' Don't leave me'. Chapter 28

"He was the first man I killed." Taehyung repeated in an invariable,solid voice." Years later after my escape I returned to Daegu but this time the weak, pathetic boy who feared him was dead and V had taken his place. I walked into that room, that had been my prison and I found him under a young man and all he got to say was if I had missed him! The bastard thought I had returned for him.I cut off his dick,dragged his bleeding body out and took him in the same warehouse I had spent days and nights terrified he might discover us. My shelter became his prison forever. I tied him up and burnt the place down..I burnt him alive Jungkook and my heart was pleased hearing him begging and weeping like a coward and screaming from pain."

His gaze slowly drifted away from Jungkook to the starry night sky." Back in the States I'm a casino owner,a loan shark,a deadly killer. I kill without hesitation. I eliminate my enemies without remorse. I destroy people's lives and make them disappear from the face of the earth. I've never been married. Never had a typical affair with a woman. Never fallen in love before. I was taught love is for the weak and has no place in our world." He rested his head on the window frame, his eyes fixed on nothing."You've got to be tough to survive. Never show weakness. Never show emotions. Never allow anyone to see you cry. Your eyes are cold and lifeless."

The man's hands rubbed his forehead as he continued revealing parts of his life, thoughts he hadn't shared with anyone.

" I've got a couple of friends in Vegas. None of them know about my second life here..well that's not entirely true. Yosef knows..anyhow these people work for me or with me and mostly put up with me. Men like me. Lost and ruined. Misguided. The outcasts of society.Haruto made me a part of a dark world,dipped in sins and lust. He introduced me to hardcore sex and bdsm. He trained me on how to become a dom and always be in control. I had full power over my subs,avoiding getting emotionally attached to them.. because that was what I needed the most to recover from my dreadfully painful past. I never had any expectations. You know why? Because I didn't expect anything from anyone, not even from life itself. Expectations hurt. Remind you of what you could have but can't get..I shut people out. Trusted no one. Learned how to survive on my own. Besides my brother, only Haruto was closer to me."

" Did..you.. sleep with Haruto? Was it part of your.. training?"his voice laced with fear for an answer he wasn't sure he wanted to hear.

Taehyung turned around completely dismayed. His brows knitted on his forehead and mouth wide opened. Jungkook was unbelievable! He had just admitted he was a stone cold killer and all he cared about was if he had sex with his mentor! " Of all the things I told you this is what you ask me? If I slept with him?"

" I already know who you are, Kim V. It wasn't difficult to guess that you were involved in illegal activities..your aura and then your brother confirmed it in Jeju. I just didn't know what that bastard did to you. How much he hurt you. Scared you for life. You did good, killing him. I would have done far worse to him. I would have tortured him for days before ending his miserable life." He stood up, in all his nakedness walked to him and cupped his cheeks." Did you sleep with him?" the boy stubbornly stuck to his guns.

" No! Hell no! He was like a father to me! The only father figure I had!Besides, I hated gay people! Uncle made me believe that all of them were wicked and vile, having orgies and engaging in twisted things, preyed on vulnerabilities and used young men to satisfy their sick desires. Haruto and I just..we just exchanged slaves.. nothing more. He showed me how to be a master and transformed me from a frail boy to a powerful dominant.Plus he was straight and so was I..well at least that was the case before you came along."

Jungkook kissed him softly. " Good to know."

" Have you listened to a word I said? I'm a fucken killer. My hands are covered in blood. Aren't you afraid of me? Disgusted by me? I kill people."

" Nobody is perfect." Jungkook meant it and it wasn't said as a joke. He would fit into his life one way or the other and nobody would deprive him of the chance to be with him. His love was too strong for that detail to come between them.

" Jungkook! Are you even listening to me? I'm a criminal! One of those your dad and Yoongi arrest and lock up to the joint! My friends are ex-cons. I have connections with the Japanese Yakuza!I loan people money and when they don't pay up,I break their bones and sometimes kill them!" 

Jungkook huffed." I heard you."

" And you casually accept it? I've done horrible things. One of these days I might end up behind bars! I have a past that haunts me and doesn't allow me to live my life as a normal person. Do you have any idea where you're getting yourself into?" he asked, kind of squeaky. He couldn't understand why he was taking it so lightly.

The younger's arms wrapped around his neck and body glued on him." I know we'll find a way to live together and that's all that matters to me. Most importantly I want to help you get rid of the ghosts of your past. Erase every bad memory of that man." He cropped up his head,eyes shining with love." Your uncle made his choices and paid for them. He got the punishment he deserved and I hope he burns in hell! I'm sorry that the bastard took away your childhood and made you feel dirty and inadequate to be loved but I refuse to let him win from his grave! I won't give him the satisfaction of completely ruining you!You helped your brother live a normal life and gave him a husband he adores. It's time you take care of yourself and me the same way I'm gonna take care of you. I won't let this chance go to waste. I love you just the way you are. With all your mistakes and flaws."

