waterfall

Once more my heart was caught in my throat. I slowly set my book down on the bench seat, my eyes fixated on those of that wolf. My heart started to race as panic started to set. I stood up slowly shaking and drew the thin lace curtains closed. As if that would help, I thought. I lifted the fabric slightly and peaked outside to see if maybe it was my imagination. I was proven wrong as the wolf had moved so it was sitting positioned under my window, its yellow eyes staring up at me. I let out a small scream and jumped back, retreating back into my room and up against the wall. I looked over at the time, 6:23 the sun should be up soon. Hopefully it will go away. I sat for a long time until my tired eyes closed on their own and I drifted into a restless sleep. I awoke some time later the bright sun shining in my eyes. I wearily looked around my room and decided to stand up. I slowly crept over to the window daring to peak out. It was gone, finally. I sit down at my desk and apply concealer to my chin, covering up last nights events. I throw on a sweater and some sweats and head downstairs. There's no one here. I head to the kitchen where I find a note left by my father and brother,

Audra, we went to the mall to get some more furniture for Kai's and your room, we will be back later. Love dad and Kai.

I mean it made sense why they left, my bed wasn't even in a frame and we bought the desk from a thrift store we passed by last week so pretty sparse in the furniture department. We could have had all our furniture shipped, but it was to expensive. I make myself a simple sandwich and munch on that as I stare out the back door. I decide that a walk in the neighborhood would do some good so I put on some sneakers and set off down our driveway. Our neighbors land was about a half acre away from ours so we could see their house but mostly just their land. I set off toward the town which was only a few mile walk. I walked for maybe 30 minutes before deciding to head back. I strolled down the dirt road my mind finally blank from the events of last night. It was peaceful, I didn't even mind that I was walking next to the forest. I made it home and plopped down on the couch beads of sweat forming on my forehead. I had decided to jog the last mile. I mindlessly flipped through the tv trying to find something to watch. My eyes kept wandering to a window that faced the forest. Something keeps pulling me back. It was like no matter what even happened yesterday I just needed to go back. I let my feet take me up off the couch and over to the door. As if in a trance I put on my muddy boots from last night and stepped out onto the back deck. I walked quickly to the treeline my mind going numb. I felt as though I watched myself in third person, like I wasn't even in the drivers seat. I walked off path as if my feet knew the way. I continued walking until I came upon this huge waterfall. It felt like I was zapped back into reality as I took in fully my surroundings. A large waterfall fell into a lake. The water seemed untouched by any human life. It was a beautiful crystal blue. There on the other side of the lake was a small group of deer. Birds flew overhead singing a sweet melody. I walked over to the lake and took off my boots. I sat on a rock and dipped my toes into the cool water. A shiver ran up my toes all the way to my neck. I settled in and I let my mind wander. As I let myself slip into my thoughts I saw movement from a distance. Curious, I pull myself up from the water and carefully step over to it. That same dusty brown wolf from before emerges. My heart starts to race like before, as I feel the panic set in my fight or flight instinct betrays me. As if like a switch flips all my emotions drain out of me. A feeling of numbness washes over me as my body becomes loose. What is happening? Why can't I control my body. I just sit there while the wolf stalks closer to me taking in my scent. My body loses all posture and I collapse onto the ground, my face smacking against the somewhat plush grass. The wolf put his face next to mine and starts to lick away the dirt. What on earth? It's like I was so panicked I fainted while still conscious. Is that a thing? I started to calm down a little and the wolf started nudging me with his nose. Almost urging me to get up. I tried, I tried moving any muscle in my body but I was stuck, unable to move. It started whining at me licking my face once more. My eyes started to feel heavy. I closed them and allowed the darkness to take me.