Do you regret it?

There were 2 matters that were bothering me right now, 1 was the incident that happened yesterday and the other was Alicia.

The silver hair girl that sits next to me. I wonder if she'll still ignore me after what happened yesterday or will she talk to me?

Well even if she doesn't, I shouldn't feel dejected. I should just let it go like I always do, stop feeling so excited damn it.

My heart was beating kinda hard, all I could think of was Alicia and a potential friendship that could help me with my current depression.

The moment Alicia entered the class the whole class erupted seeing her, well she's quite popular isn't she.

Even if she greets me, it'd probably be out of obligation wouldn't it. She'd probably forcing herself to talk to me or greet me.

I wish someone who was actually good looking had helped her instead this little old me. Atleast that way she wouldn't feel so obligated but would actually feel happy to greet him.

Now I'm kinda sad.

As I was thinking all that, Alicia sat next down on her chair and greeted me

"Hello."

For a second I thought I wasn't me, but than soon realised what was next to me was the window and there should be noone floating outside the window.

Realising she was staring at me and I hadn't greeted her I hurriedly greeted her.

"H-hello"

She nodded her haid and sat straight as the teacher entered the class and greeted everyone she continued.

"Alright let's start the class."

It was break time, as I saw Alicia leave her seat to sit next to Rose and her friends.

I took out my lunch box and headed out, today I somehow felt like I wouldn't cry.

As I was about to leave the class, Alicia called out to me.

"Hey, why don't you eat with us."

She asked nonchalantly, oh shit she didn't know about it did she.

Well I used to eat with them before but I didn't have good ties with them so it was obvious they wouldn't like the idea of eating with me.

"Hey Alicia, you shouldn't hang out with him."

"What, why?"

"Ooh, I forgot to mention 2 weeks ago he confessed to his childhood friend here who were good friends for almost 9 years.

He's good at disguising himself as a nice friend but in reality he's filled with dirty thoughts. If you hang out with him, he'll probably confess to you too."

As I heard all this, I felt a sting on my heart. The one who said this was the red haired gyaru.

She was always nice to me but it seems like I'd lost her trust in me.

Nobody protested to what she said, I looked at Rose who wasn't even looking at me and eating her meal.

Guess she doesn't think otherwise either haa...

I beg Alicia has a disgusted face right about now, I don't even wanna look at her.

It totally looks like i stalked her and protected her to look like a hero and be liked by her doesn't it.

So not protesting I just left the classroom and went to the rooftop, I sat down.

Took out my lunch box and seeing the contents and remembering Rose's lunch box I kinda felt like a broke loser.

I still don't understand how I cought feelings for a girl like her.

She was leagues ahead of me. She shouldn't even have been my friend, if it weren't for us being in the same Elementary school and if I hadn't stopped her bullies, she'd have never even looked at me.

So I tried all over again, not being able to protest to what she'd said.

Because it was true, now that I think about it. For 9 years she never really noticed that I'd liked her even though we were so close.

I feel like I was able to suppress my feelings for her so well and if it weren't for me wanting to get some closure I'd have never told her how I felt.

What a bloody brilliant day. It started well but looks like it won't last long. Alicia definately won't talk to me anymore, I'm sure of it.

Well it was nice until it lasted.

...

"The fuck was that?" Asked Rose

"Damn it, why did I say that?" Said Alice.

Seeing their pissed off self Alicia couldn't comprehend what was going on.

Rose was pissed off at what Alice had said and Alice was confused as to why she said something like that.

"What's going on? I don't understand."

"Was there a need to be that harsh on him?"

"I was just pissed off alright. She suddenly called out to him like it was nothing and I've been suffering trying to even make eye contact with him."

"You are angry that the moment I rejected him he stopped talking to you?"

"Obviously."

"I didn't know you liked him that much."

"He's like a little brother to me. We were such good friends and he had to ruin it all by confessing to you. And than proceed to ignore us all."

"So that's why you keep staring daggers at him."

"Mmm, I shouldn't have said that should I."

"Forget it, that bastard just as I am about to say something he always runs away."

"After that incident your vocab has gotten quite violent hasn't it Rose."

"I'm not sure anymore, I rejected him and said bad stuff to him. I didn't know his love for me was so sincere, after he suddenly confessed to me I felt rage inside me and I said I was disappointed in him.

I was in a misconception that he was lusting over my body, but the way he said it didn't seem like that was the case.

At the end not being able to know what to say, I just felt disgusted at myself for calling him a disappointment when I didn't even try to understand him."

"You... Rose, don't tell me you actually regret rejecting him?"

"I... I don't know."

...

***END OF CHAPTER 5***