Chapter 5

My crush girl Latifat Taiwo

I had a crush on a Yoruba girl named Latifat. With African hair and a sweet smile,

Latifat was cute and very peaceful. I was also some years older than her. Since I had

just broken up with my girlfriend, I was eager to get back in the game of dating, and

Latifat seemed to be the perfect girl. When I told my friends I was going to ask her

out, they asked how I was going to do it. "I thought I'd just call her," I said. "What?!"

my friend exclaiming. he was always the romantic one. " Deng Jimmie, are you

kidding me? You've got to sweep this girl off her feet to bed. Go big or go home,

man." So I did what any young man and with a little handbag in the corner of room

would do: I wrote Latifat Taiwo a song tornado love. At Ninety seconds of

pure lyrical delight, it was the essence of romance and took me only a few days to

write. One Saturday afternoon. I picked up the phone and called Latifat’s number. Three rings, and then a click.

"Hello?" a voice answered. It was her. I slammed the phone against the receiver,

grabbed my little handbag, and stepped outside, shutting the door behind me. Because

now I knew. Latifat was home. racing across street with little handbag strap slung over

my shoulder, I ran to nearly her home on bus station.

I catch my breath in the upon arrives, I waited for latifat to come downstairs’, then

walked straight near her apartment and sending voice note. The door opened. And I

was standing in place full of people. About half a dozen people were standing around

Latifat’s place where I was waiting her at, chatting as young man tend to do on a

Saturday afternoon.

As soon as I entered the market, they all turned to me. Latifat smiled nervously and

looked at me. I didn't say a word. Swinging little handbag from behind my back, I

pulled it up to my chest and began to hugs Latifat. For the next one and a half minutes,

I serenade Latifat, trying my best to ignore the onlookers. We Walked out to finished

line catch up with the taxi-: "Will you go to the home with me?" When I resolved

with that final walked, I looked at Latifat, waiting for her answer. She looked at me.

I looked back at her, and everyone else looked at us with smiled faces. and I waited.

Taking a deep breath, I grinned at her with somewhat confidence. This was the

moment I had been waiting for, what I had been working up to for weeks now. I had,

as my friends suggested, gone big, laying all my briefcase on the table. Now it was up

to her. Latto opened her mouth and let out two soul-crushing words: "I can't." My

head dropped in defeat. " so sorry mommy." Shoulders slumping, I nodded, pretending

to understand her. But then I did something even anyhow: I didn't leave her hands.

Instead of excuse her.

I sat down in the middle of the bus together and tried to blend in. As if somehow that

would be less embarrassing than just playing a walked around in front of a bunch of

people, but Latto didn’t rejected it, and then I leaving with her. I attempted to do the

conversations with her but she little bit shy, only to be greeted by looks of curiosity

with love face. But I have to playing it down cool: These are things we just did as

men? Oh, I do that every Saturday or over weekend.

I have three more works on Friday! unable to bear the awkward any long right here,

I finally got up to do it, walked across the street of new Cairo, and excused myself.

Latto rushed to the car to see me out, walking with me through the sidewalk. "Well,

thanks for my song!" she said sweetly. Through brighter teeth, I mustering in the most

beautiful voice just to singing for you, "Oh, my pleasure. I aim to entertain." And I

left. After, it would be a long time before I would ever do something so audacious for

a girl again.

But looking back now, I understand how It happened the way it did. Why did Latifat

{Yoruba girl} shut me down with kindness? Probably because I had uttered a total of

one hundred words to her in the previous months we had known each other. In my

mind, I had built up the fantasy of a relationship without ever sharing the vision with

her but now I did.

I think we do the same thing with our dreams. First, we flirt with them from far. Then

we fantasize, imagining what life will be like when we are united with what we love,

without ever doing any job. We wait, building up courage in relationship, and save all

our passion for the big day when we will abandon everything and go for it.

And finally, we take the leap. Sometimes, though, we don't make it to the other side.

We fall on our faces as they say. Doing our best to pick ourselves up, we dust ourselves

off and try again. But if this happens enough, we begin to tell ourselves a familiar story. We remind ourselves that the world is a cold, cruel place, and maybe there's no room

in it for my dream.

We get dishonest and make the worst mistake you can make with a calling: we save

all our energy for the leap instead of building a bridge in life. The problem with how

we chase our passions is that reality doesn't always conform to how things appear in

our minds. Latifat said yes because she did know me.

And as much as I would have liked to think differently, I didn't really know her.

Relationships take time, as do dreams. They're full of routines and unexciting work

that make them unfit for a movie script but appropriate for real life. For nearly a

decade, I did this with my passion. I dreamed of it, talked about it, even made "plans"

for when luck would come my way and I'd be able to do what I love for a living.

