Kneel down

The story’s protagonist, Xu Ye, developed a strong aversion to the opposite sex after witnessing the lack of emotional connection in his parents’ sexual relationship during his childhood. As he grew up, he discovered that he had no desire for women and repeatedly failed in his attempts to overcome this psychological barrier. During his college years, Xu Ye was introduced to the gay community by a wealthy, openly gay friend. He began exploring intimate relationships with men, but soon realized that his interest in men was also gradually fading.



At a party, Xu Ye was captivated by an SM video, which made him aware of his desire for pain. He started to delve into SM culture and eventually became engrossed in it. However, as he became desensitized to pain, he began to feel anxious, fearing he might develop sexual impotence.



In his search for change, Xu Ye was introduced by a friend to a secret SM club. There, he encountered a range of individuals, including a guide known as “Little White Rabbit.” The club had strict rules and protocols, accepting only regular members and requiring absolute discretion about everything that occurred within. Xu Ye embarked on a new journey of exploration, hoping to find a way to rediscover pleasure.