Taehyung smiled at how simple it sounded from his lips. He longed for it to become a reality but still had his reservations." My uncle made me hate myself and my body. He implanted the belief I deserve nothing more than pain and for years his ghost haunted my dreams. Forged the doubt of who I was deep inside me,forcing me to do things I'm not proud of. But that doesn't change the fact I'm V. I'll always be V. Can you live with that?"

" I don't care who you think you are. I love you whether you are V or Taehyung. A criminal or a businessman. I dream of a life with you and I won't let your silly doubts destroy our happiness. Because nobody is gonna love you the way I do."

Taehyung's heart leaped in joy and for a moment he got lost in those big,doe eyes. He snuggled his face in his crook, embracing and cradling his lover,showering him with his love."Kookie..I live in Vegas..you live here. Your family, job, friends are here."

" I'm a big boy. I can live on my own, you know. I can make new friends and get a new job. I've always been independent."he spurt out kind of insulted.

" My enemies.. I've got enemies everywhere, waiting for a chance to get back at me. I'll put your life at risk."

" My dad is the Chief of Police. I've dealt with danger all my life! Hiding my identity and being cautious. My family has enemies too!" he casually reminded him,tracing his hands from his neck to his back,

" That's another problem. The Chief of Police will have a criminal as a son-in-law. What will we discuss at dinner?" 

Jungkook hummed." Dad doesn't bring his work home. Papa is very strict about it. So don't worry."

The boy seemed to have an answer for everything.His hopes and certainty fill the man with optimism for the future and it brought a smile to his face." I'll talk to your family tomorrow at breakfast and ask their permission to date you."

" That won't be necessary. I want you,you want me and it's over."

" Call me old-fashioned but having their approval is important to me. I hope SeenHe will have the courtesy of not showing his face." 

Jungkook raised his eyebrow,and a mischievous, little smile appeared on his lips."That won't be a problem. Something tells me he won't be coming for breakfast. And because I don't want any secrets between us..yes I've dated him for a couple of months but we weren't a couple and it goes without saying he never touched me. Only you can." he emphasized proudly.

He left out the part of SeenHe forcefully kissing him because Taehyung would become furious and probably beat him to death. His concern had nothing to do with SeenHe but he'd protect his lover to the end." Now.. let's stop talking and go back to bed..I want to make sweet love to you..show you how much I love and adore you.." his throaty voice whispered seductively.

He gently held his hand,luring him to bed and lunging him on it. He then settled on top of him, legs spread on each side, rubbing his ass on Taehyung's cock,feeling it violently vibrating and scooching down,he found the man's lips, captured the tender flesh and his tongue slowly licked it,feeling his intense shivering,before splitting open his lover's mouth and sliding in,kissing him softly, pouring his love,making him feel wanted and taking his breath away.

His hand dangled on his pounding chest,moving to his flat stomach and circling the moist hard-on,he slightly lifted his ass and pushed it all in,tilting his head back as he was wrapped in a euphoric bliss. He rhythmically moved his body up and down, bouncing on the hard cock, feeling it getting harder inside him. 

Taehyung was left in awe and unable to control the blatant urge to have him once again, his thrusts turned aggressive,snatching him by the hips, jabbing his nails into his skin." Fuck baby! I want you to fuck on my cock.."Eyes glazed over the younger,drawing in his salacious expressions.

Jungkook stood absolutely still." I'm gonna make love to you baby..no more hard fucking tonight. I'll give you all of me..make you feel special and wanted.. loved.."

The man gulped and halted, letting him show him the way to his heart. Jungkook moved in circles around his cock,hands rested on his chest, casually playing with his nipples, observing the blissful look on his lover's face and absorbing his delightful moans. Taehyung groped his ass,skimming his fingertips on the velvety skin, spreading the cheeks to feel him more.

" I love having you inside me..feeling your cock throbbing, growing bigger and harder..stretching my tight walls..it makes me feel alive.." he lisped breathlessly, hopping on him,pushing deeper and at the same time stroking his painfully erected dick. He rubbed the tip with his inder finger, gathering his precum and offering it to Taehyung. 

The older opened his mouth to receive and taste his juices, licking and slurping the precum from the slender finger." I love eating your juices..It feels heavenly running in my veins like a drug.." he bit his lips, trapping the finger between his teeth,securing it with his hand.

The more Jungkook was bouncing on the thick cock the closer he got to his orgasm. Whimpering ecstatic and grunting, he took him deeper, clenching around him,smashing waves thrashing his prostate and he eventually gave in to his urges and embraced his tantalising orgasm, screaming to the unbearable stimulation. His dick erupted, spreading his cum on Taehyung's chest,neck and jaw the exact moment the man exploded inside him, flooding his tight hole.

" I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!" Taehyung yowled in ecstasy from the constant warm release.Jungkook had no intention of stopping anytime soon. His upper body hunkered down,a wild thudding in his heart, heavy lidded eyes glowing from the carnal sensation while the spread cum of his release became a sticky mass on his fingers.

