“So, what will you do next?”, Norah asked. “It will be weird to go on without her.”, I said. Norah squeezed my hand. “We’re here when you need us.”, she said. I smiled sadly; my mom was all the family I had. “Is it weird that I’m not crying?”, I asked. “No.”, Norah answered decisively. “You do what feels right for you and let no one tell you otherwise! I think you are already accepting that she is no longer with us. Mourning is a different process for all of us.” I nodded. She was right. Lily had a normal life, with a normal family, normal job and normal friends. Focused on her career, she made no time for boyfriends. Not that the right ones wanted her anyways... But after her mom's death she is stupified when she learns that she is now the proud owner of 2 houses in Europe and a million dollar trust fund. Turns out, her life is not so boring anymore, her mom never was boring, and the job brings her into more problems than she needed. And the men, they are now fighting for her heart. Will Lily find her happily ever after, or is she already in too deep?

In Too Deep: a mafia story

“Please give me some time to process.”, I whispered while my lips were still resting against his. I pulled away and shut the door. I was still inside the bedroom, Matteo was not. 


Deep in my heart I know I will forgive him, but I also know that I’m not yet ready to do it now. I needed time to get to that point, and I wanted Matteo to wait. He did lie to me. Fine, maybe he didn’t lie outright and to my face, but he did withhold the truth from me. The truth is that he is a mafia leader and a criminal, and I am not. I also had no idea what it meant to be a mafia leader like he is. 


I do believe that he loved me. Okay, I know he didn’t say it like that. He said that he was falling in love with me, but to me that is mere semantics. It was the sign I wanted and needed from Matteo. I needed to hear that there was a feeling, a pull to me that went beyond physical. I have it now, and it gave me a sense of confidence. 


Chapter 46