Widening my eyes as i heard the pain, sad-ness, longing, and pleading in hear voice to reconnect with me like how Beatrice had...
I...shift my gaze back to her only for our gazes to have met each other showing the raw and passionate emotions that were in her eyes.
As i saw fear, hope, belief, care, as with the flicker of fear of rejection i felt my heartache at the display of all the emotions and feelings Gigi was displaying.
Looking away as i clench my chest to have looked in the direction of my...my...family in the front row as Valarie was with them with her arms crossed. Looking at me with stern ness in her eyes as i glanced sideways to see mama and the other's also staring at me with them sending different messages to me.
While mama was just smiling at me causing me to look at the mat as i bit my lower lip 'i... am...i...truly...truly...able too embrace who... i...was...back then...can i...really believe in my...myself...like...i...did...'