Chapter 126

Jax walked into the room, holding Xander who was making baby sounds at him. I watched as they interacted and smiled. It seemed like Jax had been waiting for this moment all his life. He knew what to do to take care of Xander.

"Let's go say hi to mummy." He said as he carried him over to me. Jax placed him in my hands and I felt a sense of disconnect. I didn't know what was wrong with me but after hearing what I did last night, I wasn't sure if I should be left around him. "Is anything the problem?"

"What if I hurt him next time? What if I'm not fit to be his mother? I love him so much but I don't know." I admitted and Jax sat on the bed, while I finally let go of the tears I was holding back. "I feel like I'm not good enough."