Chapter 2

Beginning

Third POV

Her head was angled upwards just watching him praying that this wasn't a dream. 

"Toji?" She accidentally moaned.

With her ears ringing, body on fire and her breathing increased she was stunned at the reality of the man in front of her. He watched how body shook with the sense of arousal, but it didn't spark his interest he just wanted to see what kind of person would be sick enough to be a fan of him whilst knowing how he killed for a living. Someone else was in his interest, he looked over to Tiffany watching the way she simply waved at him. Ignoring his fan, he walked over to Tiffany getting close to her. Meanwhile Y/n is trying to compose herself, DJ had to help Y/n calm her nerves then the realisation hit, he wasn't even interested in her and just ignored her after seeing how she was starstruck. A deep pang of sadness hit her as she knew all the other girls were way more gorgeous in comparison to her.

'At least it's just Toji right?' She thought but then her attention turned to the table opposite of them and she saw how on the table was Nanami, Gojo, Geto and Naoya. She also noticed that their sights were on the others. She told DJ to let go of her and that they should join the rest of the guys. DJ agreed moving away from Y/n, not being able to see Y/n's soulless stare behind the glasses but could feel the coldness. The girls got up and left not noticing that Y/n stayed behind, she held no intention to join only to be the only one neglected. As they all sat down Nanami noticed how only one stayed. He watched the way she drank seemingly as if she's feeling some sort of pain and just trying to drink her sorrows away. However, his attention was stolen by the dark-skinned woman sitting next to him, he engaged in conversations but felt blown away by the looks of her as well as the sound of her voice.

"My name is Djeneba Kone, but people call me DJ for short." DJ spoke to him with her eyes adoring him through her lashes.

Naoya had Destiny 's waist around his arm, his eyes being so obvious and staring at the chunk of meat that made him envy the chair. Gojo had Desire and Kam getting handsy with him as Geto and Tenneh spoke to each other via a translator app. Then there was Y/n drinking and watching everything unfold as they forgot she existed. She just wanted to get out of the place and away from everyone, not wanting to join where she's neither wanted nor needed. Her heels hurriedly clicked as she sped walked past multiple men trying to get with her, she rushed into the bathroom and just cried. She laughed as hot tears rolled under her glasses and ruined her makeup; she knew that she held no bond with either one of the men as it was their first time meeting, but she couldn't help feeling saddened due to her addiction of them. All the dreams and desires she had, all the daydreams of getting steamy with the men. She just couldn't help but feel disappointed in herself because deep down she didn't believe she was attractive enough, that there was nothing appealing about her.

Alone in the bathroom with the music blasted in the background she sat on the ground looking defeated. The urge to leave just grew till it got suffocating.

'Just get out'

'What are you waiting for?'

'They won't notice that you're gone'

Her tears blurred her vision as she booked a cab to go home, that's all she wanted.

To go home with the heart ache, she held with her chin on her knees. Soon enough she was back up after seeing that the cab was close to picking her up, her eyes stared into her reflection hurriedly wiping away the ruined tears and makeup. She was quick to rush to the bar to buy a quick drink already feeling slurry enough to make her head spin. It was her last drink before she could get out before the group could even notice her leaving. As she downed the alcohol, she could hear DJ call out to her, her head spun around to seeing DJ telling her to come over, but Y/n mouthed the words 'I'll be back' before rushing towards the exit. DJ watched her speed away with a bad feeling deep in her gut.

Throughout the time DJ and Nanami were talking DJ brought up Y/n and how great she's been in the group and how helpful she's been that whenever the rest are stuck on a choreography Y/n would be quick to notice add what was missing. The moment the conversation was on Y/n DJ had noticed she wasn't around of which sparked a sense of worry until she saw Y/n walk over to the bar. DJ wanted to introduce Nanami to Y/n so that the Nanami could get to know her, DJ knows how much the men in JJK mean to Y/n that Y/n struggles to get into real life relationship as her heart was quick to latch onto her addiction.

