JoyceOrtsen

“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Tell you what, Richard? What would you have done?”
“I don’t know. Apologized sooner? Bought you a burger to make up for it?”
Her eyes lit up with fire, “You think what you did to me… you think a burger can make up for it?” her eyes twinkled like she was fighting tears. Did I hurt her that badly? I was just a foolish teenager.
“Nita, I am sorry. I was young, I was stupid. I wish I could take it all back and tell you how I feel instead of being a constant jerk to gain your attention.”
“How did you feel that would justify what you did to me?”
I paused for a minute, finding the words. “I had a huge crush on you at the time. And I didn’t know how to express myself. I was full of myself, I was the school’s ladies' man and the one girl I had eyes for didn’t even care if I existed,”
 “And that justified what you did to me? Richard, you broke me. I can forgive you for ‘accidentally’ spilling your ice cream on me, or throwing my due assignment in the toilet, or the gum in my hair, or the glue in my chair but tell me how can I forgive you for what you did that night? Tell me!”
“What night? Nita, what are you talking about?”
“Remember when you asked me if I knew who sexually assaulted me?”
I nodded, but what does that have to do with anything?  The more we spoke, the more confused I became.
“You did and I cannot believe that you would stand there and pretend like it didn’t happen!”


Nita has spent years trying to forget the torment she endured at the hands of Richard. When her family’s financial ruin forces her into an arranged marriage, she is horrified to find out the groom himself was her bully.
Richard, a charming and successful businessman meets the first woman to be repulsed by him. Intrigued, he proposes a deal of a one year marriage of convenience.
Navigating life as a couple, old wounds reopen, buried memories surface. As Richard learns more about his wife, he finds that he has enemies that followed him from his past to continuously cloud his wife’s judgement.
Will Nita believe the truth and bury old wounds or will the pain of the past prove too strong to heal?

In Love With My Bully

The next morning when I woke up, the house was quiet, peaceful. I hadn't been in my apartment since I had Queen. I checked my phone and saw that the media was blowing up with news about Richard. Numero Heir: A Victim of Paternity Fraud.

Looked like everyone had an opinion. Some called Richard a hero, some called him foolish, and some called him a simp.

Gwen was also trending. She had become the poster girl for paternity fraud. How the mighty have fallen!

I was glad, though, that Queen wasn't mentioned in any of these stories and gossips. But you never know; the media can surprise you.

I shook my head and couldn't believe I survived being a Numero.

I wasn't interested in their noise. For the first time in a long time, I wanted to focus on me. Not as Mrs. Numero. Not as the woman standing beside Richard. Not as Richard's wife. Not as Richard's ex. Not as Richard's baby mama. Just Nita.

Letting Go