Chapter 264 Dao Heart

Qingzhu left on her own.

I hesitated a little, listening to her words, as if I had better not know.

However, I finally gritted my teeth and followed her. Some things must have an answer.

Lao Bai and the others were tactful and did not follow.

Qingzhu was in front, and I was behind. We were silent all the way. I kept looking down at the wine gourd hanging around her waist. With her steps, the wine gourd was swaying, just like my mood, unspeakable anxiety.

Unconsciously, we came to the forest where we first met.

Qingzhu finally stopped and sat on a tree stump with her back to me. Then she took off the veil on her face. From my angle, I could see a nearly perfect profile face, without any flaws. Under the slanting sunlight, her skin actually had a luster that was almost like jade.

No matter how you look at it, this is a stunning woman. I don't know why she always covers her face. It seems that she only takes off her veil occasionally when she is alone with me. It's very strange.

At this time, I don't know what she is thinking. She stares at the sun, lost in thought, and takes the wine gourd from her waist and drinks from time to time.

She drinks, not like ordinary women who sip wine, but more heroic than men. Every time she drinks a big mouthful, the green wine slides down her jade neck, and her hair flutters in the wind. So I can't help thinking in my heart - well, this is a chic woman, and she is strong in her bones.

A faint sigh sounded.

Qingzhu reluctantly withdrew his gaze from the sky, and after hesitating for a long time, he handed the wine gourd to me.

Yes, I saw hesitation in her. This was the first time. She never hesitated when she gave me wine before. Today was really abnormal, just like the indifference and contempt she gave me. It was very wrong.

My intuition told me that I didn't know what I did, and my impression in her mind plummeted.

In the eyes of such a free and easy person like her, giving me wine was a sign of respect for me, and hesitation... was a sign of hesitation.

I came to her side and found a tree stump to sit down, but I felt that the tree stump was a bit short. After I sat down, I was half a head shorter than her, so I stood up again and chose a taller tree stump to sit down, which made me feel much more comfortable.

I don't know why she looked at me with such contempt today, but it doesn't matter. Others can look down on me, but I can't look down on myself. I don't think I am bad at anything.

Then, I took her wine gourd and gulped down a few mouthfuls.

The clear and slightly sweet bamboo leaf green entered my mouth, and after entering my stomach, it burned like a raging fire.

I wiped the corners of my mouth, turned around and returned the wine gourd to her, only to find that she smiled without knowing when, with curved eyebrows and eyes.

"This wine suits you."

I finally spoke to break the silence between us: "It tastes sweet when you drink it, but it is actually very strong and intoxicating. It makes people drunk for no reason, and the aftereffect is strong. It keeps vomiting, which is very annoying!"

Qingzhu's smile froze, and he turned his head and looked at me with slightly narrowed eyes: "You are scolding me."

I said, let's talk about the matter, just a simple discussion of wine, how can it involve personal attacks?

Qingzhu stared at me without blinking, and said the same thing - you are scolding me.

"I just said that the wine has a strong aftereffect. It's just a characteristic of wine, characteristic, understand? No praise or criticism! Is a strong aftereffect necessarily a bad thing? Different people have different tastes!"

"You are scolding me."

"..."

No matter how much I said, Qingzhu is always four words. After explaining for a long time, I simply stopped explaining. This woman is really stubborn when she gets stubborn. Explanations are useless. So I spread my hands and said, "Yes, I am scolding you. What's the matter? We are good friends, and you have done me a great favor, but you can't be so rude to me just because you don't agree with me, right? Let's put it one way or the other. In the past, the emperor had to have a crime to kill a minister. Why are you so inexplicably slapping me in the face? At least let me know where I have offended you, right?"

Qingzhu stood up suddenly, and I was so scared that my legs trembled and I rolled down from the tree stump. Seeing her eyebrows raised and her murderous look, I immediately calmed down and said, "Hey, we are just discussing emotional issues, not physical ones. Think about it. The cost of hitting someone is high now. If you punch me, I won't get up today unless I have 100,000 or 200,000 yuan."

Qingzhu's mouth twitched, and the coldness on her face disappeared. She probably felt that this was really embarrassing. She immediately glared at me and sat down again, with her back to me, and her shoulders kept shaking.

I was too lazy to get up, so I sat cross-legged on the ground and said helplessly, "Laugh if you want to. I admit that I was scared. I thought you really wanted to beat me. I thought you looked slender and attractive, but if your arms shook, I was afraid that thousands of pounds of force would not be able to stop it. If your fist fell, I was afraid that you would really hammer me to death..."