30 minutes pass, then 40 till it turned into 2 hours and DJ had not heard back from Y/n. Nanami noticed her worries so she spoke about her concerns over Y/n's safety. Her phone was off, she wasn't responding to texts she seemingly was out of the club. She didn't tell anyone where she was going, she just went.

DJ looked over to at Tiffany to see that Tiffany and Toji were busy making out and she looked at the rest to see that Y/n was the only one left out. The realisation hit her hard of which made her pull Tiffany off Toji and shout at her over the music that Y/n was missing.

"She's not missing she right- " Tiffany said whilst looking around realising their youngest member had gone missing. She was immediately in an alerted mode and panicked when DJ said she had not been picking up. Tiffany tried to reassure herself and DJ that Y/n must have gone home instead.

Toji still had his arms wrapped around Tiffany's waist of which somehow provided her with some comfort as she dismissed DJ and went back to making out with him. DJ saw that the rest were too busy with their man and Nanami was the only one trying to help. DJ being all stressed just went back to sitting down and having Nanami talk to her to get her mind off Y/n's sudden disappearance.

Y/n on the other hand had made it home to grab her weed and 2 bottles of alcohol. She headed to the nearby park during the midnight with her eyes sometimes glaring at the moon as if she was just wanted pitch darkness as she didn't want to see any light but be surrounded by her own dark thoughts that she slowly found comfort in. Phone in the house and weed in her lungs she just wanted to harden her heart and block any thoughts. The midnight grew chillier, but the burning taste of whiskey and vodka kept her warm. She knew she was growing closer to blacking out as her eyes grew heavier with grief and exhaustion. Tears could no longer flow just dry up on her cheeks. Her voice grew quiet as if she was dying inside out. She had made it through 1 joint and 1 bottle. She could tell it's been hours since she came to the park, so she thought about going home to sleep with the cold aiding in sobering her up slowly. The closer she got the louder a certain noise got.

"T-Toji"

Her heart stopped and so did her feet.

Y/n POV

It was like I just walked into some sort of betrayal of a brothel. All their moans made it out the house that no longer felt like home. My eyes widened at the realisation that Tiff was enjoying my dream, all of them were and here I am drunk as shit about to black out and puke feeling like absolute shit. I just sat in the cold drinking the bottle of vodka whilst puking on the bush, I smelt horrible and looked horrible with the glasses being the only thing helping my sensitive eyes. I want to sleep so I'll make the pavement my bed, right? I don't want to go in, I'm sicker at the moans and the image my head of Toji with Tiffany.

But what position would he have her? How would he look into her eyes? How would he touch her? Why it couldn't have been me? Why did he come up to me first then ignore me? Just why?

My body was just on the floor outside the flat feeling and wishing I was dead so that I don't have to endure all of this. I'll walk in the house in the morning if I'm even alive till then. My heart feels slow as well as my body as I continue to drink sloppily on the ground. A grunt leaves my mouth as I try to sit up to drink, I look up to the sky wishing it could end.

An hour later and the moans stopped, I guess they never knew I was missing, good for them.

I took it upon myself to go it, my legs stubble trying to get up and get into the main door. My key was tapped on to let it unlock. My weak arms try to open the door to behold the staircase that leads to the door of our 'home'. I could feel the deep shakiness of my legs as my arm holds onto the railing whilst my other arm is giving me my poison. I'm drunk out of my mind that I question what even am I doing with my life? I look the door trying to open it quietly. The moment it opened the smell of sex, sweat and heat made my stomach churn whilst the heat nearly made me collapse. My world is spinning with the walls being my only help. I look back to quickly lock the door and try and find my way to the kitchen with achy feet. This hangover is going to be a pain but not as much of a bigger pain that the moment I open the kitchen door I see Nanami with a towel around his waist, there was a split division with the reaction of my body that half of me was turned on by the sight and the other half realising that DJ had just got done fucking with him. An hour later and the moans stopped, I guess they never knew I was missing, good for them.

