AlwaysWanted

A hopeless man who didn't know what he was living for, had no friends or lovers, and lost his confidence.

Hoping for a world that is kind to him and miraculously, he finds that at one point the world has become what he wants.
　
A world where women's libido has increased due to the decrease in men.
The world where gender acts of men and women have declined.
A world where all women want an approach from men.
A world where most men even fear women.
　
A man engages with women who like him in the world he wants.
In that, I will regain my confidence little by little.

(T/N: This work is a translation. Original Author is Kuro. For further inquiry, please email me at thegoatofthe2000s@gmail.com)

Reversal Reignited

Yukari looked very happy when she heard my answer. It was a smile without any contempt for me, something I had always wanted from both men and women.

At her urging, I took another shower. It seemed she had already noticed that the inside of my pants was covered in semen.

After rinsing off my slimy lower body, I returned to the living room, where Yukari was waiting for me. She looked anxious, yet also had the air of resolve, and bowed her head to me.

"I'm sorry. I once again used my feelings as an excuse to do something selfish, and..."

Yukari's expression tightened as she spoke.

"...To be honest, when I see how Shun-sama has been overflowing with kindness recently...I feel like the stopper of my emotions has come off, and it's because I've never been in contact with a man as kind as Shun-sama is now..."

I think she's just indecisive rather than kind, but this is not the time to correct her, and I don't have the courage to do so.

"I-I thought I had to hold myself back as a housekeeper, but...after seeing his hardened penis the other day...I don't know how to put the brakes on, and more than anything, I'm using the fact that Kaori-sama has given me permission as an excuse."

Yukari-san was expressing her feelings without hiding them, or so I thought. I can understand well that when you're not used to the opposite sex, you can't control your emotions when someone is kind to you. Maybe the level is different, but I wonder if we feel the same way.

I don't know how to respond appropriately, but I don't want her to have such a stern look on her face. With that thought in mind, I began to speak slowly, with a trembling voice.

"I, I don't want you to think that this is such a luxury... I mean, if you're not used to being around men... I could be your practice dummy..."

Being a practice dummy is fine. In fact, even that is a luxury to me. I wanted to have a relationship with her, even if it meant being an outlet for Yukari's sexual desires.

Mom probably realizes that there was something more than just intimacy between me and Yukari and accepts it on that basis. If that's the case, then from my perspective, I'll end up seeing Yukari as a woman.

In truth, I was already attracted to Yukari, and ideally I'd like to have more intimate contact with her. However, I knew that it was too much to ask for Yukari and I to become lovers and get cozy.

Yukari might open up to me, but I didn't think she'd become the lover of a guy like me. Clearly, she and I are not a good match.That's why I thought I would treat her as a practice dummy to help her get used to men, and as a receptacle for when her sexual desires overflow. 

Of course, this is just my own fantasy, and if Yukari says she's been fired, that's it, but that's all I can say.

"D-don't look down on yourself like a practice dummy... Shun-sama is a great, kind, and wonderful person!"

Yukari still puts me up. It hurts my heart to know that she has to do this because of her position.

"Even though I'm a housekeeper, I'm the one causing trouble... I'm very happy that you're getting along with me, but I just want you to tell me what you want."

Yukari said that she would respect my wishes above all else, so I told her that I wanted to help her when she was in trouble. Still, just as we were starting to argue a little, I heard the front door open. Yuki seemed to have come home from cram school.

"I'm back. Oh, Shun-nii and Yukari-san are here."

13. Steamy Decision