Part 6

They both looked at me like I was the wonder of the world. Both looked at each other and Jimin was about to speak when Luna ran up to us:

- Nina? - She looked at me.

- Hello, - I nodded, - what are you doing here?

- We... - Luna looked at V and he smiled a little.

- Jungkook got hurt, that's why we're here, - Jimin explained to me while they looked at each other strangely, I raised an eyebrow.

Why did he get hurt? More precisely, or very strongly? I wonder where he is and how he feels.

- Jungkook is hurt?

- Yeah, nothing bad, just a leg injury, - Jimin smiled and patted V lightly on the shoulder.

- Yes, yes, - V looked at me, - I hope he will recover in a couple of days, then there is a concert in Los Angeles, - he looked at Luna again.

- Yes, - she nodded, - that's right, and why are you here?

- I... - I tried to think of something quickly, but nothing came to mind.

- Miss, I'll take you to the ward, - said the nurse I had forgotten about.

- I will do it myself, - I nodded to her.

- Okay, then the third ward on this side, - she smiled at me.

- Why? Feeling sick again? - Luna almost whispered the last words.

- No, - I looked at the guys who were watching me, - it's just a complicated cold.

- A cold? - Jimin frowned.

- Ummm.. yes, my immunity is very weak, so..um.. I need some dropper for me, - I kept looking at the ground, Luna must have understood that I was lying. Well, I was hoarse, so it wasn't a big lie.

- Dropper? - came a voice behind them. As Jimin and V turned away from me, I saw Jungkook with a crutch in his hand, - Nina? - he tried to get to me as soon as possible.

- Hello, - I smiled a little, he knelt down next to me.

- How are you? What's wrong? Why are you here? - he looked me over from head to toe.

- Um.. a complicated cold, - I tried not to look down.

- Really? Are...

- Maybe let's let Nina rest, and it's time for you too, - smiled Luna and grabbed the wheelchair with her hands, - I'll take you.

- Okay, see you then, - I nodded to them.

- Nina... - I still heard Jungkook's voice behind me, but I guess he was detained by one of the boys. Before Luna opened the door to the ward, I glanced over at Jungkook, who was looking at me with a frown, Jimin's hand was on his chest.

- You know, he's weird today, - Luna said after taking me into the ward and closing the door. I got up from the wheelchair and sat on the bed.

- Why? I mean who?

- Jungkook, he's lost and completely distracted today. He fell several times during the rehearsal, and the photo session was bad, - she sat down on the armchair.

- He didn't say why? - I looked at her.

- No, but the guys mentioned that he had gone early in the morning and then returned straight to their shared house, - she looked around the ward, - and where are your things?

- He was at the hotel, - I muttered to myself, - I won't be here long, they should let me go tomorrow, isn't it time for you to go yet?

- Yes, - she stood up, - the boss mentioned that you won't be there for a week, - I nodded, - I told you not to start working as soon as you left the hospital, you wouldn't be in this situation now.

- You're right, I really didn't have to work.

I agreed with her, but not for health reasons. If I hadn't started working, I wouldn't have to avoid Jungkook and his confessions now. After saying goodbye, Luna left the ward half an hour ago. I lay in bed constantly until my head exploded from all the thoughts and migraines. I was trying to take a little nap when the ward door opened and closed. I think the nurse brought my medicine, but when I opened my eyes I saw Jungkook next to me:

- You? - I was a little confused, I easily sat up in bed.

- Me, - he grinned.

- What are you doing here? I looked at his leg as he limped closer.

- How are you? He completely ignored my question.

-- I'm fine, why are you here? - I rise a eyebrown.

- I...

His words were interrupted by a nurse entering the ward.

- How are you, Nina? - she looked at me.

- I'm fine, a bit of a headache, - I said still looking at JK who was looking at me.

- Well, now there will be a medicine drip, it should help, - she smiled and prepared the needle. Glancing at Jungkook, I unrolled the sleeve of my left hand a little. There were a few scars here, but the most prominent were the bruises. Some are fresh and some are older, - maybe another hand? - the nurse frowned a little after looking at my hand.

