“So, what will you do next?”, Norah asked. “It will be weird to go on without her.”, I said. Norah squeezed my hand. “We’re here when you need us.”, she said. I smiled sadly; my mom was all the family I had. “Is it weird that I’m not crying?”, I asked. “No.”, Norah answered decisively. “You do what feels right for you and let no one tell you otherwise! I think you are already accepting that she is no longer with us. Mourning is a different process for all of us.” I nodded. She was right. Lily had a normal life, with a normal family, normal job and normal friends. Focused on her career, she made no time for boyfriends. Not that the right ones wanted her anyways... But after her mom's death she is stupified when she learns that she is now the proud owner of 2 houses in Europe and a million dollar trust fund. Turns out, her life is not so boring anymore, her mom never was boring, and the job brings her into more problems than she needed. And the men, they are now fighting for her heart. Will Lily find her happily ever after, or is she already in too deep?

In Too Deep: a mafia story

I tried to calm myself down as well as I could. I was still captured and stuck in the back of a van after all! I took some deep breaths to bring my heart rate down, and to allow my brain to be thinking straight again. There must be something that I could do! 


I was kicking my own ass for not speaking with Matteo about what I should do in situations like this, and for not asking for self-defense lessons from one of them. I’m sure they could all teach me some basics. Instead, I knew nothing that could help me. 


I kept looking in the van to find something that could help me, but they had stripped the back of this van completely bare. There was nothing. So, I switched to thinking of what I could do when they finally stopped driving to where it was, they were bringing me. I just couldn’t think of much more than protesting, squirming, trying to knee them in the balls, and trying to get away from them. I also had little faith in myself that I would manage even one of these things. 


Chapter 59