As the cold water rained down on him, scenes played in Mark's mind. They depicted the conversation he had with his maid only a few minutes ago and the bashfulness she showed. Such scenes should have brought warmth to his heart but instead, they only filled it with bitterness.
He wished he had remained oblivious to the pattern, but now that he was aware of it there was no going back. Every event in the future will be analyzed in relation to the event loop. That would force him to be more on guard than he already is, especially since he had yet to decide how to deal with the whole matter.
'Can I go against it?'
His limited understanding brought with it limited options. So far the loop had been a good thing. It always ended with him surviving very difficult situations and that made him hesitant to break it. Still, the urge to break out of it was hard to ignore.
'I mean, it's not like things have stopped progressing…'