- Um.. this will be fine, - I nodded to her and looked at JK.

He was looking at my hand with a strange expression. Maybe it's regret? It doesn't matter. I don't want him here. I closed my eyes when I felt that the nurse had already prepared my hand:

- This will be over soon, just breath, - she warned me, touching my skin with her cold hand.

The sting was always painful. My body was already exhausted, so now the slightest pain seemed unbearable. I frowned more when she was still doing something to my arm and I felt the needle under my skin more than before. Warmth enveloped my other hand. I opened my eyes and looked down at my right hand, which was in the man's hands. JUNGKOOK. I had forgotten about him for a second:

- That's all, - the nurse's voice made me turn to her, - you will feel a little sleepy now, that's normal, - she smiled.

- Understood, - I nodded.

- If you will be around, check her body temperature and press the button if you have to - Nurse Jungkook smiled.

- Okay, - his rich voice filled the ward.

After nurse left, I turned to the JK. He was still watching me:

- Why are you here? - I asked the same question.

- I'm here because you need me as much as I need you, - he squeezed my right hand. Realizing that he was still holding my hand, I suddenly pulled it away.

- What? - I raised an eyebrow, I don't understand him at all.

- You can't lie...

- Listen, - I tried to sit more comfortably, - I don't know what love at first sight it is or something like that, but I don't feel the same for you, - I glanced at him and lowered my eyes, - before everything is not serious, please leave me alone , - I didn't really feel that way. I wanted him around, but at the same time I knew it wasn't good.

- You can't stop me, - he said after a few seconds.

- If it's about me, I can, - I looked at him. He was looking at me.

- I told you that I know what I want, so please don't stop me from taking what I want, - he smiled a little.

- Am I a thing for you or what? - I frowned, - you're a star, so you think that just when you want , everyone will fall at feet? - I think I will have hysterics if he continues to spout nonsense.

- No, - he shook his head, - I've never felt anything like that, so I don't want to let go so easily.

- Jung...

- Listen, I'm not asking much of you, just don't avoid me, - he took my hand again, - I know you're free, so let me be your friend, - he smiled, - at least this way I can see you.

- Friends don't kiss each other, - I muttered, lowering my head and pulling my hand out of his.

- I want you to see me as a friend, I didn't say you were my friend, - from his words I suddenly looked at him and he was still smiling.

- What?

- Now rest, - he lightly pushed me onto the pillow, - I'll visit you later, - he smiled.

After looking into my eyes a little longer, he turned and left the ward. I did not understand anything. My heart is beating like crazy. He doesn't understand what I'm saying to him, and I don't understand him at all. Why did things have to turn out the way they did? Everything used to be simple before, if a guy approached me, my cold communication and complete reluctance would scare him away quickly. And Jungkook is completely different, even though he didn't have the chance to know me very well, he doesn't pay attention to my cold communication at all. I thought that when we left the hotel, he wouldn't show up again. How else can I push him away? He can't communicate with me because when the time comes he won't be able to let go so easily. And sooner or later it will be necessary. I think I need to change the ward so he doesn't know which one. I tried to sit up and get out of bed but my body refused. As soon as I stood up, I fell on the bed. My body didn't seem to listen to me anymore. I tried to stand up and climb back onto the bed. After several attempts, I finally sat up on the bed and sighed. I've never felt so weak before, I know I've passed out several times, but my leg has never given up. There were not many drops left, which is probably why I feel weak. I lay down on my left side so that my arm was outstretched. My strength is really gone. At least the most important thing is that no one saw me. My disease, so I will be alone with it...

I opened my eyes as the heat became unbearable. The ward was dimly lit by a small table lamp. My left arm was bandaged and the dropper was no longer near the bed. My body was somewhat rested, I felt fresher. I sat up in bed. Turns out I was covered. The hospital clothes were all wet with sweat, even though it wasn't that hot in the ward. I would say maybe more cold. I touched my forehead and it was hot even though my hands were cold. I was a bit thirsty and there was no water around me. I stood up barefoot on the cold floor. The legs were stronger than before, but the weakness was still felt. I moved towards the door when I heard a voice behind me:

- Nina? - I knew what it was, but I still flinched. How did he get here if I didn't see him.