" Open up.. you've always enjoyed tasting me.."

Taehyung obeyed, his lips parted and gladly accepted the result of their love making. His impatient tongue licked the moist fingers one by one,his gleaming eyes fixed on the younger and his hand tightly cupping Jungkook's, inundated with the torturously desire to please him.

The boy, totally out of breath, began slowly bouncing on the hard-on, grumbly moans slipping out of his parted lips as the friction was overwhelming. The leisurely balanced hopping up and down,making Jungkook's body appear as if he was dangling in the air,his soft fingers cupping Taehyung 's on his hips,each calculated thrust transporting him closer to heaven, made Taehyung lose all self-control.

" I love the way you fuck on my cock.. it's like your hole was made to take only me..my cock.." he lisped in a throaty tone.

Jungkook grinned,poring over the effusive desire imprinted on his face. He hunkered down,stuck out his tongue,sliding it on the tattoo, taking pleasure from the older's arousing moans as his mushy tongue lapped the hard,red nipples in turns."I was made for you.."he flicked his tongue on the nipple."every part of my body.." he gave another flick."was created to be touched only by.." and another one, trapping it in his teeth, the man whimpered and stirred ."your hands..I belong to you..my eternal master.."

" Your eternal slave.. you've conquered all of me..my master.." Taehyung had full knowledge of his admission. They weren't just words in the heat of passion. The cruel dom had become an obedient sub. He'd do anything Jungkook ordered him. His wish was his command.

" Then..yield to my will..promise to stay by my side..even if the world burns down.."

" I promise to be with you..even in the afterlife..I love you.." The man grumbled the moment Jungkook's bouncing turned aggressive,his hole taking him deeper,his mouth repeatedly slurped and sucked the spot between his neck and shoulder, digging his teeth and marking him.

Their bodies twitched, the man's nails abruptly snatched his hips,bent his knees,dancing to the rhythm, his orgasm dangerously approaching."You.. won't cum.. unless I tell you.."It wasn't a demand but more of a plea. Moving his hips,arching his back,his powerful thrusts united with those of his lover's,resulting in an earth shattering release, between halloos and whimpers, filling Jungkook's hole to the top.

The younger felt the warmth swarming his tight anus and his prostate ruthlessly hammered and the last sane cell of his brain was overthrown." I can't..hold it..need to cum..Tae..please.."

Seconds before his eruption, Taehyung's hands dragged him up,his fresh cum leaving traces on his body ,placing him right on his chest."Cum on my face..drown me with your cum.." His tongue popped out of his open mouth, fingers wrapped around the throbbing cock, jerking him off, lapping the swollen shaft,eagerly anticipating.

" Fuck..cumming.. I'm shooting Tae.." he squealed, surges of pleasure shaking his body.

The younger 's back bent,his toes curled, stomach jittered,head tossed back,his orgasm panging his body. Spurts of hot cum showered the man's tongue,cheeks,nose and forehead.

Impatiently, Taehyung pulled the jittery body up, Jungkook's ass was at close range, just above his mouth. The older kept him steady, hungrily slobbering over the drenched from cum hole, sucking in their mixed juices, practically eating him. When he had gulped the remaining cum,his tongue plunged in,thrusting in and out.

The boy to balance properly, leaned on his feet,his hands snagged Taehyung's hair and enjoyed the rimming and tongue fucking of his abused hole to the point he ejaculated on the man's hair and bed, begging and whimpering ecstatic from the savage overstimulation.

The two lovers made desperate love till sunrise. In his own way Jungkook shouted his adoration and love, giving him a vivid taste of their future life as one body,one soul,one heart. And Taehyung, starving to be loved, he accepted it wholeheartedly.

Taehyung didn't sleep a wink that night. His baby's head was nuzzled in his neck,his hot breath warming him and his body on top of him,linking their hands together.It was a memorable night engraved in his mind. The first time in his life he made love to someone without toys and pain and his lover had full control over him.

Jungkook's perched lips caught his attention. The younger had the kindest soul but lips like the devil. Lips Taehyung wanted to devour with a need that excited and scared him.

He smiled watching Kookie peacefully sleeping, snuggled on him and his heart leaped in joy. He loved the feeling of fulfillment gushing out and the future somehow looked brighter! 

The future..

His gaze suddenly darkened as his fears and doubts took over, observing the boy who had stolen his heart and had become his world.Words were easy to be said, actions seemed impossible to implement. Their union would create conflicts between him and his family because it would be strenuous for them to accept Taehyung,a killer, as their son's boyfriend and future husband.

He,of course, had Yoongi's reassurance but was it enough to keep them together? The moment arguments would appear,their relationship would be tested. If Jungkook were to lose his family and potentially their love wouldn't that immediately cause friction between them? 

