Chapter 3

~ Nathan's POV~

'How does he like he eggs? Scrambled or sunny side on the top?' I'm standing here infront of the frying pan‚ contemplating whether I should make scrambled eggs or not. I can't remember how Robert used to love his eggs. I am still getting a hang of adjusting to this new life of adulthood and since we don't live together I no longer get to see how Robert does his morning routines and shit.

It's been seven fucking years since we last spent a morning together.

Pretty soon I hear footsteps coming in. "You're awake..." I don't need to check to know that it's Robert.

Looking at him now I can see the flustered mess he's in. But damn does this man look sexy in his mornings or what?

Just seeing how all that curly hair on his head is all a big mess makes him look so hot. Not only that‚ but he's shirtless‚ dressed in only his boxer.

Robert has one heck of a good body and he knows. It's why so many girls are smitten over him and although he always used to go for the slutty ones‚ Robert was never really a ladies man. Always reserved and once he does get in a relationship with someone he shoes real committment. But what did he get in return in his last relationship?

I am glad he's taking it so well though. One wouldn't tell that he just had a breakup.

"...about last night. Can we not talk about that?" Robert says to me‚ avoiding any eye contact and I'm not sure what I should make of his response.

I get that it was all a lot for him to process‚ but even I have to admit‚ it all just happened. I couldn't help it. Seeing him get so hard. For me? That's all I ever fucking wanted. To be seen.

I'm not going to leave things like this. Robert is gay and if it wasn't for that price of a dad of his‚ he would've figured it all out on his own by now.

I had to stand in the sidelines and watch how his parents tried to mould him into this perfect son. They didn't like seeing me with him. I mostly believed it was because of my family's status at first‚ but I knew it was more then that.

Robert and I have been close since we learnt how to climb trees. Since the day I saw him‚ I felt like I was meant to be tied to him forever. Anyone would've seen it as innocent young friendship‚ but it was more then that.

It broke my heart when my parents sent me to a damn boarding school and it also didn't make me hate those abusive fucks less. But when I finally saw Robert again and what a strong handsome man he became‚ he fucking blew my mind away. Every day and fucking night want to have him in my bed.

No matter how many twinks I fucked‚ none of them were ever good enough. None of them could give me Robert.

And now that I finally have him‚ I am not letting him slip away. Not again.

"As you wish." I decide not to push the matter too much. If he needs time to process that‚ then I'll give him that. "How do you want your eggs?"

"You already forgot?" Robert sounded amused.

I looked back and I was glad to see him smile. He was not mad at me and didn't feel like I was taking advantage of him last night. He didn't show any shame at all. "Can you blame me?"

Robert stands up and he walks to stand next to him. I smells fresh‚ like he just had a shower and I can now see how damp his hair is. And he's neck is covered by all the marks I left on his body. Just having him this close makes me so damn hard.

"Give me that you piece of shit." He takes the spatula from my hand and now it's clear Robert is back to his old self. We normally cuss at each other and I love it when he calls me names. It just sounds sexy when he calls me a piece of shit or fucker. "I am not picky‚ never was even as a rich kid. I always believed one should take what you receive deal with it. Life is too precious to be picky."

"Since when do you give wise old speeches?" I fold my arms above my chest. "Are you sick?" it was obviously meant as joke as Robert started to chuckle.

He looked back at me seeing the stupid smile on my face before playfully swatting my arm. "Oh shut up! I have watched fair share of Dr Phil you know!"

"You and I both know that's not true. You used to get so pissed when you used to watch dragon ball z and your dad always came to snatch the tv Remote to-"

"Watch his Dr Phil show." We both spoke in a unison before starting to laugh. I love watching him smile like this. I am pretty sure Desna is long and forgotten and maybe I played a huge part in that.

I decide to go make us some coffee‚ seeing that his coffee machine was already up and working. I fill up two mugs with a strong coffee blend‚ just the way he normally likes it before I carry them to the kitchen island. Putting his cup down next to his plate while he dishes those scrambled eggs out for himself.

Next he sits down and calmly starts eating. He no longer has that smile on his face and I can tell now there's something on his mind.

"You want to talk about it?" I ask him.

Robert slowly looks at me before brushing his hair back with his fingertips. "I don't know...I just...I'm not gay Nate. You know that."

My heart almost drops in the pit of my stomach. I thought atleast that he'd not see that after last night‚ but I was wrong. He's denying it. Or maybe I am just seeing things.

"I guess you're right." I say‚ keeping my voice stern.

"We're best friends Nate. This was wrong and should never happen again."

Wrong? I don't exactly get what was wrong about anything. The night was special and it makes me angry how he is suddenly going to shove it to the side like it was one big mistake. Something I'll just get over and forget. No I stay around and listen to this crap.

I slam down the coffee and then stand up. "Whatever I get it!" I sigh and then take the fucking exit. "I'll see around Nate."

"Where you going!?"

I halt and look back. He's staring at me and I honestly don't even know what to say to him myself. "Just eat your food. Forget last night ever happened and do whatever pleases you!" I threw my hands in the air. Maybe I was being dramatic but I was more pissed at myself for ever believing something could happen between us.

Maybe I do have regrets.