Synopsis

Have you ever felt boring for every reason you do in life?

Cause' currently, I feel so shit for everything that surround me.

My favourite food, my toxic friends, and even my hubbies of reading smut manhwas.

Everything feels shit.

I feel like, I don't have the strength to go through over.

Like, I just wanted to skip everything if posible.

That is why I hated it.

I hated myself for being so mean for the things that I knew was once love.

How materialistic am I...

It was the only means for me to run away from the real problem.

I just wanted to hide the pain of loosing my family for some unknown reason.

I just wanted to end everything.

But I cant.

Cause' I'm scared!

Totally scared of what will come upon me if I try to end myself.

I feel drained.

I wanted to get up on this floor, full of dirt and junks from the guys that I have been hanging around.

But my body won't listen.

They are the only reason why I still keep moving on in this life.

Even if it means to break my self apart,

I will set on the path that will gain me the pleasure to feel alived.

So let me rest.

Let me fall into the abyss for the wrongs that I'd done.

Let me suffer for the sins of my loved one.

Cause' only in this life will I be able to be kind and repay their kindness they let me experience.

Only this time...

only this time for sure...