MY MOMENTS AS NRI

It is 19.21 hours from the United States to Singapore. I am not in the mood to read or do any work, because have not recovered from the shock. I lost all hope to stay in foreign countries. My memories went again to my olden days of staying in foreign countries.

In my youth, I was very busy, with only work no leisure, no entertainment, just work. Gathering knowledge, and working day and night, in that midst I never had many friends. The enjoyment days like New year's, festivals, and weekend outings. 

I was always busy with some work. My other colleagues will enjoy themselves, but I never able to accompany them. During holidays they call me to have dinner and other leisure activities, but I will not agree with them, maybe I feel loneliness in my heart.

I feel all these things are just for time to pass. Maybe I feel leisure is just a waste of time. Maybe I was afraid of the mask which I am wearing for covering my weakness such as anger frankness, loneliness, and searching for the person who will bestow herself on me.

I don't know what the other thing is, but I am a common man who doesn't want to express my weaknesses to the outside world. I was afraid to open up my interest and other good and beautiful things in this world.

Many things make me happy but I was maintaining distance from them. This was until I saw her. Once a year we get two months' leave when I was in Dubai because due to heat rays flowing and it was intolerable heat during that time.

So, the organization provides leaves. During this time, we NRIs get a chance to go to their hometown and they can stay, but the majority of NRIs go to their home. I also visit during that time. Before coming during the vacation my mom made a general thing and put forward the marriage proposal, which I rejected right away, but my mother did not become mad at me, as if she expected that.

We miss so many occasions while staying in foreign countries. Some are when you are sick you miss your parents a lot. When you are in your hometown you did not require half of the medicine because you are cured merely by the love of your family and just some homely medications, but if it is not in your hometown you have to depend on medicines, and time will not surpass.

During the days in your hometown, people visit you and time passes fast and the air will purify you and make you lively and energetic. It is a very awkward situation when there is good news to share and celebrate like a job promotion, childbirth, or new purchase during the festivals you miss the happy faces of your dear ones and you miss their presence and they miss you in the same manner.

Festivals at home are the best celebration in everyone's life. In foreign countries, it is just to manage the day by taking leave and going out. The foreign festivals are amazing but not compared to the festivals which we celebrate in India.

Special occasions such as celebrations events which are happening at home like Marriage ceremonies, Ring Ceremonies, Business openings and many more events we miss them all abroad. Some celebrations are small but still, they are lively.

After that, I went back to my old memories, of my chidhood. When I was a child. I was having a good friend Anamika who always like to play with me, she is my neighbor, and in the loneliness of my life, she is only the person who take care of me. Whenever someone bullies me I was always protected by her.

She is an Independent, open, kind, and playful girl who always wants to smile and loves to do things that her heart says. If she decided to do something she will reach any end and achieve it. A very lively and patient, beautiful girl.

At a very young age, her father has good progress in the business of scents, and cosmetic products. She went to Germany when she was just ten years old. I still remember her eyes filled with tears; I still remember her.

Once during vacations, I am not so lucky to attend the celebrations, but luckily, I can able to attend only one marriage during my days in foreign countries and it was my younger sister's marriage.

After I came to my hometown, I decided to talk about my likeness but was not able to talk about my wedding, because there is my sister's marriage and we have to do all the preparations, I felt it is better to talk after the wedding.

The wedding was completed successfully, but I was merely attracted to the girl who is helping my family throughout the wedding, after inquiry I came to know that she is the neighbor and friend of my sister, and they are classmates during college, and she is the same age of my sister.

The next day my mom called me and talked about the marriage proposal, they told me they already decided to make me wed the girl, and also she put some emotional tactics to make me willing to be wed.

I don't leave any choice but to obey her, is that I cannot able to find that girl who is my friend, and doesn't get an opportunity to say that I like her very much. I must have to follow the formalities and customs of marriage even if I am not willing by heart.

