I can't forgive myself

Vikram forgot to breathe. His chest ached with deep pain. He wished and prayed for another heart attack then. She managed to hurt him where it pained most. SUCH A LOW BLOW MY LOVE. He would have clapped on her victory even if served with this defeat had he not seen how miserable she was.

They were passing through a lonely old village which was abandoned. The road was empty. A few neem and babool trees lined the road. A couple of Gulmohars. Dust was flying as the road was not built.

Vicky sat down in the middle of the road holding his chest. PAIN HE WANTED PAIN.

The sky darkened. A storm blew as a hurricane hit the arae.

" GUNJAN", he wailed in pain. " PUNISH ME LOVE".

Riya was shocked to see him.

" PUNISH ME SHIVA", cried Vicky.

" Vicky", she said softly.

" No , no", he cried holding his head.

Nosebleed started as he writhed in pain on the muddy ground.

" V.vicky', Riya came out of the car.

Vikram's body rose high in the sky by hurricane and fell on the ground.

" Gunjan sorry", he cried.

" Vicky", Riya screamed as she hurried towards him. But an unknown force stopped her. She couldn't move. Vikram went in sky again before falling violently on the ground.

" Gunjan I hurt you my love. I am a monster", he cried.

This time he went in a circle hitting all the hard trees as his face got all bloody scratched by it.

" So much blood", sobbed Riya.

He rose in sky again and fell back on the ground. This time he fell on his hands breaking the bones inside.

" Somebody help", she whisper yelled. Her voice was lost.

" I paraded you n*ked my wife. I shall burn in hell", cried Vicky.

His body rose in air again as he fell on his legs breaking them. Thunders and heavy rainfall accompanied.

" Vicky please stop", said Riya. She knew he was punishing himself. " Don't do this".

As he rose next a lighning struck Vikram's body.

He fell on the ground shivering.

" LET THIS HELL NEVER END", he prayed. " Its a blessing. It reduces pain. Oohh Gunjan"!!!Oh my wife"!!

His body rose and fell again and again. With each broken bone and fresh cut that drew blood Riya paled.

" Please stop Vicky. For God's sake", cried Riya.

But Vicky was beyond help.

" Even if you forgave me Gunjan. I can't forgive myself. I shall never forgive myself".

He kept on hurting himself.

" He is in pain Riya", Numaan had told her after breakup.

She was least concerned.

" He suffered a heart attack beta", Ramcharan had said.

But she had brushed them off.

She has blissfully forgotten her past life. She died and escaped her miseries. BUT HE LIVED. ALL ALONE. SUFFERING.

" But he remembers Gunjan . And he suffers every day, hour, minute and second of his life".

Agni's words. She was living them now.

" Gunjan I love you darling. Come back please", she heard as his head started hitting all the trees.

" Shiva make him stop please", she prayed the Almighty.

" Vicky stop. Someone help please", she cried in horror. " I don't mean to hurt you Vicky".

But Vicky was beyond help. He continued his assault on himself.

" Gunjan even if you forgave me. I can't forgive myself. I am a sinner. A sinner shall be punished", screamed Vicky.

His body then was stuck by lightning multiple times and bend at various angles.

Riya was a crying mess.

SUDDENLY

krrrr.kataack..krriieeek.

She heard the sound of his bone break . His neck moved sideways and his body streched breaking the backbone..

" Noooo.. Sahib".. Riya yelled in pain as she collapsed and passed out.

THAT WORD..

"SAHIB"..

It brought Vicky back to his senses.

" Gunjan", he sighed as he fell. He crawled near her groaning with pain.

She called him Sahib.

After that night she had never called him that.

Only in her last moments..

He was willing to beg. To earn her forgiveness. He was ready to leave everything his crown, his name, his kingdom for her.

The night before her death, he had somehow landed on her door.

" You should not be here your highness", said Chandbai.

She was wearing a red blouse and petticoat. There was no saree or veil on her

" Are you throwing me out", asked Ranjeet painfully. " Because if you are I plan to sleep on your doorstep."

" No your highness", said Chandbai.

He just walked in and sat on her bed.

She sat on his foot.

" Gunjan", he said painfully.

Her eyes teared up.

" Please don't call me that your highness. That girl is dead. I am Chandbai ".

" I killed that girl", he said. "And for that I shall never forgive myself".

She died the next day saving him.

Vikram gathered Riya in his arms. She had cried so much. IRONICALLY FOR A MONSTER LIKE HIM.

" You really are kind", he said. " Aren't you Gunjan"?

She thought he was in pain. He laughed on himself. In reality he stopped feeling pain after she died.

No wound was as deep as her leaving him alone to live.

He listened her heartbeat and felt her breath. Her body was warm too.

Alive , breathing not dead not dead...

Then he crawled taking her on the side of the road to safety. He sat under a neem tree. A cool breeze blew. She snuggled to him.

" Sahib", she sighed.

In response he kissed her brow. A smile came over her kind face as she slept peacefully. He smiled too. Little doe. HIS.

He had hurt himself badly. It would be sometime before he could drive. Using his powers he created a protective layer over themselves to protect them from predators and other dangers lurking in the adjoining forest.

But someone did sense them.

"DHARA", said a person. " You are back again. I wish you do make right choices this time. She is counting on you. He is counting on you. I hope I can help you. Only you can do this. Only you can help OUR FATHER MY SISTER. "

The man got up from his puja. And walked in the mist...

Who is Dhara? How is she related to Gunjan and Riya? Who is Dhara's brother? Will Riya forgive Vicky? Keep reading. Stay tuned.