Chapter 76: Guilt

The wolf I adored tugged me back to the room, as I couldn't argue with him after everything I had put him through. We made a quick pit stop in the bathroom before getting back. However, Caden and Aiden followed us the whole way there.

They didn't allow Alijah to accompany me into the bathroom. However, the moment we got back to my room, that changed when he put me down on the bed before he turned to them, smirking.

"We need a moment for ourselves." He suddenly announced.

My brothers both appeared to have their eyes wide open and jaws dropping. In their minds, they would stay over another night or forever.

"What?" Aiden and Caden mumbled as they stood by the door, cocking their heads in unison.

Alijah sighed. "You two can be cute at times, but you two pups should be get going now."

Before they could say anything back, he grabbed both my brothers, Caden by the ear and Aiden by the tail, before dragging them out of the room. A second later, he threw them out like a couple of rags.

"Now… tell Fenris, Lily, and that viper of a sister of yours to give Rem and me until tonight. There's a lot we need to discuss away from prying eyes." Alijah smirked, closing the door on them and locking it soon after.

Placing his hand on the sigil, he turned it, making the room soundproof before turning back toward me. My heart felt like it would pop out of my chest. I stared at him, unsure of what was happening.

"Your brothers are a handful." He shrugged as I slowly nodded.

It was a miracle that they didn't barge through the door, breaking it.

You must've earned their respect while I was away. I mean, Caden even seems fond of you as well.

"Huh? Yeah… they can," I mumbled in awe.

The surrounding air differed from what I had last seen him in. We had only been a month away, but he had found his way without me. Instantly, I glanced down at the ground. It was hard to face him alone since I no longer knew what to say.

Alijah remedied it by grabbing me by my chin and pulling me up to face him.

Ah… Damn that short hair really does look good on you. Even your bangs are tempting to touch. Hey… Alijah… What can I say after everything I've done?

"Oi, don't you dare run away from me," he growled as I struggled to appease him with that.

No… Rem… Own up to everything you did. It's okay. It'll be okay. If he's here, it means he loves you somehow. Whatever he wants to do, you deserve it.

I also hoped he wouldn't be gentle, but the way he held me. It felt like he had something precious in his hands.

"I won't run." I voiced as he smirked, eyes shimmering.

In response, he pushed me onto the bed, towering over me. For a moment, I could feel my cheeks go pink when he placed his thumb on my lip—slowly leaning over to my ear, too.

"What's on your mind?" Alijah murmured, sending shivers down my spine when his breath brushed against my skin.

I grabbed onto his white blouse, realizing he was teasing me.

"A lot…" I mumbled, closing my eyes.

Everything still feels surreal.

"And that is?" Alijah asked, releasing my chin, and his hand traveled down my curves.

"Did you really drink, Iris?" I followed up.

He instinctively sighed, shaking his head. "I did."

I grabbed his cheeks, unable to believe he would do something stupid. It was reckless beyond measure, and the dark circles around his eyes revealed more than he realized.

For such a calculating wolf, you… couldn't have been that rash.

"Why would you do that?" I felt off and lost.

Why… would you ever try to save me by placing your own life in danger? Who would have benefited if you died because of me? Ah... that reminds me of what you said that night… Is this how you felt? I'm… such a fool.

"Stupid girl, for you, I would give the world," Alijah assured, suddenly crashing his lips against mine.

He didn't give me a chance to speak back, slipping his tongue into my mouth and caressing mine lovingly. In turn, it gave me a warmth that slowly built within me. A mewl left me soon after as he lifted my gown to expose my breasts, fondling them tenderly.

I noticed something off in his right hand when his skin met mine. Instinctively, I tugged away from the kiss, grabbing onto his limb where I saw a scar that wasn't there before.

When did…?

"Hey, concentrate on me instead of those useless thoughts." Alijah licked my lip, pinning the hand that held his injured one on the bed.

His other hand traveled down my navel and into my underwear as his sudden touch made me shiver. However, I winced in discomfort when he tried to stick his fingers into me. Upon noticing my reaction, he instantly stopped, leaving me longing for more.

It didn't matter if there was pain or not for me, especially after all I had done to him. However, the discomfort wasn't painful; it was just a weird sensation.

"Fuck, right… It's been a while. Sorry, I was too hasty, but can you blame me? I'm parched here." Alijah huffed, tugging away from there before pulling down my underwear to expose me.

My heart thumped loudly within my chest, leaving it feeling like it was about to blow.

You're being gentle. Why—

Before I could even finish that thought, he suddenly yanked me to the edge of the bed, prompting me to yelp in surprise. Instinctively, I sat up to see what he was doing when he kneeled on the floor.

"A-Alijah?" I fumbled to say.

He chuckled at my reaction before licking his fingers. A moment later, he spread my legs apart, leaving me feeling exposed in every sense of the word.

"Oh… I don't know, love." He smirked playfully, tracing his digits on my vulva.

It wasn't long before he stuck one of the moist fingers into me, triggering a soft whine to leave my lips. Suddenly, gazing at him was even more challenging, as my cheeks felt like they would fall off.

"Wait, this is embarrassing," I mumbled, feeling too hot to bear it.

This wolf was too close for comfort—something he had never done. I mean, he had seen every part of me, but never from that near, and wasn't about to back off, either. His tail slightly wagged, and his ears focused on anything I said.

"Does it feel better?" Alijah asked, thrusting his finger into me.

It felt weird but pleasant, especially in all the places he touched. He knew every part of me from our time together as lovers. His question left me feeling more skittish than I was before.

"D-don't ask me that," I mumbled, feeling knots in my throat.

A chuckle left my wolf's lips, not stopping his movements. However, his earlier words haunted me enough to speak.

"H-How long has it b-been?" I whispered, trying to keep my voice under control, yet gazed away and onto the bed frame.

Ah… It's been a while since I've felt like this. Not even my dreams can compare.

"Your brothers didn't tell you?" Alijah sighed, pulling his digit away from my depths

The sudden emptiness caused me to tremble, while everything felt warm and tingly.

"No," I answered.

Alijah placed both his hands on my thighs. Again, I could feel the deformity in his hand, leaving me wanting to ask how he got it, but he would have dodged it again.

Probably…

Instinctively, I gazed back at him, meeting his crimson, shimmering eyes.

"It has been a month with almost three weeks since I last touched you, Rem. That's unforgivable, really." Alijah informed me as his brows slanted downward.

I clenched onto my gown while my eyes met with the bed again.

Ah… Has it really been an entire month? Almost two? How much did I miss?

Even though I wanted to know more, he wouldn't let me when I felt something hot and wet touch my vulva. It was the first time I had ever felt anything like that, dragging my glance down to see him lick his lips.

Eh…? What are you…