[That's the new life I have chosen for myself...until I don't find him.]
*Tap*
Alex closed the diary since he had reached the end of it.
For the most part, it showed how the person gained freedom and became a new person who could live independently without the existence to which it was once attached.
The person accepting their new life yet not being able to move on from how they used to live before was quite endearing and annoying at the same time
The one whom the writer once detested for caging them, after gaining freedom, the writer was regretting being detached from their father, or whatever they considered that thing.
And for the last few pages, it was all about how much the writer was missing that entity, and how far they could go to meet them even once more.
The desperation was borderline obsession with a tinge of madness, which kept Alex reading further and further until he reached the end.