Eventually his love would turn into hate and Taehyung couldn't live with Jungkook hating him. Seeing the disappointment in his eyes.Apart from that, his treacherous world and recklessness would put Kookie's life in a neverending danger. 

SeenHe was right. He was a smack! In and out of trouble,the police and his enemies were constantly stalking him and his men to seize the opportunity to harm him and his loved ones. Wasn't that the reason he kept his own brother away? To protect him? To make sure he wouldn't be in danger? 

How could he jeopardize Jungkook's life?

His breath caught up in his throat and felt like closing up. He shook his head, tears scolded his face as the truth and realization ripped through him, his lungs protesting while attempting to suck in air. He was hyperventilating and shaking, thinking of what needed to be done.

He had to go. He had to leave him again. Abandoned him and the life he had begun dreaming of. Break the promises he gave him.But Jungkook's safety came first. He had no place in his life..in their lives. It would just complicate things for them. He'd never become the man Jungkook needed and deserved but would remain a parasite forever.

Taehyung blinked his teary eyes, slowly taking his time to register every detail of Jungkook's face. Every curve in his body, before showering him with pecks and kisses. He unlinked their fingers, carefully placing the boy's body on the mattress,covered him with the duvet, listening to his cute snoring and crawled out of bed.

He had to leave before someone woke up and he had to explain..He snatched his clothes from the floor,put them back on, grabbed his luggage ready to go but could he just leave without as much as an explanation? He dragged his feet to the desk,took out a notebook and hurriedly wrote a few words shaking,leaving the note on the nightstand for Jungkook to see.

As he turned around he realised that walking out that door would put an end to his only chance of being happy. As his fingers clutched onto the handle and opened the door,his hand burnt and heart stopped beating. It was excruciatingly painful to give up to what his heart desired but he was strong enough to endure the consequences. 

For Jungkook. 

For his life.

That one step out the room and into the dim corridor,got him closer to his destruction. Shred him to pieces. Bled his already broken heart. He had no life without him. He was as good as dead. But his death was better than Jungkook's.

_______

Jungkook gate-crashed inside the huge dining room where his family was enjoying their breakfast, distraught and hysterical,with fury burning in his rheumy eyes,a twinging pain in his chest, leaving everyone startled.

He had woken up from a peaceful sleep to a cold, empty bed ,no sign of Taehyung with his luggage missing. Lurching,he brawled to put on his clothes, panic taking over, searching the villa and the gardens but the man had vanished. He was now standing in front of his family and friends, barefoot,his shorts and t-shirt worn upside down,his scruffy hair impossible to tame, Taehyung's note crumpled in his hand and throwing daggers in every direction.

"WHERE IS HE? WHERE IS TAE? WHAT DID YOU TELL HIM?" His yelling was so cloaking it shook the entire villa."I ASKED YOU A QUESTION! WHERE IS MY BOYFRIEND?"

His family exchanged odd looks, not having a clue what was going on but based on his infuriating expression it wasn't good.

"YOU'D BETTER START TALKING! WHERE IS HE? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO HIM?"

" He's not here. We haven't seen him, baby." Jin took the lead, being brave enough to deal with his son." Did you check his room? He might be sleeping."

" I WAS IN HIS ROOM! ALL NIGHT! DON'T YOU THINK I WOULD HAVE SEEN HIM IF HE WAS THERE?"he blustered sassily,stomping his foot on the floor,his hands gripped his waist.

"Kook, please calm down." Namjoon advised his son who was blowing his top.

" I DON'T WANT TO CALM DOWN.I WANT TO SCREAM AND SHOUT. I WANT MY MAN BACK LIKE I HAD HIM LAST NIGHT!"

Everyone's face sparkled at his words,at spending the night with Tae. Their plan had actually worked. All of a sudden,at the realization of Taehyung's disappearance, their expressions changed to confusion and worry.

Yoongi stood up and stepped forward."Have you searched the house,the gardens? He likes to smoke outside,alone." 

"What do you think?I searched the entire villa and the gardens." Jungkook replied, his heart sinking in his chest." I'll ask again. Did you threaten him into leaving me? Did you send him away? Because if you did,I'll never speak to you again as long as I live."

Jimin walked to him,holding his hands but the boy tugged them, clenching his fists." We didn't see him. He didn't come down for breakfast Kook. You have to believe us. Please we'd never do anything to harm you."

" Oh really? You hate him. You pushed me into SeenHe's arms, even though I was screaming of how much I loved Tae. It didn't stop you." His gaze darted on a tall, sneaky figure sitting at the table,his thin lips curved into a satisfied leer. He was apparently enjoying their quarrel.

"Why are you still here?" His wrathful eyes pinned on SeenHe." I thought I told you to get lost and not show your face for breakfast." 

Jungkook snarked,taking quick, menacing gaits towards the man,a grunt slashing through his chattered teeth. He was filled with hatred and rage so brooding,SeemHe pulled back his chair,feeling his wrathful gaze like a bleeding wound on his body,fear and worry flooded him as he got up to face him.

