I'm leaving you with your girlfriend

The morning felt surreal, like stepping into the kind of dream you don't want to wake up from. My heart was lighter than it had been in years, fluttering with every glance Zaya sent my way. The fact that she was mine really mine was still sinking in, and I wasn't sure if I'd ever get used to it.

I still can't believe that she is now my girlfriend, well Zaya is the exact type of girlfriend you want: she looks hot, she can cook and she is athelics. 

But it was terrifying, in a way. Letting someone in like this. Trusting someone with not just my body but my heart. I'd spent so long guarding myself against disappointment, against pain, and yet here I was, risking it all for her.

I hope it was not a mistake and that Zaya won't let me when she feel like she is tired of seeing me, or just get bored of my look.