- JK, - I turned to him and he had already stood up from the armchair. That place wasn't that well lit, so I didn't pay attention.

- How are you feeling? He put a few fingers on my forehead.

- I think it's good, - I nodded, - I'm going for water.

- It's here, - he stepped back for a moment and, pulling out a water bottle from his backpack, handed it to me.

- Thank you, - I nodded, turning the bottle and taking a few sips. I was really thirsty - what are you doing here? - I passed him and sat on the bed.

- You keep asking that, - he turned to me, - I'm here because you're here, is that good to you?

- No, it's not good, - I took another sip of water.

- No wonder, - he murmured, - you have a fever, the nurse said it was normal knowing your situation, but I didn't understand what she meant, - I almost choked after his words.

- She... - I coughed several times, - because I have a cold, a fever is quite normal.

- It's normal to lie at home watching TV with a cold, not in the hospital, - he looked at me.

- Well, to me it's normal to be in the hospital, - I rolled my eyes. Even in the dim light, I could see he was smiling. He was wearing a black tracksuit, his eyes showed that he was tired, but the smile did not leave his lips. The lips were a soft pink color, I think he uses gloss to make those plump lips look even more perfect.. wait what?

- Nina? - he waved in front of me.

- What? I pulled my gaze away from his lips.

- I asked, are you not hungry? - he looked at me - yesterday you fell asleep early enough, because when I came back the nurse took out your drip, it's six in the morning now.

- No thanks, - I nodded and lowered my head. Why am I thinking about his lips?

- I think that... - he was interrupted by Dr. Jeremy entering the ward.

- Nina, - he smiled.

- Doctor - I nodded.

- I have your answers and I think you can go home today, but you need...

- Wait, - I interrupted him, - um.. Jungkook, could you please leave us alone? - I asked. The least I want is for him to hear my diagnoses.

- Of course, I'll be outside the door, - he nodded and stood up to leave.

- Well, is he your boyfriend? - the doctor turned to me and came closer, - I would really like to say something good, Nina, - he sat down next to me.

- I know, - I nodded, completely ignoring his question.

- You will feel better now with the help of medicine, they will help for a month, - Jeremy watched me, - but that doesn't mean that you won't hurt. Your tumor has shrunk, and thanks to the medicine we gave you, it will shrink a bit more, but it can start to grow again, - he scratched his forehead, - in the place where it started, there is not much of it, but there are a few more places where it multiplies.

- Don't say something I didn't know, - I smiled at him.

- I know you don't want to live, Nina, but I thought I would save you, - he put his hand on my shoulder.

- I know, - I nodded.

- Because of your immune system, I can't give you medicine constantly, now the saving grace is that we diluted the medicine. But this is not possible according to the fact. - he looked at the papers and closed his eyes tightly, - your immune system is not taking the medicine at all, and if I continue to give it, you could have a heart attack from the temperature, so . . .

- Say, - I knew what he would say. He always avoided it.

- I...

- Tell me, I need it, - I smirked at him as he looked at me.

- You're dying Nina, - he looked straight into my eyes, - you're dying and I can't do anything, - he lowered his head and a few tears rolled down his cheeks.

I felt sorry for him, he was really trying. He's been trying to save me since my eighteenth birthday and he's never given up. Now, when I see him like this, the real truth hit me. I'm really dying. And everyone who is close to me will have to let me go. No matter how hard I tried to avoid them all, in the end they are still in my life. And now the hardest of all will be for me. No matter which place in my heart Jungkook occupies, he's there. And it doesn't save me at all.

- As I said, - I swallowed a strange lump in my throat, - I didn't hear anything new, - I tried to calm him down.

- This is not a normal reaction, - he wiped his cheeks and looked at me.

- Well, you know I'm not normal, - I shrugged.

- Nina, - he sighed deeply.

- How much do I have left? - I knew I asked this before, but the numbers keep getting smaller.