" Jungkook.." he began, saying.

" Why didn't you leave?"

"Please, control yourself and I'll explain." Not that he had a believable explanation to give him. He thought Jungkook would eventually calm down and after talking he'd manage to convince him about his good intentions and get another chance.

" I don't want explanations. I want you gone. Out of this house and out of my life. Is it so hard for you to get it to your thick head?" The fearsome look on his face insisted and his blood boiled by the man's balls to keep pretending and demanding.

Namjoon understood something serious had happened between them. He signalled the rest to huss and as the head of the family, unable to keep quiet, he intervened." Jungkook explain now."

" Your dear boy came to my room last night and tried to forcefully barge in with one thing in mind. To fuck me!" He was done covering for that bastard, letting everyone believe he was a perfect gentleman." I told him to get the hell out of this house but as usual he ignored me."

Namjoon became enraged and on the brick of punching him for his inappropriate behaviour but considering his position,he replied calmly." I accepted you in my house. I gave you permission to date my son despite knowing Kook wasn't ready. I..we have been nothing but good to you and you repay our kindness by trying to assault my son?" He turned to MinJoon." I know it's your house but I won't tolerate this sort of behaviour any longer!"

" This is your house too Nam. Do as you please." MinJoon gave the green light to his friend.

SeenHe gulped at the intimidating figure and the unexpected turn of events." Namjoon let me clear this. Please..I.."

" Not a word! "he interrupted him dourly."I have turned a blind eye to your misconduct for too long but this is where I draw the line." 

" It's just a misunderstanding. I was concerned about Jungkook and wanted to make sure he's alright. I saw him talking to a man and he looked agitated and sad..I would never take advantage of the trust and faith you have shown me."

Yoongi was ready to step up and punch him. Jimin was so pissed he wanted to kill him. Jin was barely holding his rage and as for the rest they were in the exact same situation.

"YOU! IT WAS YOU!" Hyunjin shrieked, pointing his index finger at the man, his eyes spitting fire and mouth trembling from fury." You spoke to my brother. What did you tell him? What lies did you tell my brother?"

MinJoon gazed at his infuriated husband in confusion." What are you talking about? When did he talk to Tae?"

" I saw him following my brother outside. When Taehyung came back I found him at the lounge ready to leave. He was so mad Joon..he kept saying he was a disgrace and now that I have a new brother I can be proud of, he'd go and never come back. He said we fooled him into coming here, laughing behind his back..that Kook was lucky to have a perfect boyfriend like SeenHe..it didn't make any sense at the time but now..come to think about it who else would feed him with so many lies? None of us talked to Taehyung.."

Everyone's eyes were pinned on SeenHe. Adrenaline poured into their sizzling veins and wrapped around their throats. They were all on the verge of attacking him and each of them for their own reason.

" Is this true?" Namjoon asked.

" Did you talk to Taehyung?" It was Jimin's turn to ask,his eyes popping out from anger. At that manipulative bastard and at himself for practically forcing his Kook to date a shit head like him.

" What did you tell him?" Jin inquired, gritting his teeth.

The man held his posture and a straight face. He was accustomed to handling arduous situations like these and the first thing you do is create reasonable doubts and throw the blame to the next suspect. Besides, their allegations were baseless." I didn't go near him. "SeenHe strongly protested and went on."Yoogi was talking to him. Outside on the patio. I saw them, last night." 

"Hyung?" Jungkook glanced at Yoongi, pain and fear nested in his heart.

" Seriously? You've got the balls to accuse me, fucken asshole?" Yoongi vented at SeenHe,wrath brimming through his veins popping out of his neck."Yeah we talked and I told him to get his butt into that venue and claim his man! Who the fuck do you think arranged this party? Me and Jin. It was our plan to bring them together and you came along and fucked it! Jungkook doesn't love you. He won't love you. A no is a no! Not a maybe. Not a perhaps. I'm done with you asshole! I've had it! I can't stand you or your ugly face and fake kindness! So do us all a favour and get the fuck out! If I ever see you around Kook oh help me God I'll kill you! Got it?" He clenched his fists,gnashing his teeth so hard it was painful.

Jungkook marched up to him, snatching his collar, staggering him with his bloodshot anger." My hyung is right. I'll never love you. You know why? Because you're not half the man my Tae is. One look from him and I melt. One word from his lips and I'm on my knees. One kiss and my heart stops.When he touches me I lose control of my body. When he makes love to me I have the world in my hands. Because he is my world..him and only him." He pulled back, abruptly letting him go,hand stretched,pointing at the door." Get.out.of.here.now."

The man hissed. He wouldn't admit his defeat because the concept was unknown to him and failure wasn't part of his vocabulary. He'd let a few weeks pass,behave properly and attack again. He wouldn't under any circumstances lose Jungkook to that man!" I will. But always remember that I love you and I can make you happy."

