Blue

 (This part contains mention of self harm and angst. Suc*de is never a solution and this book don't encourage such. If you are not comfortable please skip)

Blue

He saw only blue. The deep cold ocean embracing him in his arms. He let his body he emerged in it's arm. He could see his body drowning low and low. He could feel those dark hands pulling him down.

And with finally breathe he closed his eyes and let those dark hands drown him.

People will think it's his weakness to kill himself. It was weak of him to not fight for himself. He should have stood up for himself. He should not have taken this step.

But only the person himself knew how much strength one needs to take this step.

Every living thing in this world is afraid to die. Even if you try to kill an ant it will try to save himself. Why would a human not try to save himself.

Dying before their time, before getting old, before seeing their offspring, before getting married, before earning money, before building career, before reaching ones goal.

Nobody wants to die. He didn't too. He too wished for a happy life and perfect family.

But only the ones in his shoe will know how much strength was needed to drag his weak body to the deep ocean.

Nobody will know, how much desperately he wanted a happy life.

Nobody will know, how much desperately he wanted a perfect family.

Nobody will know, how much desperately he wanted to live.

How much desperately he wanted to get out of this darkness.

How much he tried to gain happiness.

How much he tried and tried until he failed thousands of times to the length he couldn't even try anymore.

And finally slept in the arms of the vast cold ocean. A sleep from which he won't ever wake up.

Won't wake up ever again

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A/N

Depression (major depressive disorder) is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think and how you act.

Fortunately, it is also treatable. Depression causes feelings of sadness and/or a loss of interest in activities you once enjoyed.

It can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems and can decrease your ability to function in life.

Depression can happen to anyone. People who have lived through abuse, severe losses or other stressful events are more likely to develop depression. Women are more likely to have depression than men.

There are various effective treatments for depression. These include psychological treatment and medications. Seek care if you have symptoms of depression.

Talk to your friends, family, partner, anyone that can help you. Seek help.

Don't think about other's taunting gaze. There is always someone who cares.

Even if the whole world seems dark there always be a light for you.

Don't quit.

Fight for it.