„

- I... - he interrupted, - I don't think you'll make it for at least two months, Nina. - The operation would save you one hundred percent, but you refused it.

- You know that I will not survive the operation, - I interrupted his words.

- You don't know that, - Jeremy's voice sounded a little stern.

- Neither do you, - I looked into his eyes, - no one knows, so no matter how much is left, I will try not to end it earlier and do something meaningful, for the last time.

- Nina...

- I always wanted to go somewhere, so now I can afford it, when the treatment is no longer worth continuing.

- The treatment would be effective if your immune system helped you. But no matter how hard she tries, she can't get it, - he frowned, - your body is exhausted.

- I know, it's my fault, - I nodded several times, - I killed myself, - although he knows that this was my goal. I couldn't take all this pain anymore - how am I going to survive the rest of my days?

- I will prescribe you medicines, they are strong, - he looked at me angrily, - do not drink alcohol while drinking them, do not overdose, - his gaze was stern, - they will help migraines, but they will not help your weakness and other symptoms of the disease, your memory may get confused, - he looked at the papers in his hands, - your appetite will disappear, you will sleep all the time, the time will come when you won't even have the strength to speak.

- Okay, - I nodded.

- As soon as you feel that you can't take it anymore, come, we'll give you a drip that will save you at least a little, - his facial expression changed with each word, - I'll discharge you, you can go, the fever will last for a couple of days, but it shouldn't be a problem," he got up from the bed, „if you ever change your mind about the surgery, please come.

- Okay. - he knew that I wouldn't show up.

- Call me to let me know how you are doing, Nina, - he patted my cheek and hugged me.

- Not much was missing, really not much, for everything to come out. But I managed to control myself for once, I don't know what happened to Jungkook, but now the urge to cry was not so great. As Jeremy left the ward, JK entered immediately:

- Is everything alright? He looked at me until my eyes were on the door.

- Yes, - I looked at him, - I'm healthy. The temperature will remain for a few days, but it will not cause any problems.

- Great, - he nodded, - will you be able to work? - he sat down in the armchair while I opened the closet door and took out my clothes. The nurse must have brought them while I was sleeping.

- I don't know if I want to work, - I smiled at him and put the clothes on the bed.

- Why? - he jumped from the armchair.

- I wanted to travel for a long time, I think it's time to make it happen, - here I tried to convince myself more. I don't think that's what I need right now, but I'd rather run from a problem I can't solve than try to solve it.

- What about me?

- What do you mean? - I turned to him, he was quite close to me.

- I told you about my feelings and the like.

- JK...

- I remember what you said to me, I know that you don't like all this staring into my eyes, but I can't help it, I like you, - he looked directly into my eyes.

- It doesn't matter, - it also sounded more to me than to him.

- How can it not matter?

- It doesn't matter because you won't be with me all the time, - I muttered and wanted to turn away from him, but he grabbed my hand and turned me around.

- Why are you saying that? - I pulled out my hand and moved away from him a little, but he still turned me towards him, - what do you mean?

- There are no happy endings Jungkook, at least not in my life, - I looked him straight in the eyes, - I'm just asking you to leave me alone before it gets worse, - I pulled my hand away from him. I grabbed my clothes and locked myself in the bathroom.

How well do we know each other? Not a full week? Maybe he's joking? Why did he have to appear in my life? Why I feel some strange shivers inside me is something new and completely unexpected to me. I know he's a star, I know I should go crazy for him. I would have wrapped my arms around his neck long ago if I were normal. But I'm not like that. I don't know what all these strange feelings mean, I don't want them. I know they will only damage me even more than before. I don't want these strange emotions that keep coming to my head. I have a disease, it and my dreams are driving me crazy. Pain. All I know in this life is pain. A person cannot just appear in my life and settle into it. I don't have time for that.

