Chapter 24 :: Condemned
Rahat reluctantly took it from her and tore it open....
what was written inside.....
"dear Rahat...
jis tarah se tumne mera saath dene ke baare mein socha, kisi shock se kaam ni thi,...lekin kaash tumhe ye ehasaas hota ki mainne tumhe us tarah kabhee pyaar nahin kiya,.....
Yakeen mano chah kar bhi kabhi ni kar payi!
mera vishvaas karo maine us din tak koshish kiya hai jab tak main chali nahin gayi.....
Ha, aagar tum ye khat pad rahe ho to mein yaha se bohut door ja chuki hoon
aur ye jaanate hue bhee ki main tumse kabhi pyaar nahin kar paungi, main tumhare saath nahin rah sakti tumhare zindagi par grahan ban kar,.....
main ek bigadail insaan hoon...mere jaisee ladki itane bade ghar kee bahoo nahin banne layak ni hain.
magar tumne phir bhi mujhe chuna, mera samman kiya,....isiliye agar tum aaj ye letter padh rahe ho, to jaan lo ki main apanee sabase jaroori, apanee sabase pasandidaa cheez, ek amaanat ke taur pe tumhare liye chhod rahi hoon,.....
mere behen Ruthba!
wo maasoom hai, bedaag hai,.....
pavitra hai! ....
meri tarah nahi !
mera yakeen hai ki meree behen ke liye tumse behatar koyi nahin hai!
P.S. maine pahale kabhee tumhare baare mein itana ooncha nahin socha tha...lekin tumne mujhe galat saabit kar diya hai!
to meri binti hain ke, mujhe yahan galat saabit maat karna!
khuda hafiz"
[ Dear Rahat.....
the way you thought of supporting me, it was... overwhelming, but i wish you had realized that i never loved you like that,
i couldn't!
believe me I've tried until the very day i left.
i couldn't stay with you knowing that I'd never be able to love you and yet staying in your life like eclipse!
i'm a damaged good,.....girl like me can't be the elder daughter-in-law of house as big and honorable as this.
you still chose me, you honoured me,....so if you are reading this letter today, know that I'm leaving you my most important, my dearest thing, as a Amanat ( precious possession of my life ),.....
my sister Ruthba!
she has now no one except me. She is innocent, untouched....
pure!
unlike me!
and, i believe, no one is better than you for my sister!
P.S. i have never thought so highly of you before...but you have proven me wrong!
but Please, don't prove me wrong here!
khuda hafiz! ]
Rahat crumpled the paper with such force and abruptly stood up from his seat, Insiyaa jumped off her feet....
his face was red with fury!
he glowered at his sister with such a rage,.....Insiyaa never saw her brother like...
Neverrr!
for once she felt like taking a step back but she couldn't.....one second he was raising his right hand and the next thing everyone know ---
"bh--
"Rahat tum ye k--
[ Rahat what are you--- ]
*Slap*
Dining hall was pin drop silent...so, the sound of it echoed throughout the entire room and the impact was so hard on Insiyaa.....it turned her head to the side with a force that made her lost her footing and she fell on the cold marble floor, everyone around them were so shocked,.....
the servants let out gasps, two of them accidentally dropped plates of food they were holding all over the floor as well, their hand were covering their mouth,....
and Ruthba stayed rooted on her place by the end of the staircase.....
tears rolling down from her eyes!
She heard and saw all of it.....
"Rahat what the fuck" and in seconds, Shawkat yelled coming toward him and punching him right on his nose, making him doubling over with pain,.....
"Rahat....ye kya behooda harkat hai" Amarendra Raichand shouted at the top of his lung
[ Rahat...what ridiculous act this is! ]
"ask your daughter that before questioning.....she is the one responsible for everything happening around here, all the mess she made, now I'm the one paying price" Rahat shouted back....
"what are you talking about.....?"
"she is the one resp--
at the same time, the gateman came in running.....he seemed to be out of breath!
"darwaje ke bahar ek ambulance khadi hai, hukum, andaar aane ki liye darwaja kholne ke izazat maang rahi hai" He said.....
[ there is an ambulance waiting outside the gate, asking permission to come in, sir ]
everyone there was even more surprised !
how does an ambulance have any business here in this Havelli ?
they walked out.....
everyone except, Insiyaa and Ruthba!
and their question and curiosity, everything was answered in form of body covered head to toe in white clothing,....
and then came out a elderly nurse with a screeching, wiggling bundle in her arms.
She came forward and started looking around.....
And then hand over the bundle to the nearest person she found infront of her...
it was their driver Gora!
who took it and looked behind him, Rahat was coming toward him, his nose was bleeding with Shawkat running behind him as well, Amarendra Raichand was at the door,.....
"aap log Rushda Rahil ke family hai ? unhone humein yehi address diya tha"
[ are you guys Rushda Rahil's family.....she gave us this address ]
two men pulled the stretcher out of the ambulance and open the knot over dead body's head to show the face.....
It was the body of Rushda Rahil.
Soon as Rahat's eyes fell on the pale face of Rushda, his legs gave away underneath him.....he staggered back, only for Shawkat to strongly holding him on his place, he was just as much shocked!
one of the servant went inside running and informed the two woman in the house...
Ruthba came out running with Insiyaa was behind her!
they were shocked...!
"Rushiiii...Please wake up, please" Ruthba was hovering over her shaking her like crazy.....
but nothing happened!
She was gone!
"unki pregnancy bohut complicated thi,.....humne kaha kuch bhi ho sakti hai, unhone insist kiya ki baby ko hi bachaye aur yahan ka pata diya"
[ her pregnancy was very complicated....we told her anything can happened in Operation theatre, she insisted on saving her baby and gave us the address ]
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3 days after Rushda's burial....
It was evening....
Rahat was on the terrace, looking at the sky, gazing the stars.....
Insiyaa came looking for him,...
"B-bhai....."
[ brother
"Chale jao mere samne se.....tumhare shakal ni dekhna chahti me" Rahat growled
[ go away...i don't want to see your face ]
"M-magar isme meri kya galti hai aap mujhe kyun dosh de rahe hai ?"
[ but what's my fault, why are you blaming me ? ]
Rahat sharply turned making Insiyaa take few steps back,.....flinching
He looked at his sister with all pain and anger and hatred and resentment and said no----
spat!
"baaddua hain ye mere Insiyaa Hayat Raichand.....ek din tumhe bhi wahi dard mehsoos hoga jis dard se aaj mein gujar rahi hoon, Tum kisiko itna chahogi, wo tumhare samne hoga, par tumhe wo nahi milegi,.....uss din tumhe pata chalega ke kisi paayar karne wale ko khona kaisa lagta hain"
[ Curse you Insiyaa Hayat Raichand, one day....one day you'd feel the exact pain i felt...you would want someone so much, he'd be so close and yet you won't be able to have him. You'd know what it feels like to loose your beloved.....]
her eyes watered...
she was suddenly reminded of the the infatuation she had 2 years ago,.....that one moment, his face, his enchanting blueish grey eyes popped in her mind making her letting out a shaky fearful breath...
She stumbled back ever so slightly...
"Aapko rab da vasta bhaisa ye baddua wapas lijiye...maine kuch ni kiya hai, ..... Wapas lijiye isse, khuda ka vasta aapko"
[ Please....take it back, please, i did nothing, i have nothing wrong to you, Khuda ka vaasta bhai sa.... Please....take it back, please ]
Rahat ruthlessly turned and left from terrace and she was left alone there...
Crying in agony...
"Rahat bhai please,....listen to me----
baba!.....i didn't do anything"
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