Jungkook ran his fingers through his messy hair, scratching his skull and snarling at his persistence. His blood boiled, his blood pressure stinging his temples and he snubbed. His fingers formed into a fist,his hand raised and landed on the man's face, punching him with every bit of strength he had, bleeding his mouth and nose,his head tossed to the right."There is more to come if you don't get your ugly face out of here!"

He didn't know whose hands held him back when he was about to launch another one. SeenHe wiped the blood with his palm, hissing at the pain. With his head hanging low,he made his way out of the room and eventually out of the villa.

Kook's shoulders heeded,the weight of his loss was unbearable,his head was spinning and knees buckled. Just before he collapsed on the ground Jimin, who was next to him, grabbed him on time and made him sit on the chair,giving him a glass of water but Jungkook shook his head as no. The note! Taehyung 's letter. His hands were empty." The letter.. Where's my letter?" he cried out,head wriggling left and right,kneeling on the floor scrabbling to find it.

Hyunjin helped him get up and handed him the note that had slipped from Jungkook's hand when he punched that idiot." Here.. I've got it." 

The younger held it tightly between his jittery hands clutching it onto his heart that was an open wound, bleeding nonstop." He left me..he left me..he told me he loved me..he promised to stay with me and he left me again.." his cracked voice a whisper of agony and pain,ripping his heart.

"Why? Why did he leave me? Why? Why?" His cries were a heartfelt sight for his family that tore them apart. Their high expectations and previous joy was turned into a deep sorrow.

Yoongi knelt down,held his hands and fondled his head." Run to him Kook. Go to Vegas. Talk and make him understand that his stupid fears prevent him from being happy. He's scared baby! Scared that his life will get in the way. That his enemies will be a threat for you. For your life together. Don't be harsh on him.He's hurting too."

Jungkook flushed with unbearable grief,nudged him,jumped up and loped to the living room,finding a quiet corner besides the window. The tears venting from his bloated eyes,created tiny ponds on the rumply piece of paper in his hands. The only thing he had from Taehyung.

 Kookie,

I'm sorry for running away, for leaving and breaking the promises I gave you. I'm trying to do the right thing for once in my fucked up life. I can't drag you to the gutter with me.

I love you too damn much to ruin and put your life at risk just because I'm too selfish to let you go. I'm gonna keep you in my heart,secure and locked where no one can harm you..not even me.

Live your life as a free man,enjoy each moment..do the things you dreamt off without fear..find a man that can give you the love you deserve and hold on to him..never look back. Never think about me..

Just live..

 I love you and always will.

 Your Tae.

Every word written on that wrinkled paper was a stab in his heart. Why couldn't he stay? Why did he have to break his promises and leave him alone and heartbroken after confessing? Why give him hope only to take it back in the cruelest way?They would find a way to deal and overcome the obstacles in time.. together. Jungkook was determined to do whatever he could to build a life with him and create a happy family.

At the moment it seemed impossible to continue living without him. He was hurt, angry, frustrated and betrayed and wanted to sob,shout and break things to get it off his aching chest.

His family had followed him to the living room,standing across the room,helpless and with a sad expression on their faces. They flinched when unexpectedly Jungkook began screaming and cursing. The note on his hand was tossed away as he was pacing back and forth, blowing fuses in every direction.

" I'm gonna fucken kill him! I'm gonna find him cut off his balls,rip out his heart and..and break every fucken bone in his body! He makes me so mad!" He growled,moving his fists and punching the air."Who the hell asked him to make my decisions for me? I'm a big boy! I can handle danger! Kim fucken Taehyung..wait till I get my hands on you!" 

As his rumbling continued,his feet started kicking the couch and the armchair,going ballistic! The smothered rage and menace he had hidden in his heart were gushing out and everyone seemed reluctant to step in. They had never seen him so enraged.

Minutes later he calmed down and stopped pacing. He took in deep breaths and stood by the open window, hands crossed on his panting chest, loitering out to the bright, morning sky.

" I don't need you in my life. I was fine before you came along and messed it up.. I'll be fine now that you're gone. I can live without seeing your stupid face and I'm gonna get myself a man! A real man who will love me,want me,give me the world and stick around not leave like a fucken coward! You'll see how happy I can be Kim V! Just watch me!" he scoffed, wiggling his eyebrows,stomping his foot on the shiny marble and scrunching his lips from anger.

Namjoon scrooched down and whispered in Jin's ear." What is he doing exactly?"

" I think he's going through the stages of a breakup fast forward." he lisped back.

" Never seen that before."

" What can I say?Our Kook is unique!"

" So what's next?"

" Haven't got a clue..but I guess we'll see." 

Jimin chimed in." Shouldn't we stop him? He's gonna hurt himself."

"Nope.. Not a good idea." Jin replied."I wouldn't stop him if I were you."

Yoongi smirked, shaking his head." Kook knows what he wants to do. He needs to decide how and when."

