Chapter Eleven: Life Continues

Since I have already missed school the previous day I have no plans of missing it today. I quickly prepared for school, my room mates were asking if I was okay 'cos I have forming seriousness all night which was totally unlike me plus the fact that my eyes was all red and swollen when they came back from school, it seemed like I have been crying, they were asking for what happened and whether all is well, I just ignored all their questions after all this morning the redness of my eye has cleared, I just used concealer to blend my dark eye with the rest of my face, they still kept on throwing inquisitive gazes at me which I kept ignoring, they even made me not to eat and left for my classes 'cos that will give them more room to pester me.

At school I was really focused because I can't come and loose in both ways, we wrote about two quiz that day, I just wrote what I could remember there as my mind was kinda clouded. After school I walked home with my air pod soothingly playing Air plane mode by Fire boy ( a Nigerian singer) into my ear drums 'cos that is actually my mood right now. When I got home I connected my phone to my MP3 and playing different soul music while I bathed, ate and laid on my bed staring at the ceiling, I was just welcomed to woman hood in the most unexpected way by some one who didn't even regard it one bit claiming that I made him break him break his oath to who ever he made it to, probably him self.

How could David change into this beast that I spoke to the last time, I just couldn't wrap my head around the whole transformation thing, what if I was raped? now I see why the girls that were raped never really recover from the trauma because it's only them that knows what they actually passed through, men are really wolves in sheep clothing, no wonder my parents always warned me and shielded me from them. And to think that I was already beginning to love this guy without what I was venturing into, every time I toss and turn on my bed I relive those moments and it just got me more and more depressed, when next I remembered myself was when I heard my room mates voices in the room, It happened to be that I slept off while having my random thoughts.

I decided to go back to being my normal self around my room mates so that they would stop asking me those stupid questions because there is a way they will pressure me and I will spill it all out and it was best I kept it a secret because you never can tell when we will have a quarrel and they will want to get back at me by exposing it and I will be really devastated. I asked them about their day and how their classes were, they were surprised at first at my sudden change of attitude although my countenance has not changed like that but at least that was an improvement, they took turns talking about all that happened at school, I also told them about my quiz and about how we all have to start going for night class together and taking our academics very seriously, they laughed and jokingly teased me saying how will I take my studies seriously with newly found distraction abi lover, my mood changed back immediately I didn't even smile, I just stood up and went into the kitchen and started preparing dinner, I could hear them murmuring some words to each other I didn't even care to listen I just focused on what I was doing.

While we were eating I could see the look of perplexity on their faces but I just didn't mind them I just ate my food and had my bath and went to our study table and started going through my books, practicing some calculations we did in class in class and also trying to use the knowledge on some other ones that we didn't do in class but we're in the text book just to be sure I have perfected it, I did a little bit more reading on that course before I went on to my G.S books, since I didn't have class tomorrow morning it was in the after noon plus I rested well during the day I just thought I could make good use of my night, before morning I have covered up to six (6) chapters of my G.S 103 (Philosophy), one thing I loved about reading this course is that as you are reading it you will be feeling the vibe as if you are becoming a compendium of knowledge and it really feels cool, the confidence is some thing else. When my room mates woke up, we had our morning prayers did our chores and ate, the ones that had morning class left but Amanda didn't have any class at all that day, I just rested my head. An hour before my class by 2pm, I stood up to prepare for school by then the ones that left for school in the morning were already back and prepared lunch but I didn't eat because I know that I would need that food more by the time I returned so I kept my own and left for school, as I was walking to school I was just moving with morale. After classes I came home and then ate my lunch I was really hungry. After that I started writing my assignments before it skipped my mind not with standing the fact that we will not be submitting it any time soon, it was next week Friday that we were to submit it but this is the type that can be easily forgotten. After that I started reading my books, the way I was taking my books so serious it was like I was using it as a distraction from what was actually going on in my heart, I just sunk my self so deep into my studies, but what will I say, it was actually a very good distraction. Before you knew it months has passed, we wrote our exams and it was time to travel back home for the holiday, thank goodness I have been seeing my period all these months regularly so there was nothing to worry about. I actually did my best in my exams as I was well prepared and no question shocked me in the hall, I was already familiar with them because I studied past questions too.