Puff!

Qingzhu finally couldn't hold it back any longer. At first, she was laughing in a reserved and subtle way, with her head slightly lowered and her slender hands covering her mouth. I couldn't see her face, but I could see that her ears were red. In the end, she probably couldn't hold it back any longer, so she simply raised her head and laughed loudly. Her laughter was like a silver bell, echoing in this empty mountain.

After she had laughed enough, she looked back. Perhaps she had laughed too hard, and there was still a trace of blush on her face. She looked at me silently and shook her head and said, "You have the blood of a celestial official flowing in your body, which is inherently fierce. You buried the dragon veins and cut the three corpse trees. You are disrespectful to heaven and earth, and you are not afraid of cause and effect or right and wrong. How can you be so unbearable sometimes?"

Listen to the tone of the words. I can hear that she is referring to something in her words. She is no longer joking with me. After a little taste of her attitude today, I probably understand a lot: "So, this is the reason why you are angry?"

"What do you think? Do you think you are still human these days?"

Qingzhu narrowed her eyes slightly: "If you hadn't mentioned the other earth spirit bead, you still had some heroic spirit, not asking who the enemy is, but only asking where the things you want are, I really don't want to say a word to you.

Indeed, the word love has been difficult to understand since ancient times.

But do you think you are qualified to talk about love?

At that time, did you ever think of the bitterness and humiliation of your ancestors, and their struggles and compromises?

How long has your grandfather died? How long has your father been on the run?

The bloody smell of your family has not yet dissipated, what qualifications do you have to be depressed here for a woman! !

Any man in the world can talk about love, and anyone can die for a woman, but you can't!

When you are reading in your room like a hermit, why don't you think about why your master wants to force his way through? Why does your father want to flee?

They all understand better than you what you will face in the future, they are to protect you! !

Do you really think that you have experienced great storms now? No, it is far from enough. You have just been hidden by your master and the Tianmeng. The people in the world of Xuanmen have probably heard that the ritual officer has been reborn, and those old demons and ghosts hidden in the dark know nothing about it. And you haven't grown up yet, and you haven't really entered their sight.

You have also been to several tombs and seen what your sect has done. Do you know how many people wish that your sect would never recover? How many dormant things in the darkness are gritting their teeth when they mention you?

How are the ceremonial officers made? They stand at the top by stepping on the corpses of their relatives. Each of them is a strong man, each of them is a ruthless person. With their character, how many people have they suppressed and how much hatred have they left behind?

Hatred will not be drowned by time, but will only intensify!

One day, you will face all this. From the moment you step into the Xuanmen, it is destined!

By then, you will have no one to rely on, and you will stumble forward alone in the darkness...

Do you think you are really ready?

Do you know what will happen if you lie down and wait for your master, Lao Bai and Zhang Xinya? "

I couldn't say a word. Qingzhu's words pierced my heart like thorns.

Did I really not think about it?

No, today, I probably understand why the ritual officials are hated. Take the last heavenly official for example. Was what he did wrong? Not necessarily! But justice comes at a price. When you pursue it, you must be prepared to lose everything.

Generation after generation of ritual officials are like this. They only care about right and wrong, not who the opponent is. Hatred has also been passed down from generation to generation...

I am clear-headed, but... sometimes I really dare not think that what I see is just the tip of the iceberg. There are still many things hidden that I know nothing about...

I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid that I will not be able to live or die, and I will have to bury the people I know with my own hands. From then on, I will be the only one left in the world. After a hundred years of vicissitudes, that is the most terrifying.

People always seek good fortune and avoid evil. I am really a little scared...

But, Qingzhu is right. It is useless to be afraid. It is still waiting for me there.

"She... is also looking at you."

Suddenly, Qingzhu said: "She said that if she had known this would happen, she would rather let you die."

My heart twitched, and I raised my head: "Who... is she?"

Qingzhu said nothing.

So, I asked again: "Is she from the Tianmeng?"

Qingzhu hesitated for a moment and nodded gently.

I asked again: "So, she didn't see me because she was afraid of the prophecy?"

"Prophecy?"

Qingzhu seemed to have not expected me to ask this question. She looked dull and then sneered: "A person's life has countless directions, just like dominoes, with countless joints, each joint is full of variables. If one point changes, then everything changes. Zhang Daoxuan once saw a corner of your future and left a prophecy, but that corner of the future is just one of your countless destiny directions, illusory and full of uncertainty. Who is she? Would she be afraid of such a thing?"