"What are you all looking at? Don't you have anything better to do? Show is over!" Kook interrupted them, scoffing." You got what you wanted, didn't you? You managed to get rid of him once and for all. Congratulations! "

Namjoon glanced at the others who looked unwilling to answer out of fear of provoking him and he approached his son but kept a safe distance." Kook nobody sent him away. It was his choice to leave and he did it for you. To spare you the pain of entering an unknown life to you, full of danger and violence. His world is cruel and his enemies.."

" Oh please dad!" Kook cut him off a bit combative,eyes filled with a mixture of agony and wrath." You're getting a kick out of this! Watching me suffer for a lost love with a man you didn't approve of. Because the son of the Chief of Police can't be with a criminal! It would ruin your career, minimize your chances of becoming a Minister! You forced him into leaving me! I hope you're happy now but I'll never,ever accept your protégé."

" You're being unfair to your dad Kook."Jin reprimanded his son."This has nothing to do with us. Taehyung's decision to go is entirely his. He's afraid of losing you. Of harming you. This is how much he loves you."

" He's trying to protect you Kook." Namjoon added but his son was too hurt to realise it.

" I'm the son of a cop. I've been hiding all my life,being careful not to expose myself to your enemies and put me in danger. I'm forced to hide my identity out of fear that somebody might come after me. People know you've got sons but they don't know who we are. We avoided public appearances,went to private schools to be safe,hell I couldn't even tell my friends at school who I was! I grew up afraid to say my name in case it was associated with you. I didn't have a choice. You made it for me,for us. And I had one chance to live my life the way I wanted to and I'm stripped of it. Again! I want to be with Taehyung and I don't give a shit who he is or what he's done!"

" Baby I understand you had a hard time growing up,having a cop as a father but I did my best to protect both of you because I couldn't lose you. Taehyung leads a dangerous life and is fully aware of the risks of having a family. He kept his brother hidden for the same reason I did.His past.."

"WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT HIS PAST OTHER THAN WHAT YOUR INFORMERS TOLD YOU? DO YOU KNOW WHAT HE WENT THROUGH AS A CHILD? WHAT HE DID TO HIM? THE HORRIBLE THINGS HE MADE HIM DO? HE TURNED HIM INTO A KILLER AND TOOK AWAY HIS CHILDHOOD." he lashed out,fuming in rage,his body was trembling,his eyes were bulging from their sockets and his breath was clogged.

His parents stared at each other confused and worried. Jimin and Yoongi were as astounded as the Kims. On the other hand, MinJoon kept quiet, his gaze pinned on his husband's terrified face. He knew. Bits and parts but Hyunjin had shared fragments of his dreadful past. Apparently he didn't know half of it and so did the younger one.

Hyunjin's feet were shaking uncontrollably when he made his way to Jungkook." What did.. uncle do to my brother? Please tell me. I need to know.."

Jungkook cursed for his stupidity. He had said too much already and he regretted it. He had lost his patience and he had to come up with a way to correct his mistake." Nothing..I was talking nonsense,hyung."

" Kook please, you have to tell me. I'm tired of not knowing..of being in the dark." He cupped his hands and looked straight into his eyes."Please, I need to know..what he went through..please." he begged him.

A deep sigh evaded his mouth and a grudge crashed his chest. Perhaps he should know what his brother did for him. Maybe it would make him understand Taehyung better and be less judgemental of his life and choices." That day when he came home and found you..you know..he made a deal with your uncle. He traded himself for you. His.. body.. for yours..he had to protect you, hyung. To keep you safe from him. You were a baby.. his only family and he'd do anything for you."

Hyunjin's knees felt weak,his eyes blurry,filled with tears,his mind trying to process the devastating truth coming from Kook's lips. Deep down he always knew but chose to ignore it,hiding it in the back part of his mind because it suited him. Made his life less painful. Made his ordeal more bearable.

His brother's words flooded him.

 ' I traded myself for you..' 

He couldn't understand it last night but it made sense now. Kook was so right. They were all judgemental, criticizing his life, pointing out his crimes and mistakes,being indifferent to what made him a killer and he felt ashamed. He had turned his own brother into a criminal.

His head was spinning,his legs were shaking,his breath refused to come out,his mouth dry and he'd collapsed on the floor if Kook wasn't fast enough to catch him and place him on the couch.

Jimin ran to fetch water and MinJoon hugged his husband tightly but didn't utter a word. What difference would it make? It couldn't take away his pain and guilt. They were all guilty for treating Taehyung as an outcast. His every action was a cry for help and they shut their ears to his helplessness because it would disturb their peaceful lives. They were the real criminals, not him.

" Hyung are you alright?" Kook asked, concern coating his voice.

The man nodded,taking a few sips of water."Keep going..I want to hear what that bastard did to my brother."he insisted.

" No..I shouldn't have said anything.."

" Please. I'm begging you..tell me." His voice broke down along with Jungkook's heart. So he told them everything. Taehyung's mental and physical abuse,them running away,living on the streets, begging for money,stealing for food,meeting Haruto and all that followed.

