20 ATTRACTED TO HIM

Minutes later, I walk into his office without knocking, pretending everything is fine.

"Get out. Get out and knock," he says, looking amused, his expression not matching his words.

"Okay! I'm going, and I'm not coming back."

"You__ stop right there. Don't you dare leave this office," he says, standing up.

"Gotcha! Ha! Relax, man, I'm not going anywhere."

"You went to a party?"

"No, I was just out with some friends."

"Aren't I your friend too? You leave me here and go to…"

"Still being a crybaby? There was something I wanted to talk to them about, but I'm here now, aren't I? Do you have a lot of work? I can help."

"No, I just want to talk. Work's not that important right now." He says, pulling me toward the couch. Being around him has suddenly become overwhelming, and it makes me feel sick with nerves.

"What do you want to talk about?" I ask, dreading what's coming. I'm ready to run if this turns into what I've been discussing with Carl and Ryan.

Something about him is different—his demeanor, the way he looks. I can tell he's somehow overwhelmed, or maybe something is bothering him.

"I want to know why you've been avoiding me these past few days. Do I make you feel uncomfortable in any way?" I'm afraid he can hear my heart pounding.

"What? No," I chuckle nervously. "Not at all, I… I…" I stutter because I know I don't have a good excuse.

He's staring at me, and I can see on his face how badly he wants to hear my reason. But apparently, I don't have one.

We're only meters apart, and his eyes have completely refused to leave my face. I literally see his gaze drift to my lips, then back to my eyes. He's looking at me—really looking—as if he's seeing past every layer. I can't even bring myself to look away.

I don't know what happens in that moment, but something takes over—a pull I can't resist. Before I even realize what I'm doing, I lean forward, my lips finding his as if it's the most natural thing in the world.

It's soft at first, almost hesitant, but then he pulls me closer, and suddenly there's nothing soft about it.

His hands are on me, firm, gripping my waist, pulling me against him. I can feel his heart pounding against mine, each beat thundering through me.

Everything blurs, my senses flooded. His lips, rough yet tender, the taste of him, the heat that builds between us. I don't know where he begins and I end; all I know is I'm losing myself in him, in this kiss.

His hand slides up my back, fingers tangling in my hair, and it's like a spark setting me alight. I can feel the world narrowing down to just us, to this one wild, unrestrained moment.

I don't think; I don't breathe. I just feel—every inch of me alive, awake, and desperate for more.

It's consuming, all-encompassing, a kiss that doesn't care about tomorrow. There's nothing careful or restrained left between us. Just need, pure and fierce, building with each second, taking us to a place where nothing else exists.

Everything seems fast and chaotic, but I have no brain to save for that thought now.

I find myself making him lie on the couch and am right on top of him.

I don't know what am doing , or maybe I know , yeah I know am moving up and down on top of him.

The kiss still hot as never before.

There's this certain of our bodies when the rub together it just literally drive me crazy , which is making me even move faster on top of him.

Our bodies trembles against each other , still fully dressed. The movement ceases and before I completely come back to my senses , I realize that I just shot out.

His eyes are still closes and when they open gradually, they land right in mine. I stand up immediately , my legs are really weak and my pants feel uncomfortably sticky.

When I look at him sitting up , my brain starts screaming at me . 'What have I done ? I've crossed it , I've crossed that line!'

I've never felt like a pervert like I do now! He just wanted to talk, and I turned a talk into a sexual act.

I almost hate myself for that , especially when I think of What he is gonna think of me! He already knows that I sleep around and now I just did this to him!

" Uh.. I.. should probably go , I.. we have family dinner and I don't wanna be late." I lie.

" Okay" that's all he answers.

As I stand at the door probably wondering if I should say anything or just f*ck off, I notice a wet spot on his trousers, near the zipper of his trousers , I look narrowing my eyes shamelessly, as if trying to confirm something.

He realise what am looking at and as if embarrassed he takes his coat from the floor and covers the dent .

My level of embarrassment just shot to 101 percent, why am I even still doing here ? Just fuck off already! My brain screams at me again.

I walk out .

I wish I came with a skateboard instead of a car , driving in this condition doesn't feel right but neither does skating.

My mind can't stop asking me questions that I honestly have no answers about.

Like _ how did I end up doing that act? I started it , even though I've never been with a guy , I've never imagined touching a guy in a sexual way , even after Adam started behaving like he has been , I still never did.

It's like my body was acting on it's own, I just went wild , my emotions and body acted without consulting my brain.

How is he gonna take it ? How is he gonna take me? That's my biggest fear , thank G*d It's a friday and I won't have to go to work tomorrow.

Who knows, he might even throw me out of that company, I should probably never go back there at all.

He probably thinks am a complete pervert, of which I could be..