Shower curtains

Joshua nearly broke the door down as he threw the sandwich on the bed instead of me.

"Where's the fucking shower?!" He cursed out loud as he looked around till he found the extra door in the room.

"Shouldn't we do it on the bed?" I asked him and giggled more.

Since when do I giggle?!

Joshua Open the door to the bathroom and threw me inside.

"Hey!" I yelled at him for manhandling me but then I smiled and went for his pants "Come on, do me! I know you want to"

"Sorry" he whispered and turned the shower on. The cold water hit me like tsunami, and I was reset.

"Something is not right with you, Kai. Something is wrong"

I was drenched instantly and I was snapped back to the reality that I just propositioned Joshua McNeily, mine and Ryder's best friend!

What the hell is wrong with me?!

I wanted to fuck Joshua! I think I will throw up now!

***

My body was literally on fire. It was like I was amped up on Viagra or something.

My fucking luck.

Leave it to me to find the most unfortunate time to go into heat.

I blinked and I waited, maybe…just maybe, Joshua McNeily was right and the shower would do some good.

I doubt that it would suppress the need to find a cliff and jump off of it based on the amount of embarrassment I was feeling.

I just fucking made a pass at my husband's best friend.

Ex-husband!

Let the distinction be made. Does it redeem me a little?

Probably not.

I kissed Joshua!

As soon as I thought of his name, all I saw was his beautiful lips and jacked up body. The desire to have him do wicked things to me, to bend my legs in ways I didn't know my legs could.

He looked capable.

He played on replay in front of me and it got worse.

I felt my veins throb, pulsing with primal need.

My senses heightened, every nerve ending tingled.

My skin was so sensitive that even the dirty wall of the dirty motel bathroom felt like…I can't even begin to find words for it.

I prickled, pheromones coursing through me like liquid fire. The desire was unrelenting and persistent.

Damn.

"Are you alright in there?" Joshua yelled from behind the shower curtains.

"Mm-hmm. Fantastic." I said as my toes started to curl and I sank my teeth in my lips in hopes of stopping myself from moaning.

It didn't help.

My claws extended and retracted almost in succession.

Joshua's earthy aroma, the motel's stale air, my own musky scent was all too overwhelming.

"Maybe, try touching yourself. It might…help" Joshua stammered from behind the shower curtain.

"Joshua!" I screamed murder.

"Yeah"

"Get the fuck out!" I screamed.

"Yep. That's fair enough"

I heard the door open and then it was slammed shut.

"Fuck!" I screamed.

I grabbed the shower curtain and held on to it.

My body screamed for a mate that didn't exist anymore. Every part of me was a mountain of arousal.

I must be cursed…to have this bright fire ignite in me and to be unloved and unwanted all at the same time.

It was painful.

*

Minutes must have passed.

I sat under the motel shower's warm stream, attempting to wash away my embarrassment.

Great!

Fucking fantastic! Can today get any worse?

I pressed a hand to my mouth to stop myself from making a sound as more tears emerged.

My free trembling hand braced against the dirty wall and I tried to hold still…tried to swallow my feelings.

How hard can it be, I have been doing it my whole life?

The shower curtain pushed open and Joshua emerged holding a blue faded towel. I looked away, unable to hold his gaze.

"Stand" He ordered, his eyes running all over me briefly "I couldn't find a hair dryer in the damn motel. So, I bought a Blue Cox cap, it was either that or the red devils hoodie and I draw a line at doing that"

Joshua and his football team…boy loves them Blues.

I wondered if this was the part where I bow down in shame and beg for forgiveness.

I came on to Joshua McNeily…I'm never going to live it down, I'm never going to forget.

"Josh-" I started to say but I was cut off

"What the hell happened, Kai?" He asked, holding my gaze for the first time, his face spoke of both confusion and a little bit of anger…like he'd been handed a gigantic puzzle he couldn't even begin to solve. "I don't understand what happened"

"I'm sorry, Josh. I have no excuse. I won't even-"

"No. I meant what happened between you and Ryder, Kai"

Ryder.

Days, hours or minutes…it felt like eternity.

What went wrong? That's a good question, isn't it?

I felt tired to the bones and I needed another shower to soothe my aching body except I couldn't lift a finger, I was too exhausted too.

So, I dragged myself up and off I went to the motel bedroom.

I barely made it to the room when Joshua grabbed my hand and turned me around.

"What happened?"

"I…I…" I must have opened my mouth twice but only one word came out.

Damn it, I could feel my eyes beginning to tear up and so I blinked them away.

"Um-hmm" I ended up nodding. "I have no fucking idea"

"Did you fight?" He asked me.

"No"

"Okay, maybe not a fight…a lover's spat perhaps?"

"Nope"

"Did you…" Joshua started again but I'd had enough.

"I'm barren! I couldn't give him a child and he kicked me out. I loved him, I cared for him, I fucking did everything that was expected of a good old slave girl that I am…it wasn't enough! My womb is empty!"

"Kaidaira…"

"Go away" I told him.

"Kai"

"Get the fuck out of the room so I can change out of this damn clothes, Joshua…or you can stay and we can revisit what happened earlier!"

Joshua hurried out of the room.

Way to go, Kaida! I just succeeded in alienating the only person in the whole wide world who gave a shit about me.

Great! Come on! Is that the worst you can do?

I yelled at the universe.