Prince Xian - aftermath from the battlefield (XII)

Xian Wen slowly creep to her room. Looking around, there isn't a single person in sight. He open the door and close it silently. It's the afternoon, strangely the room is quiet. She is sitting by the vanity table. He walke up to her slowly and call her name. She did not have any reaction so he walk near her. He sees that her face is flushing red and perspiring. She stare at him like as if she is in a trance. 

"What is wrong Shung Yun?"

She stands up and beging to remove her clothes. Xian Wen hurry to stop her. 

"What ... Shung Yun. " He try to shake her but her eyes are tearing. 

"Please.. Please..." She keep pushing his hands and try to remove her clothes. Then it cross his mind that someone had drug her food. She is not knowing what she is doing and probably it is going to last a long time. Xian Wen find himself push to the bed and for the first time, he see Shung Yun awake and he is going to bed with her. His instinct awake and he hurry to do what is needed to be done. He might never do this again with her. 

That night, no one comes to her room to wake her up for dinner. So they goes no doing it throughout the night. Before the sun raise, he creep out of the room just like now he creep in the previous morning. 

Two days later, he find her walking in the yard infront of the room, again in daze and her clothes are nearly all strip away. He hurry to catch and carry her back into the room. She is pawing him all the way while he collects the garments on the floor. Again, he finds himself on the bed with her. This goes on for another few days. On the last day she left the mansion tired and drain. Xian Wen cannot help to think about her safety. He wishes he can do more for her and their son. 

For the next few years, he drift from place to place. Occasionally he enters the palace with the help from the dowager. He watch his son grows older behind the walls. Xian Wen also watch his mother grows weaker due to old age. At times, he sits on the inner palace and watch the sun goes down. 

"Mother, everything is going well. I think, i need to go somewhere to settle down."

"Where are you thinking, my Wen'er."

"I am thinking... of being a monk, mother."

She tear up immediately and touch his face. Her other hand hold his hand. 

"Why my son?"

"To pray for our descendants. I hope they can escape this kind of fate that we have now. Maybe with me going to do this, they will be spare. My son and his children will happier. The nation will prosper even further and greater. "

She nod her and try to understand. She look to the sun set with her son. She knows that no matter how much she ask of him, he will still go ahead what he had plan out. 

"Before you go, see Lady Su for the last time."

"Mother, it's difficult for me... she is my regret in ..." 

"I know, i know. However no matter what, see her for that last time before you ... shave."

He quietly nod his head. 

Xian Wen waited for a proper time to go to Lady Su. He waited for his brother to go to war with the neighbouring country. Nearly a month of preparing, he watch his brother, the Emperor march out of the city walls. Many years ago, he will be the one defending those walls and the people behind. Today, his brother bravely march off to do what he needed to do for this country. Xian Wen knows that his brother will be safe throughout this dangerous mission. His brother is surrounded by the best generals of this country, including Duke Su and General Tang. His brother is just there to boost the morale for the army. However behind these walls, no one knows, they are all afraid. They are all crying. They don't know what news will tomorrow bring. 

He quietly walk in the tunnel and peep through the hole. His son is now in the archery grounds. While Lady Su, is supposed to be in this bedroom. However everything quiet. He walk in to see her vanity table. She had written a letter attention to him. Quietly he open the letter and read it. He is touch for the heart warming letter she had written. His tears fall on the edge of the letter. Quietly he fold them back and put it in the envelope and onto the table. He look around and touch the baby cradle where his son used to sleep in. He pick up the baby pillow. It smell really nice. He walk back to the vanity table remove the hairpin hidden in his garment. Slowly carefully he place it down next to the letter. After that he left the room.

That night, there is a loudly wailing from her room. He dash over there in the dark tunnel. Near slip but he still managed to get there. Peeping in he sees her wailing at the vanity table. There is a distance from where he is standing and her back is facing him. He see Xian Long is running to her.

"Mother, what is wrong. You scare me."

She wipe her tears and hug him.

"I am sorry Long'er. I scare you. I just found something that i though i lost long time ago. It appear again. I am happy and sad at the same time."

"Don't be sad mother. Keep it properly. Like you always tell me. Then you won't lost it. If not, do you want me to keep it."

She shake her head and thank her son. She pad his back and hug him repeatedly till he wants to run away.