Chapter 115

Emma's POV 

 "Woah!" I gasped, trying to slow it down. 

Lily and I had just had one of the most beautiful moments we ever shared. 

We went to a children's park right after we licked up the mountain like ice creams we bought. 

All those were Lily's idea, but I so fucking enjoyed it cause really, I was a child at heart anyway. 

Watching the kids play, so carefree and unworried, helped me less burdened. 

I felt free-er to talk. 

 "Lily." I started. "I've been thinking about it a lot, and I'm not sure about Chase and I anymore." I said. 

 "I mean, I thought we talked about this already." She replied. 

 "Have we?" I asked. 

I barely ever felt in the mood to talk to anyone, and when I did, all I really wanted to do was let it out. 

 "Or are you bored with me already?" I sulked. 

 "That is, you trying to guilt trip me." Lily sighed. In her defense, I was really confusing. 

But in mine, I was confused too. I didn't really know what I wanted yet. 

It's a life I really should've been more grateful for. 

 "Emma,we're here to have fun." She said, "Enough of your man troubles. And yes, I don't care how insensitive that sounds. I can try to fight for you, but not if you wanna be left alone to waggle in the pain and heartache it brings." 

"That's not fair." I winced. 

 "You really think Gray and I are some perfect little couple, Huh?" She asked me. Guilty as charged, I looked away, distracted by some mom giving her child breast milk. It did look beautiful but I didn't see myself in her shoes. 

 "Ermm, y'all have it easy at least." I replied to her

 "I really didn't expect that to come from you." Lily said, thankfully, it didn't sound like she'd taken offense. 

 "I'm sorry." I mumbled. "It really just looks like it. And I'm happy for you guys." 

 "Thank you." She acknowledged, "But that doesn't exactly make me happy."

 "Oh well. Still doesn't mean I wouldn't die to be in your shoes." I gave her a knowing look. 

 "Emma, breathe." She said, and I did. 

The air was fresh, moist, and beautiful. 

It was then I really did take in how beautiful the park was. With leaves of different colors and sizes, carpeting the ground, many different couples, making out in very inconspicuous corners. 

 "We should plan a double date here." She suggested. 

 "It'd be a good idea," I followed. 

 "Once we're settled though." She said, it was her time to look down at her fingers. "I'm scared, Emma." She said, 

 "Why would you ever be?" I asked her. 

 "It's just, we're gonna be traveling a lot, being with too many people and stuff like that. Seeing pretty ladies, and guys, having to work with them…." She kept swallowing hard, almost at every word. 

 "Lily?" I hugged her. "I don't think Gray is that type of guy." I assured her. "You know him better, and you should know that he loves you, better than I do. You're his oxygen, Emma." 

 "Gray's past speaks for itself." Lily was thick skinned, and while she might not have been in tears. I was only too sure that whatever makes me cry, was just the right amount of stuff to put her in that mood. 

 "I'm sorry I've been all about myself." I felt shitty for being so selfish. 

 "He's probably on the flight right now, Emma." She said, looking up, her eyes were blank, "We have several other models flying first class too. Matter of fact, today was for flying the ladies, and tomorrow for the guys. He only got to be on it cause we're in a joint partnership, something like that. And we're gonna be flying with guys tomorrow." She looked at me, skeptical. 

 "Hmm." I sighed as I thought about it. "I really don't think you have any cause for alarm. He's a sweet guy, and sweet guys get good girls," I nudged her, "good girls like you, Lily." 

We spent the rest of the day talking about our worries, because according to Lily, 'No worries in Berlin!' 

She'd booked me a VIP seat to all her fashion shows, and I was gonna be spending two days there. 

I hugged her. I was so happy to be out of the states for the first time. I badly needed the fresh air that it could afford. 

 "Let's get you back before Chase sends people after me." She joked, and I laughed. 

We were soon on the ride back home, and no matter how I tried to deny it, my mood dipped. 

The only thing stopping me from really going home was Mark. I really couldn't see him in any other light, irregardless of whether he was helping the police or not. 

 "Let me help with your bags." Lily offered as she parked in Chase's lot. 

I got down from my passenger Princess seat, and tucked Kevin's card, the one Lily had been pressuring me to throw away, into my bra. I know I wasn't being rational, but I really could need him something in the future, genuinely. 

 "Thanks beautiful." I smiled. I really didn't want to go in there alone. And we were already halfway, when she got a call. Lily ran to kiss my forehead and said something about Gray before dashing off. 

I was gonna call her later at night. 

I grabbed all my shopping bags and stacked them on my hands, and struggled to the front door. 

As I approached, I began to get funny ideas. 

Was Chase really home? What if he wasn't? What if he had friends over, friends I didn't know about? What if the friends were girls, or worse still, a girl? What would I do? 

Thoughts like those made me nervous, but I shrugged them off and struggled to open the door, where I was greeted with one of the most beautiful dinner set ups I ever saw, ever! 

It was only four pm, and still quite bright outside, but the warm red lighting, from the strip lights and bulbs made it look like midnight. 

And there was Chase, right opposite me, in the sexiest looks I'd ever seen him on. 

Gosh! He looked so edible. He looked like the boy I fell in love with. 

 "Woah!" I gasped, trying to slow it down. It felt like I'd entered heaven.