Seeing that I was silent, Qingzhu said again: "She saved you because she owed you a huge favor. Her refusal to see you is actually a kind of protection for you. Too many eyes are staring at her, and many of them are enemies of your sect. If she meets you, it will be a kind of strangulation for you!"

After a pause, she suddenly turned her head to look at me, her eyes burning, and then changed the subject and asked: "In other words, even if you meet her, what do you think is the use? Reality is reality, fairy tales are fairy tales."

I thought about her words carefully, the corners of my mouth lifted, and my heart was bitter.

Yes, reality is reality, fairy tales are fairy tales.

In the fairy tale, Cinderella can live happily with the prince, carefree.

In reality, Cinderella, who is used to sleeping on a hard bed, will have back pain when sleeping on a soft couch. Countless aristocratic etiquette will make her life, which belongs to the wilderness, depressing and breathless. She may even become a laughing stock among the rich and powerful, and eventually become depressed.

This is the distance.

If you want an excellent lover, you must be excellent enough yourself, otherwise, you don't understand what he says, and he doesn't understand what you say. What is left after a short passion is eternal embarrassment.

I thought about her, and then about myself, and then found that she began to become blurred.

"Forget her, live in the present."

Qingzhu looked at the sun, and drew a circle with her slender fingers towards the sky, covering the Zhenwu Temple in the distance, and whispered: "Everything here is real to you, and ruthlessness is affection.

Of course, if one day you can really enter the Tianmeng with your own ability, and no one dares to stop you wherever you go, then you go to see her, if... at that time you still have her in your heart, she is yours.

Oh, by the way, this sentence is not said by me, but by herself. She said that she will not go anywhere, just watching you there, waiting for you to see her."

Does it hurt?

I touched my chest, and it seemed... it didn't hurt that much anymore. Instead, when I looked at the Zhenwu Temple, my heart felt warmer, so I said, "Okay, but I need some time."

"Don't delay too long. You only have half a year left. You'll have plenty of time after you die."

Qingzhu was not gentle at all. He stood up directly, glanced at me, stretched his waist, and said lightly, "Suddenly I don't look down on you that much. You should still be a man. If you really can't bear it, remember to have a good sleep. You can have anything in your dreams if you like to dream.

Also, don't be half-dead all the time and make your master worry. He is probably the person who loves you the most in the world besides your parents. When I went to find him and knew your situation, he sat outside the house all night, looking into the distance with a vague look. He didn't say anything. I know he was worried about whether you can bear it..."

My ears gradually became quiet.

Qingzhu left at some point.

I followed her and looked up at the sky. Actually, I am a vulgar person. I used to think about money, and now I think about women. I really don't have time to look at the world around me like a serious outsider. This is the first time that I find this world so beautiful.

So, I just stared at the sky. When I came to my senses, it was already dark. I didn't know when a thermos bucket was placed next to me, and the food inside was cold.

I touched my skin and bones, pouted, and said to the person behind me: "Okay, I know you are peeping, don't worry, I will eat..."

After that, I took out the food and started to eat it in big mouthfuls. Suddenly, my nose was sour, I sniffed and continued to eat.

Then... I looked up at the night sky again.

Sometimes I really feel that I am like a god who is about to ascend to heaven, motionless, as if in a trance.

Time seems to have no concept in my eyes.

All I know is that the sky turns black and blue, and so on and so forth...

Until a rustling sound of footsteps interrupted my train of thought, I twisted my stiff neck, looked back, and was struck by lightning.

Behind me, there was a man standing with his hands behind his back, wearing a green shirt, slender figure, a Taoist hair bun, deep eyes, slightly raised lips, revealing a warm smile.

I opened my mouth, my throat was a little choked, and I called out softly: "Master..."

The other party nodded slightly, stretched out a hand from behind, rubbed my head hard, and smiled: "Okay, it's noon, Zhang Xinya has prepared the meal, go back with Master, we still have a lot of things to do..."

I nodded heavily, and my wandering heart finally settled down for several days. I looked up at the sky for the last time and sighed silently in my heart.

It is beautiful, but it is really easy to forget everything.

I looked down at my feet. At least, I now knew which way I should go.

When I reached the mountain gate, I suddenly stopped and turned to look at my master: "Master, I want to make seven beads and become a heavenly official."

My master was stunned, then nodded: "Okay, then we will set off in a few days."