Chapter 128 Green Eyed Monster

  Alessandro

  Horror.

  Absolute shock.

  What is happening to me?

  Why does everyone get away with deceiving me?

  I feel useless and as dumb as a bitch. Can I ever get anything right?

  Why do I always get used by people?

  I'm a dumb mafia boss.

  A very dumb mafia boss.

  Possibly the worst mafia boss in history.

  With each wave of hatred and self torture, I downed yet another glass of whisky down with great force.

  I need something as heavy as this. I need to drown out the voices of my rotten father and my useless grandfather.

  My father was laughing at me. I could hear it loud and clear.

  It's in my head. His voice is in my head and I can't get it out. It's so loud that I hate it.

  I hate hearing his roaring laughter as I imagined him smacking me over the head like he usually does which he knew that I hated.

  I hated it whenever he did that. He made me feel very worthless and weak.

  Like I would never amount to anything.