Chapter 1:45 Cats and Kings, Xoxo Nyx

Chapter 1:45 Cats and Kings, Xoxo Nyx

Watching him, holding him……

Having a real family….Being a mother was all I wanted.....

I close that memory. That too painful recollection, telling myself the same thing I had been with RJ.

I cannot, will not, let Voldemort spoil this. My inability to have children has no bearing on my capability to be a parent. Well, when I get my life together that is, and once Nicky and Alex work through their current tiff, I will be an Aunt.

Nicky has wanted to be a Dad as long as I’ve wanted to be a mom. Unlike me, he does remember the family he lost. I can’t say which is harder.

Remembering what you miss or the void that lingers with no understanding on how to fill it. Either way, I need to buckle down, and maybe being a Nanny will be good practice.

What does a Nanny do anyway, and who asks a complete stranger to take care of their kid?