The Lost or What? (1)

The guilt.

Medeia could see it in his eyes as clear as the summer sky.

When Lucian fled the military, he had left behind more than just a battlefield, he had left behind people. 

Comrades. Men and women who had been just as deceived as he once was. 

Sometimes, he admitted to her that he still wondered … What if? What if he had tried harder to bring them with him? What if, instead of killing them before the bomb exploded, he had forced them to run? Would they have listened? Would they still be alive?

But fear makes people desperate. Desperation leads to reckless choices, and so did he.

It had cost him their lives.

And now, he was carrying that guilt all over again. Because he had never gone back. Never looked into what the military wanted from those children. Never stopped to see what the military had truly done to them.