What is happiness?
When I lost my parents in a car accident as a child, I thought I had lost it.
I can still see it clearly.
The crowded funeral home.
The mourners looking at us and murmuring their pity.
My little brother, Miyuki, crying because the sky was falling.
With these scenes etched in my mind, I vowed to myself.
-I will never let go of happiness.
That determination is still the same today.
But the circumstances surrounding me have changed.
Miyuki likes me as the opposite sex.
Kaori wants to give herself to me.
I'm confused.
What I've come to realize is that for me, happiness is tranquility.
It's not like some kind of pleasure.
It's just a life where I cherish and rejoice in the little things, and that's the life I want.
"But...."
I lie still on my bed and stare at the ceiling, seeing nothing.
The girls around me, beautiful girls who are too immature to be called girls, dream of a happiness different from mine.
Who am I to say that it is wrong?
Do I have the right to say no to that categorically?
I don't know.
The gap between my happiness and theirs is very wide.
Maybe it's very arrogant of me to hope that things will get better with time.
I quietly closed my eyes and stopped thinking.
That's it.
No more moping, I said.
******
Morning.
I wake up early and prepare breakfast and bento.
My sister Miyuki stretches in her pajamas, exposing her collarbone.
"Hmph~ Did you sleep well, big brother?"
"Yeah."
"Well. I'll help you in the morning. I'm sorry~"
"...."
Miyuki hugs my back as if she's trying to feel my body temperature before helping me.
"Big brother♥"
"...."
I stop my hands from cooking and push Miyuki away.
Miyuki's eyes narrowed.
"Huh?"
"Miyuki, you can't do this anymore."
"...Why?"
"Why?"
I looked at Miyuki with a serious expression.
"This is incest. It's not normal, no matter how you look at it. I can't allow it anymore."
"...Big brother?"
"The meal is ready, so hurry up and eat. Your lunch box will be ready soon."
"...?"
Miyuki shook her head in confusion and kept trying to hug me.
I kept pushing her away.
Miyuki's face turned sour.
"...What's wrong, big brother? Why are you being so mean?"
"I'm just trying to normalize our relationship."
"Don't be silly, don't push me away. Big brother...."
Tears welled up in Miyuki's eyes.
I said with a firm resolve in my heart.
"No, no. Don't be silly anymore. Now Miyuki will slowly think about independence..."
The cold words came out of my mouth.
"It's that bitch."
"What?"
"That bitch you saved has managed to seduce you, you fox...!"
"It's not like that!"
"If it's not like that, then it doesn't explain why you suddenly changed your attitude, and why you keep pushing me away!"
"Miyuki, let's find our common happiness. Okay?"
"...."
Miyuki said, glaring at me.
"I'm going to find out who that bitch is."
"It's not like that!"
"That's the only explanation. I'm going to find the bitch who possessed my brother and make her give up."
"It's Miyuki!"
A bang!
Miyuki bursts into the room.
"...."
My breakfast is wasted.
I can't taste the food either.
My heart aches, but I've been putting off saying what I know I'll have to say someday for fear of hurting her feelings and taking away her happiness.
And now I'm paying the price.
*****
The mood is frightening.
Not just me, but all the students in my class and the teachers coming in.
Miyuki, who was always smiling, was chilling the atmosphere with her ice-cold silence.
It's not like she's in a bad mood or anything.
The math teacher couldn't take it anymore and asked with an awkward smile.
"Miyuki...? Is something wrong? Do you need a teacher to talk to?"
"...."
Miyuki didn't answer.
It wasn't that she was deliberately ignoring him or letting it go out of her ears, but she just wasn't paying attention.
I'd never seen my friend Miyuki, an honor roll student and perfect friend, do this before.
I did have one prediction, though.
'Something happened with your brother....'
It was lunchtime and I dragged Miyuki by the arm up to the roof.
Miyuki was still silent, dragging me along like a doll.
We sat down on a bench, feeling energized by the bright spring breeze, but Miyuki's mood was still at odds with it.
I asked her.
"Miyuki, what's wrong? Why are you so down?"
"...."
Miyuki shook her head helplessly.
Then she said
"I told my brother...."
"Huh?"
"I got a girlfriend."
"What?!"
I asked in surprise.
"Who is she?!"
"I don't know. But I'm pretty sure she's a student here."
"Really?"
"...Yeah."
Miyuki bit her lip as if her mood hadn't been relieved.
"If I meet him, I'll rip his head off."
"What?"
"I'll strangle her, I'll make her pay for taking away my only family, how can you do that, how can you abandon me and choose that woman when I'm here, when I love you, black black black."
Miyuki's eyes filled with tears and she began to cry.
The people around her stare at her.
I looked at them and wrapped my arms around Miyuki, comforting her.
"I know I didn't meet your brother, but I wouldn't let that happen. He cared about Miyuki that much, didn't he?"
"Is that true?"
"Yes, it is, Miyuki, cheer up. I don't know what you heard that made you so sure... but let's regain our cool and think about it. I mean, does your brother really have a girlfriend?"
"...."
Miyuki nodded, still.
A purr.
It's a sound from Miyuki's stomach.
I smirked and took out my lunchbox to share with Miyuki.
She's so cute and pretty.
"By the way, what does Miyuki's brother look like?
I wondered.