Chapter-43: Fears And Doubts

Mu Chen right away switched off the radio and took Xiao Bo's hand which became cold as ice by the news. He squeezed sharing his warmth trying to comfort him quietly.

Though Song Yi Ming was never a loving father figure to Xiao Bo still he lived with him all these years and couldn't just ignore his death and be nonchalant about it.

"If Father is... then what about Dage? He will be all alone..." Xiao Bo panicked at that thought, he glanced at the elder and gulped his saliva, "...can we go back to S-city?"

Mu Chen hesitated for a moment remembering that Wei Chen was now in captive of his friend Feng Mian.

"Let me check if we can book the flight tickets now." 

Mu Chen used the excuse, turned around the car, stopped near a filling station, and got down quickly calling his friend.

After a few rings, Feng Mian with a stressed voice, "Hm, Mu Chen. What is it?"

"Is Song Wei Chen with you here in B-city?" Mu Chen queried without wasting any time.

Feng Mian rubbed his forehead and with a sigh, "Yes, he is... What about it?"

"Take him back to S-city as fast as possible." 

Mu Chen looked back at the car and Xiao Bo was watching him through the window with an anxious face.

"What-" Before Feng Mian could ask more he was cut off.

"Song Yi Ming is dead. Xiao Bo heard the news accidentally when we were on our way to Li's mansion. He asked me to take him back and is worried about Wei Chen. If you don't want him to start hating you must take-"

"Dammit, alright. I will fly back to S-city with Wei Chen. Why the hell did that Song Yi Ming have to die now of all the time," Feng Mian's voice was filled with frustration.

Wang Mu Chen hung up. He then called his secretary Le Yang and asked him to book the tickets for the flight an hour later so that Feng Mian would get some time to take back Wei Chen.

...

On the other hand, Feng Mian was standing in front of the door nervously clutching onto the handle contemplating whether to go inside or not as last night Wei Chen became so afraid of him that he cried so much just by seeing him in the room.

When Feng Mian tried to get close to him Wei Chen fell into panic. So he left the room and sent a maid to give him the medications and take care of him.

Now, he has to go in and tell Wei Chen about his Father's death. Even Feng Mian thought revealing it would be cruel for the other in the situation he was already in.

For some reason, he hated the way Wei Chen got terrified of him. At first, he was the one who wanted to see him in such a state and crample him more but now that it became reality it left only a sour taste on his tongue.

He closed his eyes, calmed himself, and then entered the room. Wei Chen wasn't on the bed which made Feng Mian tense. 

He walked to the bathroom door and knocked on it before opening it but there was no one inside. 

"Wei Chen?" He called looking through the room. 

He couldn't escape as the door was locked from outside and the room was on the second floor for him to jump out of the window or balcony. Even if he did, there were his men patrolling the whole mansion not to mention because of the wound he caused the other couldn't even walk properly.

So he was sure the other was still inside the room. He saw the hem of the duvet hanging out of the closed wardrobe which he covered Wei Chen with last night. 

Feng Mian immediately walked toward it and slowly opened the door. However, seeing Wei Chen who was hugging his knees tightly and was silently shedding tears, a dull stinging pain surged inside his chest.

No one knew how much Wei Chen was mentally unstable dealing with everything on his own from childhood. Whenever he was frightened he couldn't seek the comfort of anyone as he had to be the mature one.

So he would hide inside his mother's wardrobe filled with her scent whenever the whispers of devils became intolerable for him. After everything that happened to him on the last day, his mind was a mess and unconsciously he went inside the wardrobe to seek solace.

But since it wasn't his mother's wardrobe it only made his mind more unstable. He didn't know what he was supposed to do in the situation he was in... He wasn't that strong to begin with, though he looked like he was.

Now seeing Feng Mian in front of him only worsened his panicked condition. Wei Chen gasped for air feeling suffocated by the fear. He clasped the blanket around him tightly in fright.

Feng Mian understood that Wei Chen was becoming breathless and remembered how the other used an inhaler in the basement which was with him now as the maid gave it to him after she cleaned the room.

"G-Go away... *Huff*... P-Please..."

"Hush, calm down. I am not gonna do anything to you," Feng Mian knelt in front of him and handed him the inhaler.

Though Wei Chen was suspicious he took the inhaler shook it and breathed in after pressing down the canister and held his breath for a few seconds when he felt comfortable enough he removed the inhaler from his mouth and breathed out gently. 