I put on my clothes and left the bathroom. I didn't really look in the mirror, but I ran my fingers through my loose hair a few times. When I left the bathroom, the ward was empty. His backpack was also gone. He left. I knew it would, but it still hurt. No. I'm fine, I've been able to be alone so far, so I'll continue to be. No one was really there during the most difficult stages of my life. Except Dr. Jeremy, of course. I just never let Luna know, so she pretty much knows that if I go missing, she'll find me at the hospital. Now, of course, there are a few guys on the road, but how quickly they appeared. I think it will disappear so soon. I sighed as I made the bed and finally opened the ward door. I wanted to get out of here, start spending my days in a different way. No matter how much I want to end my life right away, because I know that the pain will be more unbearable the longer it goes on, but I will try very hard to end my life at least a little bit happier than I have been all along.

I collected my things from the reception and just left the hospital. I'm tired of visiting it, I keep coming here because of my stupid head. I started a regular treatment that just wasn't going to help me at all. Huh

I am a really strange woman.

I need to go back to the hotel, take care of things there, get my things. I got into a nearby taxi:

- Good day, - nodded the driver.

- Hello, I...

- Lunch, - he smiled and pointed to the dashboard of the car.

- Got it.

I got out of the taxi and looked around. There were quite a few cars, but since it's lunch time now, I don't think I'll find a single one driving. The road to the hotel is long.

I walked down the street at least towards where the hotel should be, although I'm not really sure about that. When driving a taxi, it is much easier to orient yourself where you are than when walking. I knew where my own apartment was, but that luxury hotel was much further away. I took a bus from the hotel because at least I knew where to get off, but now? Maybe I lost? I don't even remember what that hotel looks like. It was absolutely necessary to agree with Jungkook and go to that stupid hotel. Fool! A world-class star shows attention to a dying person, what else could be needed?! That was all that was missing for complete happiness. Maybe he wants to advertise? Although he doesn't know about my illness. What is the difference. Anyone who saw me would think I was sick. Anorexic girl. Similar to a walking skeleton:

- NINA! - as if I heard my name, but I walked on without paying attention. My legs were barely holding on, it seemed like I was about to stumble. I think such a walk will not lead to good

- Nina, damn it! - a male voice called me. I looked back briefly and sure enough there he was. I rolled my eyes and continued walking. You must be joking, what does he need? - Nina! - grabbed my hand and turned to me.

- Are you crazy? - I spoke quietly.

- I've been calling you for some time, why don't you respond? Ben was a little out of breath.

- I didn't realize you called me.

- I... - he tried to catch his breath after running, - I'm here with the car, let's go. We will go together.

- What? Where together?

- You didn't hear? - he pushed me back towards the side I came from.

- What?

- Luna got sick, or rather her nieces and nephew got sick. Her sister also got sick, she's in the hospital

- It's scary, what are they sick with?

- Something like a virus. Yesterday, when she was visiting you, everything was fine, then in the evening the kids got very sick, and it turns out that the whole family was poisoned by something.

- Got it, - I tried to look for my phone while walking, when I found it I turned to Ben.

- Here's my car, - he pointed to a tall black car. It was like a jeep.

- Wow, - I mumbled.

- Get in, - he opened the passenger door for me and I got inside. The whole car was very clean. Although it is not surprising, Ben himself is very clean. And beautiful if you look closely. Most of the time, all the guys like him is beautiful.

- Nina? - Ben called me again.

- Yes? I turned to him, and he was looking at me.

- Are you feeling well? When you disappear somewhere again, you only hear from the third time I call you, - he started the car.

- Sorry, - I muttered, - I'll call Luna, - he nodded and moved from his seat.

- I dialed Luna's number and after several calls she answered:

- Nina? - her voice was weak, - are you calling me?

- No. - I rolled my eyes, - I'm doing things that I didn't do before, - I muttered, - I heard you're sick, get well soon.

- I don't think I will be able to recover before the flight. Or rather, I'm sure I won't , - she sighed, - so I'm sorry, but I won't be able to replace you. I know you promised to leave and stuff," her voice trailed off.

- I just left, - I looked at Ben. He drove calmly, ignoring me.

- I talked to the boss, she told me to tell you that you have two weeks of severance pay. Therefore, your trip to Los Angeles will be pure.

- What? A trip? - I spoke a little louder. When I'm constantly talking, I almost forget that my voice can sound like that.

