remember [February 17th, 2021]

sometimes i remember the time when i was told lies about a server and forced to spread it - causing me to be banned from said server.

sometimes i remember the time when i had a curious cat, the hate and pain that came with the triggering and rude comments/questions

sometimes i remember the time when i was bullied by my classmates for being neurodivergent - bullied for using a computer in class

sometimes i remember the time i was bullied by my friends older brother

sometimes i remember the time i moved cities, returned for a visit and none of my friends remembered me

sometimes i remember the time my best friend was forced to bully me- by another girl, I still dont know why

sometimes i remember the time i got into the art school of my dreams, only to find out i was moving two months later.

sometimes i remember the time when my middle school friends dropped off the face of the earth - not wanting to stay in contact with me anymore

sometimes i remember the time that my high school friends forgot who i was once i left for college

sometimes i forcefully forget my past

sometimes i forcefully repress all my memories of highschool

sometimes i forcefully repress memories from a camp that i worked at for one summer.

most times i forget basic things, but sometimes - i like to forget it all.