11:08pm

Train reached the station I rushed outside running towards the given address with all my might I'm not good at running but if not now then when? I have to do it no matter what

just wait I'm coming I ran and after 40 minutes I reached the adress

Fuck I'm so happy I finally made it now I can finally see her after 2 years one last time and die peacefully

I climbed the stairs the of the appartment, went to the hallway and searched there it was a door with her name on it I knocked on the door , rang the bell nobody answered, I even shouted her name outloud nobody answered

Where are you ?

Why aren't you home dumboo ?

You supposed to stay home it's Christmas and u love Christmas...agghhhThen I asked the security guard and he told me she lives here but in the evening he saw her leaving with a bag and I don't know where she is Fuckkkkk do u have her house keys ?"Yes but we can't give it to you like that " he said Agghh I took out my purse and put all the cash on the table and asked him to give me the keys I just need to leave something inside Hurry up He's shocked , suspicious and confused but couldn't reject the offer so good so he gave me the keys I took the keys and went inside it was such a pretty place u have made , wow Only if I could live here with you , only if we could make all our dreams come true , only if we could live like we dreamt of. I looked at a picture of you and I'm so happy I couldn't find a soul like you in this world a soul that would excatly be like mine , that would accept this fucked up soul and give it a reason to love again, to smile again and to Live again

I'm so Grateful for you my Dãrrin. I left a Letter on your bed With some flowers I picked on the way nd something that u always wanted , something that I promised to give to you , the first copy of the my book So instead of the first here u can have the original one

I promised you I'll give it to u once I complete it , sorry couldnt complete it but it's more than sufficeint to leave behind as my legacy, to leave behind after my death, to leave behind for this world ,

As I turned back to move out my eyes got stuck on something a picture,. It's me ??

But how ???

Why she still has it???

Nd written underneath is ," the guy who held my heart, the guy who held my peace, the guy who is everything that could be perfect in this world and the guy who is nothing but peace Personified yet he hold so much chaos inside if him and to the guy I love more than anything, more than anyone ...

I locked the door , give the keys back to the Security gurad and left

11:58pm

Now there's nothing else left for me to Do Now I can die peacefully, happily and without any regret it's sad that I didn't get to see you but maybe that's my destiny and I gladly accepts it , I started walking on the streets and as I was getting down the stairs It started Snowing again it's so beautiful the Christmas lights, the snow the sky I'm glad I was born In this beautiful world I feel Something inside of me , something crumbling, breaking and turning into piece ka I guess My Time has come