We have the ceremony to meet a girl but in the presence of elders. I chose this opportunity to put my heart before her. When we saw each other, I was dumbstruck, she is the same girl whom I met during my sister's wedding. We went through her house and the rooms of her house and saw an album in her room. That is the photo frame when she was young. I went near to look closer at the frame, it is the frame of two young children merely of ten or fifteen. It was a photo of a girl and a boy and when I look closely it was a photo of mine when I was young and the girl is the same girl who is my friend.

I liked her when I saw her first time. She has the same behaviors as my friend. I understood that we are fated together. I talked about everything about me and she remembers me till now. In the end, we finally laughed and I agreed to the marriage.

The marriage is held before I return to foreign countries, and I have to make preparations to make her come with me so that I cannot feel alone. I was cruel to make my new bride stay back, but I don't have any other choice. I bid farewell to all.

After I return, I arranged everything for her to come back, I completed all the formalities, and finally, we stayed together and today we are together for ten long years. The pilot announced the landing of the airplane and made me wake from my memories.

I took a cab and rushed to my home when the door opened, Anamika was in tears and hugged me tightly, that hug made me relieved from the pain, I have gone through the three months in the United States.

After seeing me my children run to me and they all miss me a lot even though I missed them. After the freshen up and having dinner I talked to her about that and decided to leave this place and settle in my hometown. She told me the same thing, she told me that her contract period will end in a week, and she wants to take a break for a while. After returning to her hometown, she will take a job in any college in India

Love is not an attraction of outer appearance, but a mutual understanding, and dedication, and we are free to vent anger, and irritation, and do whatever we like to do. It is respecting each other interests, and in that case, we are fated with each other. These long years we are like that. I have to agree to what she wanted and we went to sleep.

The next day the same routine started, we have to go for jobs, I reached the office and the issue had with me does not have much effect, and Ramesh came to my side, and told some satisfactory words, and consoled me, I started to work and finished the day.

After freshening up I went through the Visa documents and other citizenship formalities and other things to be included because this time I want that the visa should be approved. This is the correct time for me to return.

I arranged everything and we had our dinner before sleeping, my children came to me and asked me to tell them a story, but I don't have that opportunity to tell the bedtime story, it is the plot made by my lovely wife, maybe they insisted her to spent time with me. 

I told them two stories until they fell asleep. I realize that each moment of life has its beauty, and in the same field, it beholds, every hour, a picture that was never seen before, and which shall never be seen again. in that midst I also fall asleep unknowingly. When she took them to their room I don't know.

Nothing is quite beautiful alone but is beautiful in the whole world. A single object is only so far beautiful as it suggests this universal grace. Nothing divine dies. All good is eternally reproductive. The beauty of life and the moments will reform itself in the mind, and not for barren contemplation, but for new creation. It will be a new beginning.

 Life always wears the colors of the spirit. To a man laboring under calamity, the heat of his fire hath sadness in it. Then, there is a kind of contempt for the landscape felt by him who has just lost by death a dear friend. The sky is less grand as it shuts down over less worth in the population.

The night sky is dark and the stars awaken a certain reverence, because though always present, they are inaccessible; but all natural objects make a kindred impression when the mind is open to their influence.

The adjacent weeks are very tiring, and work pressure, and Christmas and new year's eve are approaching and the year 2016 is going to complete. During the eve I went outing with my family. In the crackers and the evening lights, and the lively streets, she looks more beautiful in the crackers light, an unforgetful memory of my life. Children are the happiest on that day.

We had a good outing, spending time with your family is the most adorable thing in your life. With an attentive eye, each moment of the year has its beauty, and in the same field, it beholds, every hour, a picture that was never seen before, and which shall never be seen again.

It is the spectacle of new year's morning from the hilltop over my house, It is filled with beautiful orange light from dawn to sunrise, maybe it is my new beginning, I hoped that my visa documents get approved and I go to my hometown as soon as possible.