[Mini Chapter 6] Rest Mr.Psychopath!

Everyday I wake up, I keep anticipating Yoko would jump on top of me, because of that I have been on high alert ever since we met. My body is aching from the pain, my muscles felt like reaching their capacity strength by holding my body together. Again my mind couldn't think straight, for my eyes saw the same ceiling, I thought– what an odd ceiling. I decide to lean to the left, look at the clock: pass breakfast, reaching afternoon. I turn back straight still under the blanket. I thought once again– 'this is odd.' I feel like I'm sure someone will appear around the corner, yet I lied too? I turned my head right to left, still the figure didn't appear. 'Wait.. could it be…?' I stood up from the bed, realizing something that could help me recover. 

I get out of bed, slowly taking my pace to search around the house. Given full proof inspection, it seems the cockroach is not here… 'Is it my lucky day?' I thought for a sec, it might be true. But nonetheless, I keep my chin up, and I can't keep on wondering anymore. I headed to the kitchen to brew some coffee to treat my day, but I realize I still have not brushed my teeth..

"Uhh who give a fuck!" I grin greatly while brewing coffee. The espresso machine sip out shine brownish with foam on top, a perfect espresso. Holding the espresso cup and taking one drink shot, raising it high to my throat– "Uww Baby!" couldn't hold my happiness..

I went over the TV to see something. I open up and quickly play a MV. The song playing was "Lemon Tree by Fools Garden." Then the video was someone driving on a rainy day beside the fields of a lemon tree. I thought driving around could be fun. So I stood up to look at the calendar. On the wall, I checked, used my finger to count and realized today was Sunday. 

I looked over the balcony and saw the sky was bright. I thought– "Could use some driving." 

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"Argh!!" someone screamed out loud. He begins to stand back to face his enemy. He uttered– "So after all this time, you're faking it?" He looked miserable, upset by the enemy comment, couldn't hold his ground, legs were shaken, not because of pain but because of sadness! 

The enemy responded– "Souda! Kimi wa Kirai da!" The enemy looks uncompassionate with the answer, nor upset either, it's lingering with sadness. As if, as if the enemy must confront the hate by all means! Necessary input needed to settle the fight. For the last stand, they taught and sought, bringing each their arms high, ending this dilemma! 

Only the weak would die, only the strong would survive.

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Given a decision I quickly dress up loosely and get out of my house to enter the parking lot below. Walking in shade, eyes pierce through one fancy looking car. As I arrived beside, I kissed my finger and pressed it on the car hood. 'Toyota Sienta, lemonish skin, perfection.' I hop in, start the engine, and begin to drive.

As I slowly went out of the parking lot, the light shone over but… Rain began to drop bit by bit. "Aw dammit!" I swear after all I've been through, (well just getting out the house), this how you repay me!? 'Well I already drive, maybe the rain will stop.' Nonetheless I continue driving. The more meters I went, the more rainy it became and it was clear to me, droplet would shower me nonetheless. 

Frustrated I play some radio– 

I wonder how

Why is the radio playing the same song?

I wonder why

'Urgh…' I mumble under my nose, annoyed by everything that happens. 

Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky

"I swear someone told me yesterday that it would be bright!" I mutter knowing that someone is tricking me. But again I couldn't recall who it was. 

And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon tree

I was driven too fast, maybe too far, But keeping positive energy, I looked around and saw the field of lemon trees. Never did I realize there are plant fields of lemon trees around this region. But I was wondering about what my hobby is? I keep wondering what I do around my free time. 

I'm turnin' my head up and down

I keep turning my head to see the bounty of the lemon trees.

I'm turnin', turnin', turnin', turnin', turnin' around

I'm turning, turning, turning, turning, turning around.

And all that I can see is just another lemon tree

But yet again, it was all just a lemon tree. 

At the end, I stopped my car after the rain became gentle. I head out to walk to this lemon tree to keep on wonder. I sat beneath the lemon tree. Overall it's that bad after all. I lay my back on the tree wood, resting my attire's body.. I keep wondering about my life whether I made the correct choice. I wonder how I felt when Yoko appeared in my life. I wonder why I let Yuki away by not taking my revenge. Now that I wonder, Yoko and Yuki face shared facial figures.

Though I wonder many times, I still can't decide what to do next. Do I play along with Yoko's demeanor? Or do I have any feelings for her? But thinking it through, she uses chloroform with her panties. I can't decide whether it is too disgusting or maybe there is some cuteness to it. A bit perverted.. Okay pitch black! Let's swap gender in this scenario. What would happen if I'm a woman and Yoko is a man? Let's stop. Just thinking about it already disturbs me.

 Suddenly the thought came to mind– 'Should I report Yoko to the police?' This thought was questioning whether I have the capacity to handle more of the Yoko dilemma. Not that I have evidence after all that, but it is not hard to collect it. But again what if I was her? 

It makes me sad that you have to go to such lengths to get my love interest's attention. Now that I'm thinking about it, how much pain or suffering she must go through to achieve her love attention. How far she needs to go just to wish that her crush would accept her as a human companion. Am I… Playing with her feelings too much? Am I toying with her? 

Now I wonder about it, I realize I didn't want to sit under the lemon tree. 

Maybe isolation is not good for me.

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