Even now, I feel annoyed by my friends' thoughts. What's more, most of them say things like, "Maybe your parents won't be able to be together one day! Everyone must have been bothered by their behavior.
But as their child, I don't immediately believe what they say.
As much as possible, I need real proof! So that this problem is really over. No need to think much, just live quietly, and my life feels like no one cares. What's more, my lover doesn't care anymore, I can only brood while thinking about this problem.
Even my best friend has no news! I don't know yet, when will I go back to Yogyakarta? Anyway, when do you want to go home? My life is really quiet. Everyone can only pay attention to people who are already successful. Meanwhile, I still have many unfinished problems. Then I didn't get any support.
Even though at the moment I'm still confused and indecisive about the decision. At least there are still plans with my boyfriend. Even though he thought about it for too long, and one thing that cannot be separated is his most beautiful partner. This partner followed her wherever she went and was always at her side.
I couldn't figure out why? Then all I could do was stare at her without uttering a single word. Though there was envy, resentment, and I tried to stop myself from saying that my best friend was too much of a love slave. She was always with me every day, while I could only see her from a distance.
Since then, I feel that my best friend has been trying to avoid me. Hah.... Too bad I couldn't ask her a question. I should have, I still could, it's just that my lips were sealed immediately. Couldn't say anything! In fact, the question is still stored in my mind to this day.
Maybe one day there will be a gift regarding this question. Hopefully it will be from me! So, at that time I just felt like fighting. To stop thinking about it, especially after losing someone like him.
Until that moment, there was no news at all!
It even made me think for a moment, "When will I be able to meet my best friend again? For example, if in the near future there is a possibility that there will be no meeting with my best friend. Why is that? Because going back to Yogyakarta is too far from her hometown.
It takes a long time! And the problem isn't over yet.
"Jar, why are you so quiet? Let's eat first! The food will get cold."
"Yes, Mom."
"Oh yes, do you know why you're so quiet?"
"Do you know what I'm saying in there?"
"You do, don't you? Heheheh ......,"
"If you really know, why don't you tell us what our children are thinking?" asked Mom, trying to think positively.
"Calm down! Better eat first. When you've finished eating, tell Mommy. How can we tell our children what's in their hearts?"
"Okay, good idea."
Sometimes, when I see them like this, I am reminded of my childhood memories. What's more, I often say from the bottom of my heart, "I wish this kind of attitude would always exist, and eliminate the stubbornness in my parents. My life feels calm, cool, and I don't have many thoughts anymore. Even though I know there are still many people out there who don't know. Well, never mind.
At least for now, I feel very happy. My parents are getting along! Unlike yesterday, it took a lot of patience and a clear mind. Hah.... Now I'm even confused about what to say? To make Father and Mother happy again. Even though I know there are many temptations at work.
I can't understand why anyone would still believe that information.
Then all I can do is bear it. To know that my family is still fine! There is no problem to be faced. Even though I know that the media likes to exaggerate and one thing has to be taught.
How can I make the information that has been spread disappear and make them forget?
So that I can give the real information, but I have to be careful. Because there are still a lot of spies around us. Including my problems with my lover, I really can't do anything. Even during this time, I can only be silent.
And try not to care about what we do around us? Hopefully only the problems that are over will end. Even if it comes up again, I will not hesitate to report this case to the authorities. Except for the current problem.
It's just a way of putting a damper on old information.
"Jar, how's your cooking?"
"It's delicious! Especially with the chili sauce. It's delicious!"
"Wait, since when does Dawn like chili? As far as I know, I've never seen my favorite son eat chili sauce."
"Yeah, because you haven't seen it directly. So, you just saw it now, Hehe he ..."
"Since you're discussing chili, let's ask Daddy if he likes it," Daddy asked with a happy expression, trying to join the discussion about chili.
"Mom, I'm asking."
"Yes, why Dad?"
"It's okay, Mom," Dad said, his expression changing immediately.
The feeling that Dad was happy before is now even in the dining room. Hah.... start again this time must be stronger patience against the sense of ego in my parents. If, still behave like this.
It's better to contemplate for a moment in their respective rooms. Since my brother is out of the house! When did you see that the room was actually very messy? Even though I told her. Heh.... just left, let this be my brother's room. So, the one who has to clean up his room is my brother, not me.
Hopefully, mother's reaction will be shocked and then, istigfar. When my sister came home, she would get angry right away. It's usually like that, although I'm the only one who feels it. Now my sister doesn't feel it at all. Yes, she's his favorite child too, not just me.
Thank God, I don't feel jealous and spiteful and want to commit crimes like in soap operas. There are absolutely no plans in that direction! One thing we should all know is that my sister always gives me ideas about how I should express myself when?
Over time, I've never seen such an atmosphere, although it was eventually disturbed by my presence in her room. I just wanted to know what she was doing in her room besides studying? Was it for social media content?
"Astagfirullah, why is the room a mess? I didn't clean it first. Yes, Allah, the second child is really hard to organize."
"Why do you have to yell at mom?"
"Just look at Dad's favorite child! His room is a mess. Mom gets dizzy when she sees her room in such a mess."
"Yes, you just have to clean it up with Mommy."
"Why do you always defend this child? Why do you?"
"Well, girls like to be messy."
"Is that the reason? Isn't there another reason?" mother asked while holding his head.