- Yes, - she sighed, - now you will have to help them get ready for the concerts, and even during them, there is a concert waiting here in New York. And then the big tour in Los Angeles.

- I...

- Nina...I can't anymore...

She hung up. Poor girl. With my immune system, I can't visit it, because it really won't heal... Or maybe just visit?

- Nina? Ben turned to me again.

- That's okey I understood everything, - I nodded to him, - I have a problem now, - I whispered to myself.

I don't know from where or how, but Ben brought me to the hotel where I was staying. Ben stayed outside while I went into the hotel. I nodded to the receptionist and took the elevator to the floor where I was staying. After pulling out the key, I made sure the room number was 246 and after unlocking it, I closed the door behind me.

I hadn't unpacked anything, so I just packed a few things off the ground into my suitcase and headed out the door. When I went downstairs, I was greeted at the reception by the same guy who was there yesterday morning.

- Hello, I'll give you the key, - I put it on the table.

- Hello, well, everything is arranged. We were told you would be leaving today," he nodded. He took my key, hung it up and did something on the computer.

- You do?

- - Yes, by your boyfriend who registered you here, - he smiled after glancing at me briefly, - here we made a refund - he placed the money next to me, - thanks for visiting, we will wait next time.

- Of course, - I looked at the money, - thank you.

I collected everything that the guy gave me and put it in a small compartment of the suitcase. I will have to remember to return it to him. When I left the hotel, Ben was waiting for me outside, leaning against the car door and smiling while looking at his phone:

- And you're already here, - he looked at me when I approached, - I'll take the suitcase.

I nodded and after he took the suitcase I just got into the car. Ben buckled up and after a quick glance at me started the car. We drove , I could tell, to their house, at least it seemed so to me. Ben drove extremely calmly. It was a little uncomfortable when several cars even passed us while honking:

- Don't you buckle up? - Ben spoke as we stood in traffic.

- Um...

- Well, we're almost there, I just asked, - he smiled and we continued to move for a little bit. He didn't ask, so I just sat without saying anything.

It wasn't long before we stopped at the gate. They opened little by little. I said I will not come back here and work with them. But as far as I can see fate continues to mock me and nothing much will change. With a month to go, I don't feel like doing anything drastic going forward, so I'll just go with the flow. There aren't many left anyway. I still need to live somehow. Take care of a few things and then finally get out of here. For good.

We stopped at the fountain and Ben immediately got out and started towards the house. With a deep sigh, I also got out. I felt tired. I wanted to sleep. Which I think is unusual for me. Although the medicine is still working, I think I will need to drink more in the evening. I don't want a migraine attack to start, if they all find out about my illness I'm definitely not going to be good. Although I think it won't work out anyway:

- Hello, - Nam-joon opened the door for us. I stood next to Ben, almost behind him so he couldn't see me.

- Hello, - they shook each other's hand and we went inside. I took off my shoes as did Ben.

Nothing had changed. I really liked the same shimmering floor. I was actually afraid to lift my head and meet HIS eyes. Didn't want to. I am ashamed and unpleasant after all the events that happened. If he starts asking what happened to me? What if he did tell someone here? After all, they are like a family? They have been together for many years.

- I wanted to turn around and get out of here, but my conscience wouldn't let me. As hard as it is for me, I'm here for Luna and Samantha. I'm not selfish, no matter how hard I try to be.

- Hello, - Ben already was no longer standing with me, he was sitting on the couch. While I still didn't leave the place, - and what's the plan?

- Well, - spoke one of the guys, I didn't recognize his voice, and I didn't dare to raise my eyes, - we have a concert tomorrow, but we have a problem.

- Yes, - said another voice, - the doctor is looking at problem.

- I hope....

- Doctor, how is he? - I recognized Nam-joon's voice.

- Well, - sighed the man, - his temperature is high, it doesn't seem like there is anything else, but I don't think he will find the strength for tomorrow's concert. Plus leg pain.

- What will you do? How will you perform without him? - whispered the guys.

- It's a pity that I have to report this, but Mr. Jeon Jungkook is really very sick, - after the doctor's words, I suddenly raised my head.

He is sick?

