Chapter 6 the love of her

"Hey there you bad doggy" I yelled with all the anger I had and started running towards it, keeping one thing in mind I had to take it away from the cargo ship. I started to think of ways to get it's attention and to my surprise an idea popped up in my head to grab the amputated hand and use it as a boon."okay... now I am gonna be sick after doing this and ..that is if my stomach and vitals remain intact" (i know I know i am a big drama) I grabbed that arm and started waving it towards it and finally with all the hard work I was able to grab the wolf's attention, it jumped at me but luckily I got out of the way and started running away from the ship along the shore, while running I saw a cliff if I run fast enough and climb it ,I could have a chance to make that beast jump off the cliff straight in to that high current rocky sea depth which will kill him.Increasing my pace I bolted to the cliff with that wolfy z hot on my tails "please let me reach it " I prayed while running and climbing at the same time , and when I saw the edge for the steep, I thanked God but my happiness was short lived as a sharp clawed hand hit the rocks that played a base for my climb making me loose my grip but I still had my other leg tightly hooked and without looking down I started climbing again "please not like this!!!!" I screamed and prayed to the one above skies.

Grghhhhhhhhhhh argghhhhhhhhhh hrrgggghhhhhhhh the animal growled as if it was going to eat me in one go.

After trying so hard I was able to reach and without wasting a second I reached at the cliffs end, a step after which nothing lied except water and rocks, rocks that could kill you after falling from this height, rocks that were probably going to be my potential cause of death, and after two or three minutes of thinking this that beast also gave it's big entry landing on its front two legs "you know I am ready to die today" i said with all the sass I had and why not it's my last day after all that too while fighting a werewolf, majestic isn't it? I don't know why but I thought that thing smiled while listening to me and smirked like a beast smirked, I think i am loosing my mind seeing death Infront of me.

I hatched my plan and started leaning to the edge and made a run to the end with that wolfy z following and finally with eyes closed I jumped, that bastard following in.

And the sad part was I didn't feel pain or fear and while falling I could hear the ship's horn and a faint scream at some distance which I knew was my mother's with pain it had it was clear she had seen me jump.

Then it hit me, the sharp current of water and the grazes that were forming on my body as waves juggled with me like a clown, I tried reaching for the surface but couldn't as the current wasn't letting me, at the same time I saw that wolf crushing between pointed rocks killing itself at the spot and it made me happy that I could save those people by killing it even if it came at price of my life.

As I was basking in my happiness , a sudden hit of a strong wave pushed me towards the same rocks which killed the beast moments before, sealing my fate for the upcoming

doom. I had no complain now, my family was safe, my friends too, whom I promised to protect and of course I had also kept my promise to me, "I was dying in one piece and not shreds haha".

You know that peace you feel when after so long you get to be alone without being afraid of the world,

It's just you and you feel complete even if the end is near.. that's what I felt, full and empty at the same time.I was happy that now at least I was free from worrying about myself and specially others,

people like me never get the happy endings and somehow in between our sorrows we try to find our happy endings which really aren't but we like to think that we got one.

Its true when someone said 'you only live once' and no one would be more thankful than me for it right now because in such a young age of 21 i was tired of living, of smiling when I wasn't happy, just to make my parents believe that I was fine and my young siblings keep going.

Now after so long I could finally let go of all the responsibilities and happiness that choked me every now and then, every confusion that made me question my existence, I was actually happy now but a little sad that mama had to see me die but she still had her other children so mama would learn to live and eventually forget that a girl as ordinary as me existed once that she knew as her daughter.

Slowly I felt my eyes close, I tried fighting it but failed miserably, depths called me and I answered it happily knowing I had completed my time here, and just before letting my breath go I felt a tug in my heart that I wouldn't have a grave in my memory but it's alright because people as normal and as odd as us at least deserve to die in this tragic but heroic way, as i ended this last thought another hit made me bump my head on the rocky edge under water, me from ever breathing again, from ever feeling again .....and FROM EVER WAITING AGAIN....IT SCARED ME A LITTLE OF HOW THANKFUL WAS I FOR THIS.

Aina's pov:

I was running, running towards a hand that I wanted to hold and it was just so close to me that every time I ran ahead it felt it was just so near to catch but I couldn't and it hurt so bad.

Then I heard a voice, a voice so sweet that I wanted to listen to it everyday of my life, voice gentle enough to heal my wounds that never healed in all those years. My heart was full..too full to think straight, it said,

"Wake up! It's not your time yet"

"Why?" I cried

"There's nothing left out there, no one's there to wait for me, no one came after me!"

"You wanted them not to" the voice said again.

"We don't always mean what we say now do we, they never cared for me, if they did at least one of them would have been here, at least one of them would have screamed my name but no!!!!" I was broken now, whispering those words again and again.

"I am alone and I will rather die, plz take me with you I know you can.I am tired of this, of finding a place to belong." I begged her.

"May be you weren't looking in the right way" she was annoying me now.

What did she know huh? Nothing..I have been the one facing life before and after those zombies came without any Friend, without any motivation, doing things that needed to be done when I didn't want to.

It's funny how even an UN earthy voice can't understand me and I was expecting normal people-my parents to listen to me.

I was right, I shouldn't have open my mouth angel voice or not.

"You are like them, I was alone, dying inside and pretended that I was happy.

And now you are here saying it's my fault that I am like this? there's no difference between you and them." Shouted I.

"Do you know how bad it felt when I couldn't form proper words, when I got scared of smallest of the things, scared of voicing my own rights and others rather than helping me, they looked at me like a creep. They called me depressed. Which I am not!!!! I am not.."I lowered my voice defeated.

"And after all this I am in no way getting back there, I would rather be in hell where I would know the reasons of my punishments unlike there..."

I finished.

"It's not your time and you will go back

,I know you hate me but there is still one thing you haven't seen or felt and once you see it, I will give you a chance to return..but just this time give life a chance and go back dear" she said.

"I am going but mark my words, I will be here the second you will allow, no delay." I said accepting her offer.

"We will see, good bye for now" she happily said.

"Nope no goodbyes friend we will meet soon" I was determined this time.

My life was for others and my death too but life after death is mine and mine alone and no one will take that from me..no one.