He repeated it two more times until his breathing became stable. Feng Mian just observed him silently and after noticing that his condition became normal he extended his hands and in a second carried Wei Chen out of the wardrobe and placed him on the bed carefully.

Feng Mian became uncertain if he should disclose the death of his Father in the state he was in which might affect him badly. 

Nevertheless, Wei Chen must know of such important news and he had to take the other back to S-City before Xiao Bo arrived there.

...

Meanwhile, back in the S-city, the old butler Pei Chen though horrified by the state his Master's dead body was in, cleaned him thoroughly under the pressure of some big men in black who threatened him that they would kill his wife if he didn't do as he was told.

It was also the reason why he gave the statement to the police that his Master killed himself and came back dispiritedly to the funeral hall where Song Yi Ming's body was lying in the casket.

Anyone, with common sense could see clearly that it wasn't a suicide but a brutal murder no matter how much the old Pei cleaned and dressed his dead master neatly.

But everyone remained silent and some people were even overjoyed by Song Yi Ming's death. No one in the funeral hall shed a drop of tears or was saddened by his death.

Old Pei was the only one with a broken heart and was waiting for his master's sons to arrive there to start the ritual to at least give the peace to his soul that his Master yearned for when he was alive.

He wanted to contact the parents of his late mistress, Chan Hua but he didn't know how to so he just hoped that they would come after hearing the news as it was already all over news channels.

Old Pei thought only by them he could protect both the young masters from those men who tortured Song Yi Ming all his life and killed him in a horrible way one could ever think of or else all the sacrifices of his master would be gone to waste.

He just prayed dejectedly and pitied his master who lived a miserable life till his death.

...

Mu Chen also informed the Li family that they were going back to S-city to attend Song Yi Ming's funeral.

The Li family was beyond shocked and decided to go to S-city to give some support to Xiao Bo who must be confused and devasted according to them.

"What happened, did you book the tickets?" Xiao Bo asked as soon as Mu Chen entered the car and started driving.

"Yes, but the flight is an hour later," Mu Chen answered him.

"I... I-I am here, and Wei Dage... why will Father kill himself, why everything is...?" Xiao Bo was mumbling, his eyes turned glossy.

>>>Did Father die because of me...? 

>>>I wanted to change my destiny but that doesn't mean I wanted his death... I know he was never a good Father but still, he raised me and Wei Dage...

"Snowball..." Mu Chen just extended his hand intertwined their fingers and gave him a little squeeze.

He was not good at comforting, to begin with, and he couldn't say everything would be okay in such a messy situation where Xiao Bo had yet to digest the fact about his real parents however now he had to deal with his fake Father's sudden death on top of it.

He couldn't say that he could understand his situation. No. Only Xiao Bo knew what he was feeling at the moment.

"...Father... will never commit suicide... He is not such a person... H-He..."

>>>He would rather kill anyone and everyone who comes in his way... He even sold me to protect himself in my last life.

>>>I now know I am not his real son and that's why he could do that but still... He will never... What will happen to Wei Dage now?

>>>I have my real family though I don't know how they are but what about Wei Dage, he only has me and Father... 

In his last life, Song family fell to ruins because Wang Mu Chen exacted his revenge but now this life was different. 

Mu Chen willingly made Xiao Bo his fiance and he was not in love with Xin Yi. Song Yi Ming, who had orchestrated the accident of the Wang family at the climax was dead so there was no reason for him to get revenge.

Everything changed. Xiao Bo didn't even do much still many drastic fluctuations happened drafting away from the novel's plot he read.

In his first life, he read this novel on his deathbed. He recalled after his death and the protagonists' marriage there was no mention of what happened to either Song Yi Ming or Song Wei Chen.

However, in his previous life, Wei Chen died trying to save him and he had no idea what happened to his Father after that as he only asked about his elder brother and the Goddess showed him just that.

The two lives have been different to start with though he died in both of them. Then why did the Goddess mention that the world would collapse because of the repeated cycles without any change? Because the changes were too minuscule?

>>>I was out of it at that time to think about all this... Did the Goddess lie to me?

Xiao Bo was perplexed and scared at the same time. His thoughts became tangled and tangled... And only one thought remained at the end of that process.

>>>What if everything changes for the worse?

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