- Thank you for your help, - Nam-joon accompanied the doctor towards the door past me.

- Where did he get sick? - I didn't even have time to react when I said it and Taehyung and Jimin turned to me.

- Well, he told me that one night he got wet, although he changed his clothes right away, I think that's why - Taehyung shrugged his shoulders.

- Yesterday he also looked bad, then when he hurt his leg he was still with us, then he didn't come back all night, and then he came back like this, - Jimin agreed with him. The other guys were sitting on the couch. Nam-joon is back too.

- What will you do? - Ben asked them. In order not to stand like a fool in the middle of the corridor, I sat down on an armchair near the guys.

- I don't know, he doesn't want to talk or drink anything, he sleeps all the time.

It's my fault. In taking care of me, he didn't take care of himself at all. Of course he got sick.

- Will you stay here? - looked at me and then at Ben Jin.

- I think so, going back and forth tomorrow is not very profitable for us.

- Of course, I told you to stay here. It's full of rooms, Jin laughed.

- Our family is getting bigger, - Jimin sang.

Even though they were in a cheerful mood, there was still an awkward silence in the room. You could see that they were lost.

- Maybe I'll show you the rooms, you can settle in, - V looked at me strangely and stood up.

- Okay, - I nodded.

We followed him through the living room towards the stairs, we went up to the second floor and there was a large corridor with many doors to the left and to the right.

- Since you are not frequent visitors here, you can stay in the rooms right next to the stairs, there is don't need to wander, - he opened the door of the room, which was a few steps from the stairs on the left side, - only the other one will be on the right side.

- I'm there," Ben jumped into the air and run to the other side.

The room was spacious. Of course, the luxury was visible, but if you don't pay attention to every expensive detail, it was quite nice. Just after entering, there was a closet to the right, a white carpet next to it, a large bed covered with white sheets, a large window facing the yard and another door.

- You will have a private bathroom, - V explained to me before I even asked the question, - not everyone has one, but most.

- Nice, - I nodded.

- Mine and Jimin's room is on the very other side of the house, Nam-joon and Jin usually don't stay here, but their rooms are also at the other end, Suga doesn't even remember which room, he likes to change them, and Jungkook's room is five rooms away from you, - the last he said the sentence especially clearly, a strange smile was on his face.

- Understood, - I nodded.

- Kitchen is downstairs. If you find anything you need there, don't be shy Ni.

- Ni? - I raised an eyebrow.

- Don't be angry. This is how the boys and I decided to shorten your already short name, but it sounds nice, - he pulled away from me a little while laughing, - Ni, it sounds nice.

- No way, - I mumbled, - thanks for the info Tae.

- Great, - he winked, - we exchanged nicknames. Now we can be friends, - he smiled.

I nodded. He waved and left, closing the door. With friends. That's all I need. Although I can't say he isn't cute.

I sat on the bed and just stared at one point. Did Jungkook really get sick because of me? As much as I don't like his closeness to me, I can't ignore the fact that I owe him.

I don't know how long I just sat there without moving, but the growling of my stomach woke me up from my trance. I haven't eaten anything in I don't know how long. I didn't get breakfast for the hospital because I left quite early. What time is it now?

- Can I? - knocked several times on the door and Ben entered.

- Of course, - I stood up.

- Here are your things," he pushed my suitcase in and put my backpack on the ground.

- Thank you, - I nodded to him.

- Are you comfortable here? The guys say what kind of pizza do you want? Or you will go down?

- No, I'm fine, - I smiled a little.

- Got it, - he smirked and closed the door as he left.

I sighed. Even though I wanted to eat, I'm good at starving, but I don't think I'll feel better after. Either way I feel weak. I put my suitcase right in the closet and put my backpack on the chair next to the bed. I don't think anyone will be mad if I lie down a little. My duty is only to paint and follow instructions, everything else does not matter to me. If I sleep, maybe all these days will pass faster. I curled up almost on edge in this big bed and tried to fall asleep. No matter how hard I tried not to think, my thoughts kept coming back to Jungkook. I feel bad knowing that a person is sick because of me....