Latifat Amope is a that girl who came with luck, love, and peace of mind, I remember

when walking around having some fun, I asked Latto what you want us to eat’ Latto

responds with smiling and great gesture that we can eat anything; she feel like she don’t

want to stress me out’ I told Latto we have to eat some delicious food’ on my first day

on date; Latto didn’t expect a very biggest date’ because Latto was actually here to

settle down with me’ she don’t care what to eat or where we can sleep as long as we

are here then we are here’ I told Latto’ I’m here for you and we will shining together,

as of the same night we spent together’ it was actually fantastic day in my life and

treated it as once in lifetime; I never feel excited like I did; seeing most beautiful and

prettiest face girl, honest girl sitting next to me, Latto knows I love her and she is not

considering any controlling, she said’ feel free Deng Jimmie’ also Latto said be serious

with me now, when are you going to marrying me? I responds with confidence’ my

Latto give me two years and I will prepare your biggest day; in few hours later and I

take Latto back home and came back at midnight as enter our apartment’ something

told me to turn my computer on to check out some emails that I was always receives

from my political party that has candidate in South Sudan generation election, on my login the PC’ I boomed into email written Dear: Deng Jimmie we offered you

contract at Engineering company based in Singapore, ’ we offered for you’ office

Administration, file out visa form and send it to Singa Immigration for processing your

visa, I was like oh it was two year which I told Latto few hours ago’ upon writing

back to Singa visa office; I mentioned Latifat to let her dream work out, Singa visa

office accepted and provide me with visa interview form, again when I filed the form

and I did filing Latto her name first for her easier access to Singapore anytime if visa

success and then three months later while I was waiting for my travelling’ Latto was at

her workplace when she feel unwell and she need to visit clinic for checkup, what was

a sickness; Latto called me and asked me to come and go for checking, we got medicine

for fewer and bought baby checker, when I about to go back to my resident; Latifat

told me ; she will send me a result tomorrow, in the next morning’ I woke up receiving

a texts and phone calls from Latifat’ Telling me: she is pregnancy, she was crying, I

rushing in making her stay calming, I response; my babe my Latto congratulations

Sunshine, God bless you, and took a taxi to her resident and spend more times with

Latto to let her know she is loved by me, before my travelling to Singapore we cheers

moments together while knowing Latto is going to give birth to our bundle of joy.

Fear to elope to the moon is a powerful deterrent, but it can also be an effective

motivator. The fear of failure or rejection can be unhealthy and irrational, but fear of

not telling your loved ones how much you care is important. So not all fear is bad.

Some people, though, let fear run their lives. They avoid risk, hoping to minimize the

Chances of fail to get your love life, and in effect move. The trick is to knowing when

to listen to your fear and when to not. especially when someone special arrives at your

gate' and asks if you could unlock the gate of love again after all lives of

disappointments.

Realizing I had other chance to elope to the moon with you, I began to prepare for

it. however, had other ideas. Doing that meant I was accepting you to elope to the

moon with you or bringing the moon down for you.

I'm not sure what I was expecting is worth it but this was it. I was expecting hope."

though" her attitude brighter enough than anything that could shinning, she

Appreciated every single word" I told her, she is full of life lessons like I did.

Which grantee she is going to be ambitious human you could spending time with,

someone that's best and still be loves in many different planets, but the fear of elope to

the moon got her attentions, that we may miss landing on the moon, so I reach out to

her at the moments of fear attentions.

I replied’ if we miss landing on the moon 'we could lands on the alpha centauri the

neighboring star, that's when the fear gone with my replied’ She said ' its healthiest to

be with somebody you practicing love and fear not, you are more than safer right here,

you belong here, it's your turn to be loved and forget all dis-appointments happened

previously.

Leaves island Girls alone, climate is what we expect, but it's weather what we get__

mark Twain; so I think what you get is Lebanese weather, when you were expecting

Ecuadorian climate which is going to be too hot for you to handle. I was like dawn I

can't let her nor me experience somewhat climate she was not expected; she is going

to suffers from it, I have to rescue her, so she could be thankful.

However, she did realize’ with love affair, affections, text on WhatsApp or

massager she come back complaining’ I always lying to her; I response baby girl;

I never lie’ let’s do facts checks when I told I’m spokesperson of KDMP is that

a lie? She said no’ when I told you I have created startup SaTurNi@ is that lie?

She said’ no; I said oh yeah’ when I said I talked with Emiratis billionaire about funding my startup is that lie? She said no’ I replied why you told me I always

lying to you, she said’ alright I want to see you follow your dreams; I replied if

I did baby girl, got my back and I will get a cash where I could bring everything

for you, then I bring some evidence about love is about got my back and I will

get the cash, bill gate, Elon musk got some people who got their backs before

make it, she told me’ I did, telling me I’m grateful for you my love and let’s

cheers every moment online or physically.