I took it upon myself to go it, my legs stubble trying to get up and get into the main door. My key was tapped on to let it unlock. My weak arms try to open the door to behold the staircase that leads to the door of our 'home'. I could feel the deep shakiness of my legs as my arm holds onto the railing whilst my other arm is giving me my poison. I'm drunk out of my mind that I question what even am I doing with my life? I look the door trying to open it quietly. The moment it opened the smell of sex, sweat and heat made my stomach churn whilst the heat nearly made me collapse. My world is spinning with the walls being my only help. I look back to quickly lock the door and try and find my way to the kitchen with achy feet. This hangover is going to be a pain but not as much of a bigger pain that the moment I open the kitchen door I see Nanami with a towel around his waist, there was a split division with the reaction of my body that half of me was turned on by the sight and the other half realising that DJ had just got done fucking with him. The thought made me scoff as I struggle to make it to get water. I nearly fall over but catch myself quickly.

"Damn shoes."

"Are you okay?" He asked.

No response, just go back to believing he doesn't exist and get yourself water, sober up then leave and return in the morning.

Nanami POV

The women had allowed us to spend the night with them, DJ still being very on edge. The moment we got inside everyone else had already started making out with each other in the rooms. DJ didn't seem to be in the mindset for it all and neither was I. I would prefer to take my women out on dates before having sexual intercourse with them. What a world this is. A world that created mine for entertainment, they watch my death and who knows how they felt. A world without Jujutsu, no curses, no sorcerers just people and animals.

DJ and I had been in her room trying to block out the noises of the others, by the time it ended I was able to shower, and DJ told me that I was free to eat what ever I wanted in the kitchen. She slept in worry weeping for her small friend on her bed.

I had taken upon myself to explore the kitchen quietly with the feeling of hunger annoying my stomach. I hope for everyone else to be asleep so that 'no one' can bother me about his time with 2 women was. A few more moments after I had made myself a snack, I heard the front door open and quiet footsteps make their way into her. Her glasses were off, so I could see that she was crying, with a bottle in her hand she struggled to make her way around the place. She tripped but she managed to pick herself up only to mutter to herself.

"Are you okay?"

She just ignored me only to fall over again but this time I caught her.

"Y/n isn't it?"

She nodded.

"Where have you been? DJ- "

"I don't give two shits. Look Mr Nanami I cannot be bothered to think of any one of them. I've been outside for hours hearing my biggest crushes fuck my friends. All I want is some water and then to get the fuck out of here. I don't want to be here." She quietly shouted.

I sat her up on the counter to get a good look at her, she had been crying a lot, she looks like she's on the verge of blacking out with her torso swaying as she tries to sit up straight. I quickly got her a glass of water making sure she drinks it; I kept giving her water seeing she's in a state closer to alcohol poisoning rather than sobering.

As I go to refill the cup, I could hear her stomach rumble, and it was followed by a giggle.

"You know I spent ages praying for you guys to exist, I found you guys in-incredibly hot that I just wished I could have a chance with someone I crave for. I went from being a simple fan of the show to being so invested in you to wanting to meet you in person. What a toll it took on my life, can't get into a relationship without thinking about getting railed by Mr Fushiguro whilst I'm getting laid myself. How dumb am I. That even when You guys exist, I get thrown on the sidelines and watch my friends forget my existence. I've never felt so unwanted in my whole wanted." She talked quietly, laughing at herself.

"Look Y/n don't pair me up with the others, I don't know what fanfiction you've read that made you believe I would easily sleep with anyone I don't know. You aren't entitled to be with anyone of us, just because no one picked, we don't have to."

I watched the way her eye twitched.

"Start by loving yourself and maybe someone would glance your way."

"Dickhead, thank you for the sobering but fuck you." She insulted.

I left her on her own after that. I cannot be bothered to deal with her nor am I entitled to look after her.

End