There was a deadly silence amongst them,only the loud beating of their raving hearts could be heard.A spine-chilling,pricking pain smashing their chests. Impossible to grasp how a man who was supposed to protect two children,became their tormentor, their worst nightmare,turning their life into a living hell for his twisted tastes.

It's funny how society judges and disregards people like Taehyung, people they molded, rejected and turned into criminals,making them exiled, castaways. The horrible past whelmed their hearts with baleful rage,pity for the poor boy that had to endure such an ordeal alone with no apparent escape,with affection and compassion for the life he never lived. The childhood that was stolen from him and the dreams he had to abandon to survive.

Hyunjin was so ashamed for treating his own brother as a cold-blooded killer, thinking the worst of him and kept his teary eyes on the floor,fidgeting and occasionally munching on his lips that had turned crimson red and were chipped off from the biting. 

" I'm so sorry,hyung for having to learn this from me. I doubt Tae would tell you. He'd do anything for you, even at the expense of his own good. Remember that none of this was your fault. I would have done the same if I were him." Jungkook's sweet words weren't enough to give him solace or take away the pain nested in his heart.

" He loves you deeply and although sometimes he can be obnoxious to the point you want to strangle him,he was strong,he fought for you and your future,giving you everything he couldn't have. That's what he's doing all his life. Protecting the people he loves but nobody protects him."

 His fingers gently brushed over the jittery, slightly cold hand and his bunny smile was so incredibly heartwarming." I understand why he behaved like that to me. He doesn't know how to love because nobody showed him..they all wanted a part of him,your uncle,his mentor, his women, even his enemies but gave nothing in return except pain so he thought that's how love was."

Hyunjin sniffled,his chest going up and down,wiping his runny nose with his hand." I was horrible to him, Kook. Accusing him for living as a criminal,judging him, being a spoilt brat while he was nothing but nice to me. Sending me to the best schools,making sure I was safe,living carefree as a teenager should. He was hurting and I..I.." He buried his face in his palms,weeping as Jungkook wrapped his arms around his twitching body." I didn't care..I was asking for more..more..more.. demanding.. I'm responsible for the ordeal he went through.."

" Stop blaming yourself,hyung. It's that bastard's fault. He left him no choice and did his best to survive. Haruto saved him but also destroyed him by making him part of his dark world and showing him how to have control. Tae needed to be on top of things,to control every aspect of his life, professionally and..personally and lost himself in the process." A bitter chuckle slipped his lips." Your uncle paid for his crimes.."

" And Taehyung is still paying a heavy price for somebody else's crimes." Hyunjin sadly concluded, wrinkling his lips while a deep sigh left his mouth.

"Hyuinjin, I knew from the moment I saw him that he was a good man. His eyes hid so much pain but also kindness. There was no wickedness. Just a boy crying for love.." Jin remarked,hiding his face into his husband's crook." The things we take for granted. The food on our table,the roof over our heads,the joy from a simple kiss and a hug from our loved ones. Going to school and fulfilling our dreams..my heart aches for him." He gulped down the tears threatening to become an ocean and got up, adjusting his clothes.

" We're flying to Vegas. Now. Go pack your things ." His firm and indisputable announcement met everyone's astonishment."Why are you staring?I refuse to let that boy drown in misery and guilt. Not If I can prevent it. We have to show him love and acceptance because he's worth it. He's part of the family and we take care of our family. Isn't that what you always say Nam?"

Jin was right. He was the voice of reason despite his sassy personality and the occasional exaggerations. Family is above all. And his son's happiness depended on them."Everyone pack your bags. We're going to Vegas."

" I'm not coming." Jungkook casually announced,still holding Hyunjin's hand.

" Why the devil not?" Jin asked, puzzled, goggling his chestnut eyes.

" I won't make it easy for him. He left me. I was gonna live without him and go through hell. I'm gonna let him stew,nice and slow. Give him a taste of his own medicine. He wants me to find another man? Get married? Huh! I'll make his wish come true!Hyung.." he turned to Hyunjin who was still in shock."I know you're not gonna like this but in a month I need you to send him a message telling him I'm getting married." 

" WHAAAAAAT?" they all bellowed out,their mouths hanging open.

" Why would you lie? Are you crazy?" Yoongi asked, not believing what he was hearing." We've gone to much trouble to get the two of you together."

" Kook baby, please be reasonable." Jin advised him strictly." This is no time for silly games. You want him back, don't you?"

" Kook I get you're upset but lying is the worst way to solve this." Namjoon pointed out.

" Don't do anything stupid Kook.You'll regret it." Jimin added,agitated with his stubbornness. That boy was too reckless for his own good. " Don't ruin everything now. You want him, don't you? Why come up with such a lie?"

Jungkook sneered, knitting his brows and scrunching his rosy lips,a stray of hair entangled and twisted between his thin fingers.

" Because it's the truth. I am getting married!"