CCI: I Still Dunno, But Who Cares?

It's 4am in the morning, I'm in the bedroom of my newly wed mate, and I'm in pain.

I hadn't slept since yesterday, after the wedding processions.

I tried to get up and have a drink of water, but I find I am lacking the strength to do so.

So I just layed in bed, this huge bed, besides an equally huge man.

This was my first time, and as opposed to what I read in books, or what Rosemary had told me.

It doesn't feel like bliss, but it just hurts.

He didn't even try to be gentle with me, he just treated me like some object he could use, and when he was done, he tossed me aside, and went to bed.

This...this is not how I had fantasized my first time would be.

Aside from pain, I feel nothing, just emptiness.

This was supposed to be my true mate's honor, I was supposed to give myself to him body and soul.

But yet, here I am.

Not to mention, I still feel his pull, now stronger than ever.

So much so that I am restless.