CHAPTER 4

Was she serious now? 

"Stop looking at me like that, I might do something to you," there was this spark in her eyes when she spoke. "It's okay you don't need to apologise," I quickly told her. She moved closer to me, staring deep into my eyes.

I suddenly became uneasy and hot, her eyes held so much emotions they pierced into my skin sending feelings and emotions I couldn't explain or understand. She leaned forward and kissed me on the lips, before I knew it our lips were entwined with each other. It was the most amazing feeling ever but it ended too soon as we both came to our senses.

"I…..I'm sorry," Lilah stuttered a bit and surprised me, she seemed nervous. Lilah didn't seem like she was into girls although she was never rumoured to be with any boy before. Was she...….? No, I can't think that. "I should have asked you before." She started explaining.

"No, it is okay, it's not like it means anything right?" I was confused on what to say, I have never been in this situation before. I said the right thing, right? 

"Yeah, it's cool," She said somewhat angrily, "What did I do now? She stood up and left the room.

Still wondering what I did wrong, she came back with a plate of cookies. "Here," she handed me the plate. I muttered "thank you" to her.

Although it was an awfully awkward day it was a very good one, I lost my first kiss to Lilah Stone and it wasn't bad or awkward. Lilah offered to drop me home but I didn't refuse.

We soon got to my house to see the surprise of my life! My mom was kissing some guy by the door way. I felt my life shattering before me, it was so soon for her to move on, I didn't want another dad, I don't want another family, what if he has kids? I don't want siblings, I was happy with just her, was she not happy with me? A lot of thought filled my mind, I only came back to reality when I felt a hand on mine, I turned to look at Lilah tears in my eyes, "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked gently and I shook my head and she gave a small nod, I would rather not talk about it. What I wanted to do now was to sleep and to forget about this nightmare.

I stayed in Lilah's car until the unknown person left my house then set to leave the car but Lilah pulled me for a kiss before I stepped out of the car looking all cherry.

I walked into the house. Trust me I had no plans of confronting my mom, I just wanted to pretend today didn't happen. "Kim, thank God you are here, I have something to talk to you about," she dragged out a chair for me, she seemed excited as did so which made me think maybe she didn't want to talk about what happened at the door earlier.

"Well,I have a boyfriend," she dropped the bomb as soon as I had taken the seat. I sat there staring at her, she seemed happy sorry not seemed she was happy, how could she be happy to be with someone that wasn't my dad? I couldn't even get over him not to talk of her. Which made me think, did she ever love my dad? " I'm sorry I wasn't thinking of how you'd feel about the news," she proceeded to explain herself and I just watched her, " Trusted me Kenneth is a nice person when you get to know him, believe me it doesn't me I don't or didn't love your dad...."

"Did you ever love him? I agree that he died a long time ago but it doesn't mean you should go around kissing the first guy that's nice to you?" And I stormed up to my room, I couldn't accept another man in our lives.

I didn't talk to her for weeks, I rather hung out with Lilah, who has been extremely nice to me. She was a sweetheart. Did y'all know that? She even stopped hanging out with her friends, I couldn't tell Kate about my problems yet, she had been spending time with Kelvin a lot lately. When I confronted her about Kelvin she said I was reading meaning into nothing and I said nothing more of it, she deserves a love life tho.

"A penny for your thought," Lilah appeared from nowhere. "A lot has been happening lately," I said without trying to tell her any information.

"Will you keep avoiding your mom?" She sat beside me.

"I'm not avoiding her, I'm just taking my time to process the whole situation," I told her.

"I think you should try talking to her, I mean this guy can't be so bad," I didn't want to hear any of what she was saying so I made an attempt to stand but she forced me down with her hand. "Can you stop being selfish, have you considered your mom's feelings in all this? Do you think it is easy for her that you don't approve of her choice? She just wants your approval to be happy, do you think my parents would need my approval for anything?" With that she left me to myself. Thinking about what Lilah said, she was right. I was being selfish. I wanted my mom to be happy but I didn't want it to be with another man! But I decided to end all this and make peace with my mom.

But to my surprise when I got home, my mom was in the living room with the same guy. I felt anger rushed through my veins but wasn't going to act on it. "Kim, you are here?" I gave a small nod as I looked at the guy for some explanation, "Kim met Kenneth Adams my boyfriend, Kenneth met Kimberly my daughter you can call her Kim…" she tried to introduce us.

"No, just call me Kimberly, only close people call me Kim," I said out of anger. He let out a small laugh and extended his hand to shake me with something I didn't take.

"Kim… Kimberly I have heard so much about you," he said.

"Wow, I'm just hearing of you for the first time," I said sarcastically and went up to my room. I really didn't want to be rude, I really didn't but I couldn't help it. Soon after I heard a knock on the door, "come in," it was my mom. She sat by my side on the bed, "you know you didn't have to be rude?" tears were now forming in my eyes.

"Mom, I tried, but I can't get over the thought that someone else will take over dad's spot in our lives," she hugged me tight. "Trust me no one is taking over your dad's spot," she reassured me. "And Kenneth is a good guy when you get to know him," I nodded my head, pulled myself from her embrace and urged her to go back to the man waiting for her downstairs after I had cleaned my eyes. Later I went down only to find Kenneth in an apron in my mom's kitchen.