I want that, I want that, I want it. - Emi said.

-Then let's stay, but I don't feel too good to keep enjoying this shitty day... I'm sorry Aki, I know you were the one who was the most excited about this, but I can't do it anymore, my head feels so heavy... almost like the day Emi found me...

Before I knew it, I was on the ground on the snow, with Emi on top of me.

-No, stay here with me, I... I'm... I'm... we are Aki too, don't lock yourself up in your mind again, I beg you, without you I... I couldn't bear it again...

Emi was desperate, her face was destroyed, she couldn't even cry anymore, it was just seeing someone who you would probably say is not right in the head.

-I said I felt like I did that day, not that the same thing was going to happen, I'm here Emi, I'm not that bad, well I am, but I think you know what I mean... ouch.

Emi slapped me on my forehead.

-Don't scare me again, no, you don't know how distressing it was to have lost you, if you go away I'll be alone again.

I think she finally understood Emi, I've always needed her, I depended on her, I can't lie about that, even Aki knows it, but I had never thought about how much Emilia needed me, I had never seen her as helpless as now, I had never thought about how those two years had been for her, obviously I thought they had been hard, but I never imagined how much... I just had to give her a big hug so she could get herself together.

-I didn't mean to scare you.

Aki stuck his head next to me, apparently he had bent down to see how we were doing. Before he could speak I answered him myself, that everything was in order or at least we were trying to with Emi, to whom I didn't dedicate a sweet smile, I put the necklace on Emi's chest, so he could see Aki.

-Don't worry about me, besides, I've had a great time on this trip, and I already knew the temple, so we can do whatever you want.

-How does it sound, lock us in the hotel for the rest of the day, watch movies, drink hot chocolate, eat whatever we want, and well, you can play with Karu, since you can't eat Aki, what do you think.

-Sounds fantastic big sister, a time for the three of us together... you don't know how I want my body to be able to enjoy those things with you, it's sad to miss things because I'm not normal, excuse me for complaining after what happened to you.

-Don't be silly, here of the three of us, you must be the one who suffers the most, but you have the two of us Akari, maybe we are not the best family, we are a little bit sick in the head, and without a doubt the word normal can't be applied to us, but we love you, especially this pretty boy that I have for a brother. - Emi said with a better look on her face.

Part 2 - The grieving children

We joined the beds and we were watching movies for hours, while we ate any junk food we could find, Aki cheered us up from time to time, because she saw how we were trying hard not to break, we were pretending that nothing happened, besides Aki was pleased playing with Karu, but she didn't look as happy as at the beginning, she was still very worried about both of us.

The hours passed and no one moved from the bed, we didn't even turn on the light, which was already gone, the wind had started to blow quite strong, but my mind was so anxious about the meeting with our mother that I couldn't get scared.

This trip was supposed to be for relaxation and in the end it ended up in this disaster.... well for Emi at least, I was able to lose my virginity with Aki, I had made a nice memory in this place... I wish Emi could have made a nice memory as well.

Karu jumped on top of me, leaving Aki who was being very hostile with him, he stayed on my stomach and looked at me.

-What's the matter, my friend, did you get tired of cuddling?

Karu meowed as if he was talking back to me.

-I see, you can snuggle over there, or if you want to eat, there's food in your dish down there.

It was funny, but as if he understood me he took over as a trampoline and went to eat his food.

-That cat is very clever, don't you think?

-Yes, I had already told you, he is able to understand certain commands as if he had been trained.

-Yes, Emi is right, maybe he had a previous owner, or at least someone taught him a thing or two. - Aki said.

-I think so too, Aki.

Aki asked me to put the collar between my wrist and Emi's, which I did, and I was born holding Emi's hand.

-What's going on?

-Since the two of them look like the walking dead from the movies they like, I thought of doing this.

Aki jumped over the two of us, taking care of Emi's operated arm, staying on top of the two of us.

-Come on smile a little, it's depressing to be seeing you like this all the time, I know it sounds selfish, but I don't want to see either of you sad, you two are the ones that keep me going, it hurts to see you unhappy?

I hugged Aki, I would like to tell her that I would be fine, but it wasn't easy to do it, I felt so hurt for having to see that lady, it was exhausting.

-I would hug you little ghost, but I have the only good hand busy with the necklace, and Hikaru's hand, but don't worry, you have to let us go through this too, it's not easy for us, in the end she abandoned us for an idiot younger than our father.

-How was that guy Emi? - I asked a bit interested.

-That's true, you can't remember him, he was supposedly a teacher's assistant at school, he wasn't there for long now that I think about it, he was very tender with me, I think that's why I got to like him, and I wasn't the only one, in the end that guy stayed with that lady.

-I see, but you don't tell me much, neither his name, nor what he was like.

-Why so much interest in Hikaru, after all this time?

-Curiosity Emi, simple curiosity.

-He was stocky, with a long blond hair, he was tall, he dressed very well for his age, I remember he used to talk about Greek mythology, he had an obsession with Cronus, the titan I think it was, that's all, and his name was Kone Keyo, it was a strange name, that's all Hikaru.

-I see... you hate that guy Emi.

-No, not really, I don't hate him, I don't care about his existence, I just hate the bitch that gave birth to us.

So Kone Keyo, there was something familiar in that name, but at the same time something very distant, as if it gave me the feeling of knowing him, but at the same time I had no idea who they were talking about, although I didn't feel good enough to think about it now.

-Aki, I know I've told you many times, but you're extremely cold honey, how do you manage to sleep with her in your arms, Hikaru.

-That's easy, I wear the thick sweatshirt I have, or sometimes I sleep with the jacket I got as a present, that helps me not to feel the frozen body of my little air conditioner freezing.

Of course Aki didn't like my joke, he squeezed my nose so I couldn't breathe in revenge, but he let go right away.

-Well, my little ghost of my heart, you can bring me the jacket that is in my suitcase, I like to be with you like this, but the cold that you are emanating is making my body ache. - Said Emi more cheerful.

-Yes, of course.

Emi leaned her head on my shoulder.