I never lost you

It took me a while to see—

I never lost you, you lost me.

For two years, I waited,

loved you in silence,

through thick and thin.

Even as friends,

you were everything to me—

but I was never enough for you.

Now that I'm leaving,

you say you feel the same,

but you "can't do distance."

I begged you to try,

was willing to stay—

my biggest mistake.

I should have chosen myself.

I would have sacrificed everything,

but you wouldn't do the same.

And in that moment, it clicked—

you were never mine to lose.

And guess what?

It doesn't hurt anymore.

Just a quiet numbness—

at least for now.

Because if you loved me

the way I loved you,

you would have tried.

But you won't.

And that's okay.

So we'll go back to being friends,

pretend nothing happened,

and I'll pretend that's fine with me.