Chapter 669 Willing to abandon myself, then who am I... in the end?

Ling Qing's home.

Fengbin and Hua pushed open the door with their exhausted bodies.

I'm back~

She dragged her tired body to the sofa, buried her face in the cushion, and let out a long sigh.

Why did you come back so late?

A familiar voice came from the direction of the kitchen.

That was her own voice.

To be precise, it was Mai Sakurajima who was now using her original body.

Hehua barely raised her head.

I saw myself walking towards me with a cup of hot milk.

This weird experience started a few days ago.

But she still couldn't get used to seeing her face make that mature and steady expression.

Mai's eyes were sharp.

She felt worried when Fengbin and Hua came back after everyone else had rested, after all, they were using her body.

Feel sorry.

Fengbin Hehua scratched the back of his head in embarrassment.

I, I accidentally returned to my home out of habit, and then hurried back.

It's a habit.

She hasn't quite adjusted to living in Mai's body yet.

Seeing that her expression didn't seem fake, Mai didn't pursue the matter any further.

You come back too late, so just eat these.

Mai put the milk on the coffee table and sat down opposite her.

How are you today?

Hehua didn't answer immediately.

Instead, he sat up slowly and took small sips of the milk.

The warm liquid slid down my throat, slightly relieving the tightness that had been there all day.

tired…

This was the only word she uttered in the end.

There was an unprecedented fatigue in his voice.

Mai looked at her quietly without urging her.

This calm attitude made Hehua both envious and a little annoyed.

Why is this person so calm no matter which body he is in?

Did you know…

Hehua put down the cup and spoke in a low voice.

I was called by the teacher to help out again at school today. Some schoolmates surrounded me.

Mai-senpai this, Mai-senpai that…they kept asking questions.

I had no idea how to answer, but I couldn't refuse.

Her fingers tapped unconsciously on the wall of the cup, making a slight sound.

I really just want to be alone.

All this is because of Mai's…fame.

Mai nodded slightly.

She is usually pretty much the same, but she can use her abilities to make others not notice her.

Haven't you always envied my life and fame?

These words pierced the flower like a needle.

Yes.

Before the body swap, she had indeed envied Mai's popularity countless times.

She is not very famous and almost no one knows who Fengbin Hehua is.

Even at school she seems like an ordinary student.

That's different!

Hehua suddenly raised her voice.

I thought… I thought it would be great to be liked by everyone.

But in reality…

Her voice dropped again.

Everyone was just looking at Mai Sakurajima, not me.

There was a moment of silence in the room.

Fengbin and Hua lowered their heads dejectedly.

She knew very well that it was not her fame, but Mai's.

To the point that she was always in a state of wanting to escape.

So…

Mai finally spoke, her voice incredibly calm.

Do you want to change it back now?

?

Hehua was stunned.

Change it back?

Go back to the life of Fengbin Hehua, who was strictly controlled by her mother, trained until late at night every day, and was never good enough?

Her silence seemed to have given the answer.

Mai raised her eyebrows slightly.

It seems like you would rather continue to be the fake Sakurajima Mai?

No!

Hehua hurriedly denied it.

…

But I don't know how to explain it.

I…

She scratched her hair irritably, and Mai's beautiful chestnut long hair was now messy.

I just… Mom she…

The words came to my lips but I couldn't say them. (To read the exciting novels, go to Faloo Novel Network!)

How to tell others that your biological mother's love for her daughter is conditional?

Only when she performs well enough and looks like the star Fengbin and Hua enough can she get that little bit of pitiful recognition?

Seeing her state of mind, Mai's expression softened.

Hehua, you know we have to change it back sooner or later, right?

I know!

Hehua almost shouted.

Then he curled up on the sofa like a deflated ball.

I just… need time.

There was another silence.

Hehua stared at the cup of milk in her hand.

The liquid in the cup was no longer steaming, just like her gradually cooling passion.

sister…

She suddenly spoke, using a title that she hadn't used for a long time.

How did you get together with Brother Ling Qing?

Mai obviously didn't expect the sudden change of topic and her eyes widened slightly.

This expression looked particularly childish on Kazuka's original face.

Why are you asking this suddenly?

Just curious.

Hehua shrugged, trying to act nonchalant.

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You are so outstanding and must have many suitors. Why did you choose him?

But… Ling Qing is even more special.

Mai pondered for a moment.

A gentle smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, a smile that Kazuka had never seen on her face in the mirror before.

Because in Ling Qingjun's eyes, I am not a star, but Sakurajima Mai.

She said softly, and there was a certainty in her voice that Kazuka had never experienced before.

When everyone only saw the image of Mai Sakurajima, only the way he looked at me… made me feel like I was just myself.

This sentence was like a key that suddenly opened a locked door in Hehua's heart.

She felt an inexplicable pain rising up her throat and her eyes became hot.

Just…myself…

She repeated it in a barely audible whisper.

Once upon a time, she also longed for such a look.

Not looking at the idol Toyohama Kazuka, not looking at Sakurajima Mai's cousin, just looking at…herself.

But even the mother's eyes were full of expectations and demands, not to mention the fans.

And flowers?

Mai's worried voice brought her back to reality.

I'm fine.

Hehua quickly wiped the corners of her eyes and forced a smile.

I'm just… a little tired. I'll go take a shower first.

She almost fled from the living room and hid in the bathroom.

Hot water poured from the shower.

Hehua let the water wash over her face, unable to tell whether it was water or tears.

Why?

Why did this sentence make her so shaken?

She always thought that becoming a big star was her dream.

But at this moment.

The goal suddenly seemed so…empty.

In Ling Qingjun's eyes, I am not a star, but Sakurajima Mai.

The words echoed in her mind.

She suddenly realized that she was desperately trying to become a star, perhaps just to get her mother's approval, to be seen and valued.

But Mai…

She already had it all, but she cherished the look that treated her as an ordinary person even more.

And turn off the water to the flowers.

Looking at Mai Sakurajima in the mirror.

This face is so beautiful and mature, carrying the expectations and fantasies of countless people.

But the confusion and fragility in the eyes of the person in the mirror at this moment is 100% Fengbin and Hua.

His fingertips lightly touched the mirror, as if caressing Mai's cheek.

Fengbin and Hua whispered to themselves.

So…who am I really?

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