Between the suggestions of Little Bowl and Zhu Shi, I ultimately adopted Zhu Shi's advice, and directly expressed my feelings to Mazao.
And looking at Mazao's startled expression, my heart was indeed somewhat uneasy and wavering.
Our relationship had more than one abnormal aspect. It wasn't just the age difference, the imbalance of power between us also made this confession seem like a strong party demanding something from a weaker one. Moreover, my intentions towards Mazao were not always kind. Rather, for a long period of time, I harbored some very malicious plans against her.