Throwing the drugs

Aron POV

"I love you, Sara." I looked into her eyes and confessed my love for her. She looked at me in shock, not expecting me to express my feelings in such a simple way.

I hadn't done anything to fulfill her fantasy of a prince charming kneeling before her with a ring. After talking with Jerry, I realized that Sara is very precious to me, and I can't afford to lose her in any case.

I was staring out the window, my mind replaying the scene in which that bastard attempted to kiss her in the pool. It would be my fault if that man's wicked plans came to fruition.

As I replayed the incident, I realized my error. If I acknowledge her as my wife to everyone, then nobody will be able to disparage her—not even my father—for asking her to cover the costs of his suit.

I had no desire to be in a committed relationship. I don't think marriage is a beneficial idea because of my horrible upbringing. However, emotional stability, family, and marriage mean a lot to Sara. And to win her heart, I need to change the way I think.

When she entered my room, I wanted to vent my anger at her, but the sight of her shattered me into tears. I was overcome by my emotions. I was at a loss for words, but as soon as I felt her warmth, my sentiments spilled out of my eyes.

Why did I have such a difficult life? I don't need to deal with these kinds of issues in my relationship if I lead a typical life like other men. Then I'll have no trouble falling in love with a woman and leading a blissful life; however, I've become so emotionally distant due to my upbringing that I can't put into words how I feel.

I buried my face in the crook of her neck, closed my eyes, and sobbed until I was almost dry. My mind played my life journey like a film in front of my eyes. I'm unsure how she consistently managed to deal with my emotional turmoil. She easily handled my every mood.

"I am unable to accept your love, Aron." She lowered her head and stared at the floor.

Why didn't she accept me? Am I really that horrible? Or did she love someone else?

No, she can not love anyone. She is mine. If I see her with any other man, I will kill him immediately. The idea that she was in love with someone else made my body tremble with rage.

"What's stopping you from loving me?" I wanted to know the reason for her refusal.

"No matter what type of bond you share with Jerry, I can not cheat her." She still does not believe that there is anything between me and me. I wanted to tell her the whole story of Jerry, but I already promised Jerry that I wouldn't reveal this secret to Sara, so I had to remain silent now.

"Don't hold yourself, Sara. He is just in love with you. Our bond wasn't as strong as you initially believed." Jerry entered the room just as the door opened, allowing her to hear every word.

"But you both love each other?" She gave us a perplexed expression.

Oh my god, how could I convince you I wasn't in love with her? I raked my fingers through my hair in frustration. I always assumed Sara was a wise and perceptive person, so I was surprised to learn how stupid she was when it came to romantic relationships.

"But I witnessed numerous instances of you two having sex." Despite my confession, she appears to remain unconvinced.

"I'm sorry, Sara, that you've had to endure this pain as a result of my inability to control my lust, which led me to force Aron into sexual activities with me. Rest assured, I've realized my mistake and promise to never repeat it." Jerry kneeled before Sara, pleading for her pardon.

"Jerry, please don't cry." She wiped off Jerry's tears.

"Aron, I need some time to think; my mind has become confused. Excuse me." She left the room without confessing her feelings to me.

"Jerry, I don't think she loves me." I gazed sadly down the corridor as Sara made her way towards her room.

"Don't be sad; I am sure she loves you. She simply finds it difficult to accept reality as it is. It will take some time for her to accept your love." Jerry gave me a comforting pat on the shoulder.

"How could you be so certain of her emotions?" I glanced at her.

"Don't you see it in her eyes? She feels the same way about you as you do about her."

"What's in her eyes? I never saw any indication in her eyes that she loved me."

"Leave it; you will not understand a woman's love language since you are new to experiencing this feeling. However, I'm glad that you've found someone who truly loves you." Jerry expressed her happiness over my love confession to Sara.

I sat on the couch and closed my eyes to understand my state of mind. I never imagined that one occurrence would turn my life completely upside down. Unknowingly, my dad did a superb job of making her feel ashamed, which gave me the confidence to tell Sara how I felt about her. God truly helped me today by changing Jerry from a devil to an angel.

If Jerry hadn't supported me today, I would never have had the guts to tell Sara the truth about how I felt. I wanted to start my life with a fresh page; if Sara accepted my love proposal, then my life would come on track. But what will I do if she turns down my love offer?

I am eagerly waiting for her to confess her feelings to me. I noticed that when I glanced at the watch every five minutes, the hands seemed to have stopped ticking. To divert my mind, I decided to clean my room. I opened my bedside drawers and took out the injections and pills that ruined my life previously.

To ensure that I never use injections or medicines again, I disposed of them in the trash can. I immediately felt relaxed as I got rid of those injections and drugs. I cleaned my room, had a bath, and then headed to the dining hall for dinner, hoping to get Sara's answer there.